They wouldn't let u get subs at the rehab that sucks! The rehab I was at took u to the clinic every dayGood to see you back tony! Yeah my mom flew down with me to make sure I didn't pull a runner lol. The detox I went to was really nice! I told them I was addicted to Xanax so I got a nice Valium taper to go along with the suboxone taper which was cool. The place had a slushy machine and an ice cream machine so I ate like a mofo. They also had a pool table, Xbox and some fine ladies. So the first 8 days in Florida was sweet!
Shit got real when I left detox for the 30 day program though. I had an absolutely brutal kick from the suboxone which I knew was coming but still wasn't really prepared for. The doctor at the rehab was a cunt and only gave me Advil and a shitty muscle relaxer twice a day. After about 5 days of not sleeping I was ready to cut somebody. Needless to say I wasn't very a popular among the patients or staff. That is probably the closest I have ever come to haveing a true mental breakdown. It was really rough. I also wasn't really impressed with the quality of the counseling I received but that's a whole other topic. Long story short I did my 30 days and left still dope sick. Came home and was at my dealers house within 2 hours. Got high and felt a hell of a lot better. Ended up strung out and got back on suboxone a month later.
But the rehab served its purpose because my lawyer got my charges dropped last week so I am a free man! Overall I wouldn't want to ever do that again! Kicking sub is no joke it was the closest to hell I have ever come. By the second week i had pretty much decided that I never want to sober ever again. I still feel the same way.
The rehab didn't offer medical detox so I went to a specialized detox place for 8 days before I went to the 30 day program. The detox gave me a 7 day sub and Valium taper. I was kicking a 5 year 2mg a day bupe maintenance habit so the sub detox was pointless. They basically just kept me comfortable while they extracted my insurances money. So I didn't even get sick until 4 days into the 30 day rehab program. The rehab had a doctor that came three times a week. But she was pretty useless. At one point she told me that maybe I would remember how bad I felt so I wouldn't wanna use again. Sadistic bitch.They wouldn't let u get subs at the rehab that sucks! The rehab I was at took u to the clinic every day
Hahahaha Gtfo here dude I'm in Lawrenceville right next door hahahadamn youre down here now too? permanent since youre looking for a job?
wish you would have brought some dope with you down here would have been nice...
but what made you come down eher and who did you cme down here with..where you staying at? im in the NE called Snellville..like 20-25 miles out
Yeah im not going to the bluffs.. I've heard crazy story's from out there.. And I'm goody on the Meth.. I wud rather have some weed but again I only kno a small amount of people and they aren't answering the phone..I was in Atlanta most of last winter getting clean
Wasn't too bad since I tapered with sub correctly for only a week
Also being about an hour outside of atl and not knowing anyone made it pretty easy in the trigger dept
I knew places where I could go cop but it's crazy in the bluff
Lotta meth down there too, I was offered some for the first time in my life but I didn't feel like being up for 3 days atm lol
Many of us have been where you are at, spending our last dime, and sometimes other peoples money, on drugs. I certainly can relate to the feelings of shame and degradation associated with being broke all of the time because of a dope habit. With that said, it sounds like a possible way out comes to your door 6 days a week. If you work it right, if you are ready for it, methadone and a structured program could really turn your life around. Not many people are lucky enough to get door to door service to a methadone clinic. With that said, I was given numerous opportunities to clean up but walked away from each offer and only began to consider a change when I was beat down bad ... alone ... broke ... sick ... and had no other alternative but to take advantage of an inpatient program that was offered to me or live on the street. I was living in Manhattan at the time and literally went from Broadway to the Bowery (long story). Don't get me wrong, I didn't want to get clean, but I didn't want to feel like shit anymore either. I felt stuck between a rock and a hard place. I figured I'd give myself 28 days in the rehab, courtesy of the taxpayers of the State of NY, and by then I'd figure out some new hustle and get rolling again. Didn't happen that way though.I still get a medical cab ride to my clinic 6 days a week.... I'm ashamed I spend my entire pay check on drugs every week I'm not proud of it at all
I just snorted a bag of dope in the bathroom at work and all of my withdrawal symptoms are gone. just like that
im never gonna quit this shit man, I might have to get on Suboxone for a week or two even though I swore I would never pay money for that shit. Id rather just taper down with dope and actually get high but I cant control myself.
it felt so good... I think Im gonna do another one!
at least ill be able to sleep tonight.
ehhhhhhhh....... im a fucking junky man. I dont even have a defense anymore. Yeah, I go to work 5 out of 7 days a week and dont rob or steal from anyone, but im a fucking junky.
ill throw up some url links to pics when I get home, its been a good month as far as quality goes. too good...
I just snorted a bag of dope in the bathroom at work and all of my withdrawal symptoms are gone. just like that
im never gonna quit this shit man, I might have to get on Suboxone for a week or two even though I swore I would never pay money for that shit. Id rather just taper down with dope and actually get high but I cant control myself.
it felt so good... I think Im gonna do another one!
at least ill be able to sleep tonight.
ehhhhhhhh....... im a fucking junky man. I dont even have a defense anymore. Yeah, I go to work 5 out of 7 days a week and dont rob or steal from anyone, but im a fucking junky.
ill throw up some url links to pics when I get home, its been a good month as far as quality goes. too good...