Getting clean - Day 2.

Here I am again, trying to finally get off of the opiate bandwagon. I've tried and failed so many times in the past I've lost count, I just hope I can stick to it this time (not that I have much of a choice, it's reached the point that continuing to use will result in major problems for me).

I've been using opiates for 5 years, 4 of which I was addicted to them. OC and Fentanyl for the first 2 1/2, H for the past 1 1/2 with daily Methadone thrown in for the past 7-8 months.
At the moment I just want to get stabilized again, get to a point where I can stick to my scripted dose; I'm debating switching to Subs, a friend in a similar predicament says they are much better at fighting the craving - Any thoughts on that would be appreciated.

Anyway I managed all of yesterday with just 'done but by the time the evening came my extra usage was coming back to bite me. Where I've been using on top for so long the 'done doesn't hold me so well, and after a rough night I got up (I won't say 'woke up' as I was already awake anyway) and cooked up a few cottons.
I don't know why but the method I use for this always gives great results, 3 of them got me pretty lit for ~10-15 minutes (as well as taking away the WDs).
So that's that I guess, back to day 0... Although I might let that one slide, a cotton shot to help taper off doesn't seem that bad.

I'm also going to try and keep a running total of the money I'll have saved by not buying drugs, I'd got my usage down a LOT so I was only spending £20-30 a day, but as I'm sure you all know it adds up FAST.

Money saved so far: £30

That should do for now, time to go pick up the weekends 'done anyway - Stay safe folks!

 

i think keeping a tally of how much money you've saved from not buying drugs is a great idea and will help with getting clean.

best of luck to you, you can do this!!

 

Thanks for the support!

I'm trying to find a way to edit that post so I can keep the tally there, is that possible or will I have to just put it at the end of each post?

 

hover over the title of the blog entry that you want to edit and click on the little pencil that shows up.

animal_cookie has a great tutorial for blogs set up. as always, feel free to contact animal_cookie, Dave, or myself if you have any questions.

 

Done and done, everything's tidied up / ready to continue posting

 

Good luck on getting clean. I know how hard it can be. I'm an opiate addict myself. I've never used H. I'm thankful that I've never had the opportunity, but I have been using pills, usually roxies, for about four years now. I'm new to the site. thought it might be helpful in trying to quit. Best of luck to you. I know its gonna be worth it.

 

Thanks for the support

And it's crazy how many people get into addictions due to pain pills! All but one of the addicts I know (myself included) started on them before moving to H (stronger, cheaper, easier to IV etc).
As much as it pains me to say it, you'd think they'd control these things better than they do...