Getting off on needles?

[hairohwin]

Her biggest thing was to shoot people up who had never shot up before.

Yes, I really enjoy shooting up people who have never shot up before, either, and I know and realize that's fucked up. I never really thought about the power and submissiveness aspect of it before, but I suppose that would have to be part of it; the power I hold over the person I'm shooting up, not just in that moment, but also afterwards. Now that I'm not using as much and have come back down to reality, I really try not to introduce people to the needle anymore.

 

[Cornishman]

It may seem like fun and games, but one time I hit up my g/f and she very nearly died.

I got her breathing again after calling the ambulance but even then she was down to 4BPM (4 breaths per minute).

The guilt I felt afterwards, thinking about her kids not having a mother. And the thought of her family branding me as a murderer was enough to dissuade me from hitting anyone up ever again.

It's best to avoid the situation altogether imo.

 

[95Land]

It's best to avoid the situation altogether imo.

I think this about sums it up. It's lovely and a turn on when things go according to plan. But.... Things can go SO wrong.

This wasn't a sexual type thing, but...
Once, at a buddy of mines apartment, another friend of ours got it in his head that he NEEDED to try how we did it.
He was a long time Oxy snorter, but it was the classic situation. He wanted to see what the fuss was about.

So, for the next hour or so he relentlessly dogged my buddy, his girl and myself. Trying to get one of us to shoot him up.
I told him no, no, no, no.... Finally said I was just gonna leave if he didn't leave me alone.
He stopped bugging me and went back to my other friend. Dogged him and dogged him. Eventually he said "OK, fine! If it will get you to shut the fuck up then lets go."
Honestly, I was just happy and relieved I had avoided doing it. I did nothing to stop it from happening.

He booted it for him and he got that look in his eyes.
Less than a week later he crashed his car, but walked away from the accident. Next night he OD'd and was in the hospital for a night. The day he got out he went home, did a shot and had a asthmatic attack and died.
That's obviously not typical, but it's so hard to tell who can handle it and who will go completely off the rails.

I didn't do it for him, but it bugs me every day. That I should have done something. Punched him or my friend and chased him from the apartment or something ridiculous like that.
Everybody says he would have just found someone else and it's true. That doesn't mean it won't stick with me for the rest of my life.

This isn't directed at the OP.
It's just that introducing to the needle or hitting people is very much a extreme example of it's all fun and games until someone gets hurt. Or dies.
Be careful, selective.

 

[hairohwin]

I think this about sums it up. It's lovely and a turn on when things go according to plan. But.... Things can go SO wrong.

This wasn't a sexual type thing, but...
Once, at a buddy of mines apartment, another friend of ours got it in his head that he NEEDED to try how we did it.
He was a long time Oxy snorter, but it was the classic situation. He wanted to see what the fuss was about.

So, for the next hour or so he relentlessly dogged my buddy, his girl and myself. Trying to get one of us to shoot him up.
I told him no, no, no, no.... Finally said I was just gonna leave if he didn't leave me alone.
He stopped bugging me and went back to my other friend. Dogged him and dogged him. Eventually he said "OK, fine! If it will get you to shut the fuck up then lets go."
Honestly, I was just happy and relieved I had avoided doing it. I did nothing to stop it from happening.

He booted it for him and he got that look in his eyes.
Less than a week later he crashed his car, but walked away from the accident. Next night he OD'd and was in the hospital for a night. The day he got out he went home, did a shot and had a asthmatic attack and died.
That's obviously not typical, but it's so hard to tell who can handle it and who will go completely off the rails.

I didn't do it for him, but it bugs me every day. That I should have done something. Punched him or my friend and chased him from the apartment or something ridiculous like that.
Everybody says he would have just found someone else and it's true. That doesn't mean it won't stick with me for the rest of my life.

This isn't directed at the OP.
It's just that introducing to the needle or hitting people is very much a extreme example of it's all fun and games until someone gets hurt. Or dies.
Be careful, selective.

Sometimes, though, if people want to do it bad enough, they will find a way.

 

[Pagey]

It's just that introducing to the needle or hitting people is very much a extreme example of it's all fun and games until someone gets hurt. Or dies.
Be careful, selective.

Yup. The story doesn't even need to be as dramatic or unusual as yours...you introduce someone to the needle, I'm willing to bet they become addicted to the needle 90% of the time. If they weren't a smackhead before, they'll become one now, and does that ever truly end well?
It's not because most of them don't die within the next couple of weeks that it doesn't ruin their lives.

Sometimes, though, if people want to do it bad enough, they will find a way.

Of course, but...do you want to be that way?

Honestly I don't blame anyone who introduces others to a certain drug or ROA so long as it's the other person who asked for it and so long as it's obvious they're going to find a way to do it somehow. It's just sometimes, if you weren't there to give them that first shot or give them their first taste of whatever drug...they may not have gone looking anywhere else.
These are general thoughts OP, they're not directed at you in particular, but I do think they're important to keep in mind.

 

[dopemaster]

I had a really bad experience once with getting someone some dope. Long story short was that my friend had pissed off the local dealers and we got sold dope that was straight up poisoned. Anyways I got half a gram and split it with my gf. My friend hadnt warned me cuz he shot up the stuff in in a bathroom and ended up puking all over a public restroom with a needle in his arm and going to jail. I was soooo worried my gf was gonna die. This shit paralyzed me for like 30 minutes or so and then puking. It was such a nasty feeling. Ive done good smack and this was definetly poison. Anyways I stayed up all night watching her to make sure she didnt die. It was a tremendous feeling of guilt and to be honest I got out my favorite pistol to off myself in the case that she died, as I was pretty sure I couldnt live with the guilt of having innocent blood on my hands. She didnt die but it was an awful experience.

 

[Pagey]

This thread has become a bit too much about dangerous drug use and a bit too little about S, L or R, and as such we're closing it - will see if it might be better suited in one of the more drug-oriented forums