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Same here MDB - several relatives have succumbed to tobacco's evil effects. Two of the ones I actually liked too.

Your call, but it seems silly to get worked up about that while you have other problems which maybe pose a more immediate threat to your wellbeing. Though obviously lung cancer is more obviously frightening.
 
50, 62, and 80 ish were/are the ages it took its toll. Worse case scenario i could only have a few years left. Its a genetic lottery though really as far as i can tell, my stepdad has exceeded an average life expectancy for his generation, i think he gave up in his 50s too, but has now been sticken with terminal lung cancer at this late stage of his life.

Im not overly worked up or concerned atm, i was just a bit disapointed and annoyed that i succumbed yet again. Try, try and try again times 500.
 
mydrugbuddy said:
yeah bupe made me feel more confident, even untouchable and invincible, or insulated as Sammy G would put it. I found too many benzos lowered my inhibitions more though, and impaired my judgement more, so i did things on benzos i wouldnt have dreamt of doing otherwise. Things im not going to even mention here which is a rarity for me. Bupe didnt seem to impair my judgement as far as i could tell, reflcting on some benzo things ive done ive been so embarrased and ashamed and have mostly been very lucky to get away with things.

For a few week i did seem to fall out with nearly everyone on here, that wasnt a good time, as one of the places i had turned to for support seemed to be turning against me. It took me a while to realise i was being irrational and aggressive and thats what i was getting coming back at me from some people. Thankfully not everyone joined in, and some people tried to help me through that.
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Awh I'm very sorry that happened to you. I've had that done to me so I know how that feelsespecially if you're on your own. I'm always here if you need someone to talk to n I can be a right mooody cow too lol. Was you on subs back then?
I've noticed being on subs I'll say stuff to people I'd never dream of saying n I'm usually quite shy n socially awkward but I've notice I can be quite loud on suboxone n wont stop talking plus I'll just say stuff that I'd usually keep to myself. Quite frightening really.

Evey x

Oh is anyone E-mail (PMs) playing up? I've an E-mail saying Knock has messaged me but its saying error in database or something n I feel ignorant now. Can someone give me a hand pls?
 
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Eveleivibe said:
Oh is anyone E-mail (PMs) playing up? I've an E-mail saying Knock has messaged me but its saying error in database or something n I feel ignorant now. Can someone give me a hand pls?
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Yes there is a problem with the site which I believe is affecting everyone. It will probably be some time later tonight when it gets fixed, because the engineer is based in the states, and is a volunteer so will presumably be doing her day job before she gets a chance to fix Bluelight.

The current problems are probably related to the recent server upgrade, and are being discussed on this thread here, the PM problem has been reported.
 
Btw that wasn't just a random post back there it was a call to MailMonkey - He used to go to the Eclipse back in the day .

Also Evad liked ELLis Dee n i haven't heard his name for to long around these parts . Big Luv N Respect <3
 
Mornin', all :)

Seem to have gotten away with remarkably little in the way of hangover which is a minor miracle given how pissed I was (bottle of gin down :\) plus fuckloads of heavily caffeninated mixers (ugh - usually brutal for hangovers, somehow not so bad today). I'm not complaining about the lack of hangover, mind :D

However, one thing about heavy drinking + heavy caffeination is that it turns me into a right stroppy bugger. As such, I owe Evey a bit of an apology for the tone of some of what I said when we had a lil crossed-words going on last night. PMs on the wonk it seems so will make it public - sorry for the harshness in both the codeine thread and PM. The underlying points I was making I stand by, but I could certainly have phrased them in less confrontational manner. I told you why but it's really no excuse for being quite so heavy-handed with the wording. Booze 'n' caffeine excess or no, I could've been a bit more constructive and a bit less shouty so hope you'll accept apology - the general content I stand by but I am sorry for the phrasing as it was totally unneccessary and rather OTT.

Methinks it's time for another booze break. Or at the very least a massive reduction. Tolerance is far too high so drinking far too much, far too quickly. Thankfully post finally arrived so will hopefully be indulging my day-to-day fuxxorration with nowt more stroppy-making than (perfectly legal, Mr Local Plods 'n' Plodesses) cannabbannaabbannaabbanoids. Much more suited to my temprement.
 
Shambles said:
Mornin', all :)

Seem to have gotten away with remarkably little in the way of hangover which is a minor miracle given how pissed I was (bottle of gin down :\) plus fuckloads of heavily caffeninated mixers (ugh - usually brutal for hangovers, somehow not so bad today). I'm not complaining about the lack of hangover, mind :D
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Still pissed probably :D

However, one thing about heavy drinking + heavy caffeination is that it turns me into a right stroppy bugger.
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You could just have claimed someone had hacked your account ;) it looked a bit like that!
 
If PM's are fuxxored, which they are, how come some people can still write them? I'm getting them, just can't open them.
 
StoneHappyMonday said:
If PM's are fuxxored, which they are, how come some people can still write them? I'm getting them, just can't open them.
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I got the database error immediately after sending a PM, and since that I can't access PMs.

All I can say is it must be a "data error", i.e. the information in the database is getting screwed up, maybe this happens per-member when they send a PM. When did you start getting the error? Have you tried to send a PM?
 
knock said:
You could just have claimed someone had hacked your account ;) it looked a bit like that!
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Ha! Unfortunately, I kinda suspect folk may have come to recognise when I'm in stroppy-pissed mode. Doesn't happen all that often these days but it's hard to miss when it does and ain't pretty :\

As for being still pissed, you're probably not far wrong. Slept okay (considering) and for a surprisingly long time (drunksleep is usually broken and brief for me) but head is still somewhat woozy rather than throbbing like a giant stubbed toe.

*makes note to acquire more otc painkillers in town*

Righty, off to chemist cos am two days late for me script. Managed to lose a day somewhere last week. Probably down the sofa.
 
knock said:
I got the database error immediately after sending a PM, and since that I can't access PMs.

All I can say is it must be a "data error", i.e. the information in the database is getting screwed up, maybe this happens per-member when they send a PM. When did you start getting the error? Have you tried to send a PM?
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Got the error first thing and cant get into them.
 
Good day EADD,I trust everyone is well.
Wasn't a good idea to double dose my methadone yesterday as just can't seem to wake up properly today. Good job I haven't got anything that needs doing as it wouldn't get done.
 
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