General Heroin Discussion #18 - v. Stupidity ain't no badge of honor

Status
Not open for further replies.
bukweat said:
Man there's a lot of wisdom, good things being said on these pages.
Click to expand...

Toma -
you don't know me, I only really post in the Chicago thread, being that's where I am, but haven't posted much since I've been taking a break, and actually being good about it. But what happened to the methadone idea? You really sounded like you wanted to give sobriety a good try.

I know how it is when things suck real bad and you wanna do anything to be sober, wish you never started down this road, then a day or two goes by, you get some cash, and get sick, whatever, and getting high is what we naturally gravitate towards. but from your posts recently, you're already at the point where you realize this is going nowhere. you already got a habit and a need to get straight almost everyday, from what I've read, and you can't sniff enough to get high? you think that's really gonna change?

I'm sure with some practice you'll be able to hit a vein real soon (I never really had a problem with that, picked it up pretty fast, but that was years ago)- try practicing with a sterile water solution first, don't waste the dope...but really dude, other people have said it way better than I can...is this really something you need to pursue? it does change things real fast, and not for the better..

You haven't mentioned the clinic at all recently...did you give up on that idea? Like everyone else said, you're 18, give yourself a chance at life, man.

If you think a $35 overdraft fee is the biggest downside of starting IV heroin use...and you really wanna take off with this...you got a big surprise coming someday.

I wish you the best dude, and I'm a 45 yr old who put this down for years, got a job, house, family, all that shit...relapsed 2 years ago, and it's driving me crazy, seriously. Wish I never got started again, cause there's days when I feel like I'll never get out, never enjoy anything in my life again.

Take your life back, you're young. Don't do this.

That's my positive thought for the day.
 
^That's a positive thought for the day?

No, but really...you're gonna end up a fucking loser for life the way you're goin'...
 
yeah, that was a little sarcasm, BH. I think you figured that out.

I hope he doesn't do it. I think you're right on in that assessment (if you didn't mean me, lol) but I know almost every time someone tried to tell me what to do, I figured fuck it, I'll do the opposite.
 
^No northsideboy, I already know you earned your "loser for life" stripes a long time ago!;) You're just tryin' to tell this kid what we've been sayin' for months, but like you said, lectures and warnings didn't work for us, why would it do anything for our friend Tomatilli? Still, I hate to see it....There's so much out there...at 18, you still have time...Whatever, you're gonna do what you wanna do...

And, we'll still be here o talk to you about it...but your family will be heartbroken....and all those lonely college girls...and you'll be sittin there at 19 years old with a wet noodle...come on man...pussy or dope?!
 
Last edited:
cool. - no wait, NOT cool ! LOL.

Although I do agree with you sometimes...WTF man. I wanted to be be a junkie when I was 15. I sure got my wish. What I didn't realize was this shit never, ever goes away. Now I'm a "loser for life" forever...no matter what I do...smh. And I buy into that. More reason to stay clean. That's funny, man.

And the answer is pussy. That's easy. Except I got married. I wish I was 18 again...except I'd probably do the same shit and wind up in the same place, but in hindsight, I'd try to hit a lot more of the girls that were into me that I never realized, because I was zoned out on whatever drugs I was on...

I've been reading this thread, sometimes, even tho I try to stay away from the whole site because it inspires craving...but "I'll feel awful stupid for paying a $35 fee for nothing" - was the part that finally got to me.

I'm guilty of junkie logic myself, but man, that one sorta stood out.
 
Last edited:
I just got a b and a half fronted from one of my dealers and I don't think I'm gonna pay him back lol. Some of the bags were mad skimpy so he can fuck off

@northside by I really hate wasting money man if I bought it I have to put it to good use. Idk if I'm ready to get clean or even go on mmt I like being fucked up. I think I'm gonba do what you said and just use sterile water to figure it out that's a really good fuckin idea.
 
Last edited:
northsideboy said:
start shooting up and get beat down, all at the same time? not a bad plan.

have a good night.
Click to expand...
I don't think he's going to be me down man he's half my size. I just don't feel likd I should pay him bc I bought 2 and he fronted me 1 and a 1/2 and all that together didn't equal 2 full ones
 
Toma, you're fucking up, bro.
Come on, man. Take advice from the people who have already been down that road..
You do NOT want to travel down that road. It'll be the worst decision of your life. And yet, you seem to keep on pushing on..

Fuckin' hell.. Can't get nothing through the young minds of youth these days.
 
JunkieDays said:
Toma, you're fucking up, bro.
Come on, man. Take advice from the people who have already been down that road..
You do NOT want to travel down that road. It'll be the worst decision of your life. And yet, you seem to keep on pushing on..

Fuckin' hell.. Can't get nothing through the young minds of youth these days.
Click to expand...
How old are you
 
northsideboy said:
cool. - no wait, NOT cool ! LOL.

Although I do agree with you sometimes...WTF man. I wanted to be be a junkie when I was 15. I sure got my wish. What I didn't realize was this shit never, ever goes away. Now I'm a "loser for life" forever...no matter what I do...smh. And I buy into that. More reason to stay clean. That's funny, man.

And the answer is pussy. That's easy. Except I got married. I wish I was 18 again...except I'd probably do the same shit and wind up in the same place, but in hindsight, I'd try to hit a lot more of the girls that were into me that I never realized, because I was zoned out on whatever drugs I was on...

I've been reading this thread, sometimes, even tho I try to stay away from the whole site because it inspires craving...but "I'll feel awful stupid for paying a $35 fee for nothing" - was the part that finally got to me.

I'm guilty of junkie logic myself, but man, that one sorta stood out.
Click to expand...
Maybe you misunderstood...The whole thing was directed towards Tomatilli...Now that I'm an old man in my 30s, even ugly girls are hot at 18-22! Tomatilli, you should buy an eighth of weed and find a nice young lady to smoke a bowl and have a good time with!

The "wet noodle" is your dick on dope!
 
Fucking internet. I can't even go to sleep. And I got an early session with my sub doc before work tomorrow, we got at least 6 in of snow tonight, so I gotta get up extra early to dig out the garage/alley.
Bitch, bitch, bitch.
You don't wanna waste the money you spent on the rigs, so you might as well start shooting up?
Do something nice for someone else, see if you get any joy out of that.
Take them to the NX and make a donation.
Consider it a good deed, and earn some karma on your path toward sobriety.
We're pretty much all fucking drug addicts here, dude, none of us really "wants" to be sober all of the time (if any of the time) but, you can be sober, have a productive life, get a rush off other, usually dangerous stuff (I like motorcycles, sport bikes) and if you're lucky, being 18, maybe you can still drink a little, or smoke some weed.
But you can't do shit if you OD or some dumbass dealer wacks you cause he's embarrassed he got beat and people are talking about it.
Now I'm going to sleep. Later.
 
tomatalli said:
What shoukd I say I already have to give him $20 extra for fronting me
Click to expand...

The truth. Say, I appreciate you fronting me, but what you gave me, the bags where a lot smaller than normal, the quality wasn't the same, etc, etc. It's not worth the normal amount, so I'll give you xxx dollars for it. Pretty simple. If he's a decent guy and he wants to keep your business (which of course he does), he'll make a deal.

But, if you start to get tough and shit, and just tell him to fuck off, you better be ready to take that road all the way. Talk to him first at least.
 
Oh, Blue, I got it, I was just editing and fucking around, like you were.
Yeah, the subject here is T, not me, or anything else.
later.
 
Status
Not open for further replies.
Top