General Heroin Discussion #18 - v. Stupidity ain't no badge of honor

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And, for a lot of people..a pain script can definitely lead you back to junkieville...I just think the whole "waking up your disease" thing is funny...
 
Just be careful man.

And Damn you guys. Got my check today so I decided to stock up for the storm.

13 of my killer heartbreak bags, a quarter o of some JillyBean, 8th of some Chernobyl, 8th of some Cookie Monster (supposedly some killer phenotype of Girl Scout Cookie), a really nice bottle of some Malbec, and 8.5mg of Klonopin.

Bring it on, mother nature
 
Idk why I have this but here's a picture with a nug of some of that Cookie Monster that I love and a couple of the stamps I've been getting lately. The stamps are great quality and the name "heartbreak" has me laughing because of what today is

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Yea. They're the most professional looking stamps I've ever seen....and the dope inside is great
 
Don't understand why a bank over draft fee is fucking $35 that's insane

My syringes didn't come today so I had another day of wasting dope up the nose and barely had enough to get me high
 
Well guys, I think I'm gonna take everyone's advice. Next Monday I'm gonna go down to the clinic and see what I can do, I'm wasting the best years of my life and I'm tired of watching other people have fun while I miserably hide my addiction to heroin at the age of 18
 
i have been on and off heroin for three years now..lost everything to it basically...but no matter how low i sank ..the next chance i had to get it i was bang on it like that AGAIN...as if i had forgotten all the pains i have gone through doing cold turkey over and over again...well now my question is if it is just me or if any of you has experienced that after coming down of heroin you get an even bigger craving to use and earlier or later end up relapsing and when you do you end up worse than ever before...
 
tomatalli said:
Well guys, I think I'm gonna take everyone's advice. Next Monday I'm gonna go down to the clinic and see what I can do, I'm wasting the best years of my life and I'm tired of watching other people have fun while I miserably hide my addiction to heroin at the age of 18
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Just be safe until then, and if/when you get on methadone keep the dose reasonable and don't go mixing dope and/or benzos with it as the methadone/benzo combo is one of the most fatal combos out there, contributing for a lot of fatal overdoses. In fact I think that it ranked #1 in opiate/opioid related deaths in recent years.

MargaritaPassion said:
i have been on and off heroin for three years now..lost everything to it basically...but no matter how low i sank ..the next chance i had to get it i was bang on it like that AGAIN...as if i had forgotten all the pains i have gone through doing cold turkey over and over again...well now my question is if it is just me or if any of you has experienced that after coming down of heroin you get an even bigger craving to use and earlier or later end up relapsing and when you do you end up worse than ever before...
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I think that's one of the few things about addiction that's said in the recovery world that's accurate. When you relapse, no matter how much time you have under your belt, you take off right where you left off or worse. The way they say it is that while you are in recovery your addiction (well I think they say the 'monkey on your back') is doing push-ups, so when you pick up it's stronger than ever.

Of course that's not always true, and some people are able to keep things in check a little more than before, but that's not as common, and one of the reasons people relapse is because they think that they can be like people like that.
 
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I just tried to scrap hundreds of bags to get a line and nothing was left on any of them so I went through all my crack pipes and scraped what I could I got a small 10 second buzz but now I feel like worse shit. I didn't have enough shit today to hold me over so I'm just laying in bed feeling like such shit. Gonna go to the needle exchange and try and cop a half b or something from a secondary dealer really early in the morning cus ik my main dealer won't b up really early fuck this shit
 
Toma wrote .. "The plan for now is to maybe go to the clinic Monday." Just keep in mind that Monday is a federal holiday. Each program has different policies regarding admissions. While I'm sure most clinics will be open and dispensing to active clients on Monday, some may not be accepting new admissions on that day. Just food for thought. A good addict hopes for the best and plans for the worst. Good luck. Although it's been many years since I've done so, I can relate to "laying in bed feeling like shit" because of dope. I've done that literally a hundred times and (for MargaritaPassion) once the money became available, or the dope spot reopened, I was right back at it. Nothing changes until something changes.
 
Tommyboy said:
I think that's one of the few things about addiction that's said in the recovery world that's accurate. When you relapse, no matter how much time you have under your belt, you take off right where you left off or worse. The way they say it is that while you are in recovery your addiction (well I think they say the 'monkey on your back') is doing push-ups, so when you pick up it's stronger than ever.

Of course that's not always true, and some people are able to keep things in check a little more than before, but that's not as common, and one of the reasons people relapse is because they think that they can be like people like that.
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thanks for this..in my case it is that i feel i am just on the verge of wanting to inject even though i have been clean now for 8 weeks (which is the longest i have ever made it to be clean)

everyone is saying to not try etc but why cant i try and everyone else did? i am very scared tbh as i have only just managed to get my life back on track with leaving everything behind back in london to have a fresh start and then this is the only think i can think of most of the time ....
 
tomatalli said:
Well guys, I think I'm gonna take everyone's advice. Next Monday I'm gonna go down to the clinic and see what I can do, I'm wasting the best years of my life and I'm tired of watching other people have fun while I miserably hide my addiction to heroin at the age of 18
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That's good to hear, man. Focus on doing all the awesome shit you should be doing at that age. The methadone will give you stability, and you'll be able to live a normal life.
 
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