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Getting clean; wish me luck! (Opiates)

Awesome! Congrats Alicia!!

I'm right there with you! I'm on day 13 of being clean!!

I was fed up just like you were. I desperately wanted my life back before I lost it all.

Many thanks to this forum for giving me the strength, the knowledge, and support I needed to change my life!

I'm never turning back!! Stay strong, you're doing great! It only gets easier!

My motto is:
I know better
I deserve better
So I'm doing better

Blessings
 
LakersFan thanks so much! Happy to hear about you as well. There's so much positivity amongst people who are clean and getting clean. A real sense of accomplishment that can only be known by an opiate addict. Sometimes I feel like we deserve an award certificate for the accomplishment lol. But we don't. The gift of being clean and feeling human again is the true reward! Good luck to you friend and thanks for your kind response!
 
Day 9. Had something difficult happen personally but I refuse to turn to opiates. Today isn't a good day I'm also getting sick. Like legit sick lol. Sore throat, low grade fever etc. Anxious today too. But the victory in it all is I'm still clean and still going. I'll rest up tonight and deal with however I feel tomorrow when tomorrow comes.
 
Day 10! Man, I cannot believe it's been 10 days since I've used. That's like a lifetime for me over the last 3 years. Feeling better mentally this morning. Do have a cold and sore throat though. But I'll take it over WD's any day! I think I was going through a little PAW's as well yesterday.
 
Nice job Alicia! Your doing great, just one day at a time. I feel like it's a million miles away. Keep it up��!
 
Great work Alicia!!

I'm on day 16 so I know what you're going thru! But you've made it this far, and that in itself is awesome!!

Just keep going, it only gets better! If you truly want your life back, you'll be just fine ;)

I personally feel better and stronger every day. My mind, body and soul feel 100x better. Rather than the constant feeling of doom when I was using.

Keep at it, you've come so far already, no need to go back!
 
Tomorrow makes exactly 2 weeks. I've thought about using a few times I'll admit but it's only brief and now I associate opiates with these negative emotions like fuck that. Feeling good
 
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LakersFan88 said:
Great work Alicia!!

I'm on day 16 so I know what you're going thru! But you've made it this far, and that in itself is awesome!!

Just keep going, it only gets better! If you truly want your life back, you'll be just fine ;)

I personally feel better and stronger every day. My mind, body and soul feel 100x better. Rather than the constant feeling of doom when I was using.

Keep at it, you've come so far already, no need to go back!
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Couldn't have said it better myself! :)
 
Tomorrow makes 16 days. I feel good. Real test was pay day the day I would really stock up but I didn't. If I could just shake this bad head cold I would be great!
 
Alicia I know your struggle. I am 27 been fully addicted to percocet for 3 years now and the withdrawal is what keeps me chained. I've used suboxone but always go back when I have money to the pills. I detoxed over Christmas cold Turkey and thought I would be hospitalized for dehydratiolln. But I self medicated with suboxone on 3rd day I didn't want to pedal backwards but the sickness was worse than I ever remember it. Violent symptoms keep me from living my life. 27 years old and can't get out of bed because my body needs the drug to function. I've relapsed since my detox and I want to know from others who've kicked this how long does the puking no appetite Absolutely No Sleep stomach cramps restless legs last? I know insomnia lasts a while. I need some hope. I want my life back.
 
CyanThorn said:
Hey you! Wishing you all the best of luck!

For the RLS I personally used gabapentin to reduce the symptoms from it (effectively eliminated the RLS actually, and some of the aches, and the runs - 90% of the withdrawal killed by gabapentin - why isn't this used more commonly?). Other than that, make sure to get plenty of potassium and magnesium. Bananas, while good for potassium, are also naturally good at reducing nausea and contain lots of fibre, so can be helpful for WD. Also don't underestimate the power of a hot shower or preferably a hot bath. A bath as hot as you can dare really helped me. I would lie there until I felt I was overheating, then swap ends of the bath i was lying at and turn on the cold tap. The cool water mixing with the hot over your neck and around your torso is really soothing - this works for your legs too. Alternating hot and cold is a staple for RLS even without the withdrawal akathisia.
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I am having the same issues. Will a SR prescribe me the neurontin or gabapenton sorry if anything is misspelled its hard posting mobile as it is. I get to day 3 and treating myself with pepto, zofran and seroquil to try and sleep. I heard the gabapentin (spelling?) Works wonders for alot of withdrawal symptoms. I also smoke marijuana but im not addicted. I have to have opiates or suboxone to function and im so tired of this vicious cycle. I have alot of ppl counting on me and my bf to both get clean. We both did the detox but have since relapsed. I'd love to get clean we both want it, its just hard. Im a college graduate unemployed addict. I never saw my life this way. Never try opiates they are the devil. Im in hell when im sick
 
Wonderlandgirl,
I wish I could just let you borrow how I feel for just even a moment. Then nothing would stop you from getting clean then. I have my days but they're not nearly the struggle the physical sickness is.
Everyone is different. Most really bad physical symptoms start to get a little better day 4/5 and you're feeling a lot better after 7-10 days. Like 10 days and you're starting to feel like a human being again. I've had little issues with PAWS. I certainly have it, but it's very mild. Thankfully. I still have days where my energy level is nothing, but I always snap out of it. I think about opiates everyday, only my brain has started to associate hate for the pills.
You can do it. I can't tell anyone when the right time is, for me it just felt like I was done. Done with the pills and everything that came with it. I'm still sick with a head/chest cold and it's been about 5 days but also starting to recover from that.
I know how it sucks to want to quit so badly. I remember once I just conceded that I would forever be taking these and I should just get used to it. But I kept on and it's technically 17 days for me now, even I surprise myself. You ever wanna talk just message me or leave it right here :)
 
Hey everyone! i'm new to Bluelight and I am still abusing opiates/opioids. I want so badly to get clean but I am so damn addicted. If any of you have any good advice on how you decided you were going to quit and stay clean i would love to hear what personally went through your mind.


This is a little bit of my backstory. I started using when i was 19 and i am now 23. My drug of choice is opana(hence the name) and its extremely addicting and strong. Over the years the following things has happened to me as i'm sure some or maybe all have also happened to many of you.

1. Two of my friends have died to overdoses.
2. My financial situation has gone in and out of turmoil for years but somehow I manage.
3. (Luckily minor) legal troubles over the years due to stupid decisions while high and the quest to find my fix.
4. Ruined my relationship with friends, Family, and girlfriend/girlfriends but was able to reconcile by "staying clean"
5. (Worst of all) Having to lie about my addiction to the ones I love in order to keep them from giving up on me :'(

Thanks for taking the time to read my short synopsis of my life with opiate addiction. Sincerely, O
 
O-pan-na said:
Hey everyone! i'm new to Bluelight and I am still abusing opiates/opioids. I want so badly to get clean but I am so damn addicted. If any of you have any good advice on how you decided you were going to quit and stay clean i would love to hear what personally went through your mind.


This is a little bit of my backstory. I started using when i was 19 and i am now 23. My drug of choice is opana(hence the name) and its extremely addicting and strong. Over the years the following things has happened to me as i'm sure some or maybe all have also happened to many of you.

1. Two of my friends have died to overdoses.
2. My financial situation has gone in and out of turmoil for years but somehow I manage.
3. (Luckily minor) legal troubles over the years due to stupid decisions while high and the quest to find my fix.
4. Ruined my relationship with friends, Family, and girlfriend/girlfriends but was able to reconcile by "staying clean"
5. (Worst of all) Having to lie about my addiction to the ones I love in order to keep them from giving up on me :'(

Thanks for taking the time to read my short synopsis of my life with opiate addiction. Sincerely, O
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Oh dear you're so young. I remember struggling with addiction at that age and it seems harder because you lack the idea of mortality, I did at least. I can tell you at your rate with everything that's happened you're headed for one of two things and that's prison or death. All those little minor incidences with the law will soon become major. And I have no idea what the drug is that you're addicted to other than its an opiate so that makes it dangerous in of itself. And seeing a friend die would be enough to put it down, then again that's also easier said than done. Addicts can try and try again to stay clean, I really don't know what makes them stay clean. I'm celebrating each day but I've also been clean for a few months and relapsed. So I still have a ways to go. All I can tell you is that you'll get sick but you won't die. And you just have to put up with it if you want it bad enough. If you can give it a solid week or 10 days I think you might start to see a light at the end and want more out of life. You won't accomplish anything addicted to opiates. I often thought I was getting so much accomished eating Vicodin when it reality I wasn't accomplishing anything but destroying myself as a person, let alone damaging my internal organs (liver/kidneys). Good luck to you, keep in touch!
 
18 days and counting! My Dr called me in an antibiotic I'm still sick thank God I finally got some medicine, tried kicking whatever I have on my own (probably bronchitis) but I can't. I'm sure my immune system is shot from the mix of opiates and then withdrawal.
 
Hi Alicia! I just wanted to say how proud I am of you for facing this head on and sticking with it. I just hit 2 years sober from a near identical issue with painkillers and even how many per day I'd take.

It's a rough ride, but my God is it worth it. YOU HAVE THE POWER BABY GIRL, NOT THE PILLS. Stay strong, and keep coming here so we can stand with you without the public sheeples judging you.

I'll check in on you soon. You know what needs to be done and you're doing it. Be PROUD AND ELATED!! You're doing the things you need to do!!!

I don't know if it would help but I chronicalled my journey here as well under the title OPIATES SUCK...THIS IS TOUGH. Maybe there is something in there from me or a supporter that can really hit home.

Love always, TTGB.
 
Alicia420 said:
Wonderlandgirl,
I wish I could just let you borrow how I feel for just even a moment. Then nothing would stop you from getting clean then. I have my days but they're not nearly the struggle the physical sickness is.
Everyone is different. Most really bad physical symptoms start to get a little better day 4/5 and you're feeling a lot better after 7-10 days. Like 10 days and you're starting to feel like a human being again. I've had little issues with PAWS. I certainly have it, but it's very mild. Thankfully. I still have days where my energy level is nothing, but I always snap out of it. I think about opiates everyday, only my brain has started to associate hate for the pills.
You can do it. I can't tell anyone when the right time is, for me it just felt like I was done. Done with the pills and everything that came with it. I'm still sick with a head/chest cold and it's been about 5 days but also starting to recover from that.
I know how it sucks to want to quit so badly. I remember once I just conceded that I would forever be taking these and I should just get used to it. But I kept on and it's technically 17 days for me now, even I surprise myself. You ever wanna talk just message me or leave it right here :)
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Thank you Alisha. I struggle with this everyday. I remember what its like to wake up feeling good having plans getting dressed up and living life. I want that back. I wish I was on your level of sobriety I know if I could just go 7 days I could free myself. It hurts so bad I only get to day 3 but in reality that may be the worse of it and day 4 could be the day I feel a little better. Im going to supply myself with every OTC medicine for my symptoms and try it again. Thank you for your support and kind words.
 
Alicia420 said:
18 days and counting! My Dr called me in an antibiotic I'm still sick thank God I finally got some medicine, tried kicking whatever I have on my own (probably bronchitis) but I can't. I'm sure my immune system is shot from the mix of opiates and then withdrawal.
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That's my problem too. With this weather not only do I withdrawal but im also constantly sick. I feel like my immune system is so weak. I catch everything going around. Im going to make an apt with my Dr and see if I can get the gabapentin. I have a friend who stopped suboxone with it and said it worked so well and she hardly had any withdrawals. I hope you feel better soon.
 
O-pan-na said:
Hey everyone! i'm new to Bluelight and I am still abusing opiates/opioids. I want so badly to get clean but I am so damn addicted. If any of you have any good advice on how you decided you were going to quit and stay clean i would love to hear what personally went through your mind.


This is a little bit of my backstory. I started using when i was 19 and i am now 23. My drug of choice is opana(hence the name) and its extremely addicting and strong. Over the years the following things has happened to me as i'm sure some or maybe all have also happened to many of you.

1. Two of my friends have died to overdoses.
2. My financial situation has gone in and out of turmoil for years but somehow I manage.
3. (Luckily minor) legal troubles over the years due to stupid decisions while high and the quest to find my fix.
4. Ruined my relationship with friends, Family, and girlfriend/girlfriends but was able to reconcile by "staying clean"
5. (Worst of all) Having to lie about my addiction to the ones I love in order to keep them from giving up on me :'(

Thanks for taking the time to read my short synopsis of my life with opiate addiction. Sincerely, O
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You are not alone everything you're going through im going through too. My brother in law overdosed in 2012 from percocet and Xanax. This was right when I started using everyday. His loss was terrible and you would think I would have said fuck this but I continued to use. I need atleast 2 to 3 percocet 30s to feel good all day and be able to sleep but there are the days I binge and will do as many as I can sometimes 200+ mg. I've been addicted 3 years and while percocet is what I normally take I've done opana before. Opiate withdrawal is no easy thing to beat. I also lie and hide my addiction. There are deaths every month in my small town from ppl getting infections through intravenous use. I snort my pills but because I have to have them it makes me a junkie too. Good Luck I hope you.find a way to get and stay clean.
 
Still clean :) 4 minutes ago it turned Tuesday Feb 2nd and I've been clean now for 23 days. Easy to remember because every Sunday is another week. Starting to feel better the antibiotic is helping and I'm back to waking up in the morning again and having my coffee instead of sleeping until 1 or 2pm right before work. I still have moments where my energy levels are down but nothing compared to how I felt the next morning after a night of heavy use, which was most nights for me. I didn't think I could do this and now I can't see myself looking back. Thanks everyone for the support and I'll keep checking in. I know it helps to read people's journeys. I know it helped me.
Hope all is well with everyone.
 
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