Getting drunk this morning.

[Lord]

HELLO ALL.
It is currently 5:30 AM and I have been up all night with not enough benzos (only 4mg loraz and some zopiclone). I started the day off with bud, then more bud, then more bud, overall maybe 0.2g of good indica, nothing that would fry my day.

I took one benadryl to sleep last night, followed by the weed, followed by 3g of taurine (what bullshit), 300mg of caffeine and 300mg of 5-HTP, both at 12:00. I had 2mg lorazepam at 2:30 because these BS drugs suck (in context), barely felt it because of my benzo tolerance. I need a downer, don't have benzos/tolerance, don't like benadryl, want alcohol but it's no fun after 5-HTP. And no more bud.
They say to wait at least 6 hours but I find I usually need more after 5-HTP or I feel bad when I drink. There was a time when I abused Benadryl and alcohol, but my tolerance to both is relatively low right now. So here's what I'm thinking:

6:00 - 75mg diphenhydramine, 2mg lorazepam (3 benadryl, 2 loraz)
6:00-7:30 - 3 strong beers (7.5% )

Aside from the obvious sedative reasons, I'm taking lorazepam with diphenhydramine so that I don't get the unpleasant hallucinogenic effects of diphenhydramine, but I also thought I could take it at 8:00 to relax on the comedown, and just enjoy the visual and thought disturbances of such a small dose of Benadryl before taking the lorazepam. The Benadryl and alcohol will SEVERELY overpower the lorazepam, so it doesn't make a large difference.

Thank you for the advice.
(modification tips appreciated, past experience, etc.)

 

[phatass]

Well the 300mg caffeine probably wasn't a great idea... i don't drink coffee after 5-PM unless i go to the retaurant and will have a coffee after dinner9-10PM... which probably contains 100-150mg caffeine... seriously, coffee gets me going big time...

also Zopi is the worst hypnotic i've tried for both rec, and therapeutic value... and as you i'm sure know lorazepam is not very sedative at all especially if you've got insomnia it won't do much..;

but i would blame the caffeine... for not getting to sleep...

APART FROM THAT getting drunk in the morning for alone for no special reason is actually quite fun IME...

So enjoy

 

[Lord]

Well the 300mg caffeine probably wasn't a great idea... i don't drink coffee after 5-PM unless i go to the retaurant and will have a coffee after dinner9-10PM... which probably contains 100-150mg caffeine... seriously, coffee gets me going big time...

also Zopi is the worst hypnotic i've tried for both rec, and therapeutic value... and as you i'm sure know lorazepam is not very sedative at all especially if you've got insomnia it won't do much..;

but i would blame the caffeine... for not getting to sleep...

APART FROM THAT getting drunk in the morning for alone for no special reason is actually quite fun IME...

So enjoy

Actually after that one Benadryl, everything I took was after I woke up (I sleep during the day, wake up at night).

I find zopiclone a little interesting (visuals, strange delirium), but it definitely isn't a great drug.

These days I'm very lonely... I love people but I'm too paranoid or irritated. I used to take downers and go out for bike rides or just have fun at home, lose inhibitions, let the time fly. But now I don't go out. I haven't gone out in like half a year (weed paranoia), and sometimes I can do it for short periods of time. I actually love biking, wish I could do that. But I took some DXM and cut my hair with scissers a few days ago. I look like shit, which really doesn't help with the paranoia and social anxiety.

But, for the next few hours, I will enjoy. I will feel good. Cheers.

 

[Lord]

Well it's now 7:30.
I've had my 3 strong beers, my 2 lorazepams, and 3 more benadryl shortly after 7:00. In total that makes 6. Well... I miss weed... a lot. But I feel good. Sometimes these nights end up being a six-pack of beer and/or 10-20 benadryls. Lets hope I don't get there (although people don't seem to like me here, so I guess it's good for you). Feeling good... feeling good. A little drunk, a little delirious, not a bad little buzz.

 

[Lord]

Well I have 9 benadryls left... oh yeah, this place. Why oh why did I have to get into drugs... Those 9 will either be thrown in the garbage or in the stomach... shit. This is the part where everyone hates me.

 

[Lord]

So far 10 benadryl... I split them in thirds because it affects me more quickly that way.
Shit, twice that dose gave me voices and vivid nightmares during the night (sleep) for almost two months... HAHA it seems serious to me but when I think of myself, man is this funny. Each time risking long-term brain damage or at least a shitty hangover. Each time being accused of this or that when the online person doesn't really know you at all. Fuck. I think I know what you meant now, Phatass. But honestly, I have a good amount of experience with benadryl, so I know what I mean when I say the escape comes and goes.

 

[Lord]

14 benadryl? the rest of the bottle... I don't know what I'm gonna do. 50% of the time I can trust myself, 50% of the time I indulge to the point of danger and long-term brain damage. But it's definitely kicking in... grammar is becoming less and less clear... don't have to deal with life when I'm in a benadryl-induced semi-coma awesomeness.
Why do I do this shit... out of weed, out of every fucking thing. If only Benzos and weed were legal... fuck this shit I feel good but I can tell there's something bad coming up. I feel strange the few days after a 10-20 pill benadryl high. And it fucking sucks...
just rambling to myself now and since many people dislike me on this forum I guess I should stop. Shit, when you can't get the right downers, you just take way too many of the other ones... Oh and one more benadryl I found laying around. That will make 15. Is anyone even reading at this point... lol

 

[Lord]

It's nearly 8'oclock and I've just consumed the remaining 5 benadryl... So today's diet was 0.2g weed, 4mg lorazepam, 15mg Zopiclone, 300mg 5-HTP, 300mg caffeine , 3g taurine, 3 strong beers, and... uhh... 15 benadryls.
I can't wait to just lay back, unable to do anything. Fuck life... I've said it sooo many times. Life is beautiful and fascinating but at the same time it's usually more suffering than anything else.

edit: 8:15... starting to feel a bizarre effect. As I make noise, or type, I can almost hear slight voices within those sounds. It's like the deja-vu effect from severe sleep deprivation. I will bear through it, I guess. No paranoia ATM. Sometimes there are slight disturbances in my peripheral vision, like a bad guy trying to run out of sight, but it's mild and pretty much easy as cake to handle compared to some of the negative effects from other drugs.

 

[Lord]

It's nearly 8'oclock and I've just consumed the remaining 5 benadryl... So today's diet was 0.2g weed, 4mg lorazepam, 15mg Zopiclone, 300mg 5-HTP, 300mg caffeine , 3g taurine, 3 strong beers, and... uhh... 15 benadryls.
I can't wait to just lay back, unable to do anything. Fuck life... I've said it sooo many times. Life is beautiful and fascinating but at the same time it's usually more suffering than anything else.

EDIT: 8:15... starting to feel a bizarre effect. As I make noise, or type, I can almost hear slight voices within those sounds. It's like the deja-vu effect from severe sleep deprivation. I will bear through it, I guess. No paranoia ATM. Sometimes there are slight disturbances in my peripheral vision, like a bad guy trying to run out of sight, but it's mild and pretty much easy as cake to handle compared to some of the negative effects from other drugs.

EDIT: 8:50... stopped hearing those muffled voices. I see transparent spiders crawling all over my fingers, it seems as though my fingers are slightly webbed or amphibious.
Also, I'm seeing a lot of dark imagery. Benadryl can definitely make imperfections pop out, a bit like a psychedelic which shows you have faulty and bad you are / things around you are, the psychedelics can go either way, b
Excuse me... It's kicking in...

 

[phatass]

LOL dude, edit your posts bro... you bumped ur thread like 6 times... u know better....