It's a struggle and there have been times when I have wanted nothing more than to use but I just can't start over. In the beginning I was so envious of people that had a couple months under their belt and never thought I'd see that far. Just take it day by day, hour by hour if you have to. You will get there! Getting sober is one of the hardest things I've done, I'm sure it is for a lot of us. Just know there is hope and you will get there. You already have it in your heart that you want run quit.