Hi,
I found a few years back, while feeling very suicidal, benzos seem to take away my all over body pain.
I had never taken benzos before, and on the first couple of weeks, I could even take around 80mg of prescribed valium per day, anyone else even with tolerance I knew that took benzos would pass out. I guess I must have some kind of natural tolerance?
I started taking benzos 2-3 times a week in the form of xanax, about 6 - 10mg. Sometimes had a few weeks off, to resume some other type of benzo.
Then for about 6 months I took etizolam, around 2-3 times a week (about 6 - 10mg - small blue tablets).
Then the supply run out, and I took gabapentin. And whoa, I was back to my normal self from years back, happy, pain free, not depressed. But I needed high doses....
For the last month since finding gabapentin I have taken on average 4 - 5g a day, and on some days up to 12g.
I ran out 3 days ago, and I am in so much pain I can't get to work. To get across the street is a struggle from the amount of muscle pain, weakness, and I feel like I am dying. Appetite is non existant, I am trying having to force feed myself and I almost have no energy to even do this.
Is this normal?
I found a few years back, while feeling very suicidal, benzos seem to take away my all over body pain.
I had never taken benzos before, and on the first couple of weeks, I could even take around 80mg of prescribed valium per day, anyone else even with tolerance I knew that took benzos would pass out. I guess I must have some kind of natural tolerance?
I started taking benzos 2-3 times a week in the form of xanax, about 6 - 10mg. Sometimes had a few weeks off, to resume some other type of benzo.
Then for about 6 months I took etizolam, around 2-3 times a week (about 6 - 10mg - small blue tablets).
Then the supply run out, and I took gabapentin. And whoa, I was back to my normal self from years back, happy, pain free, not depressed. But I needed high doses....
For the last month since finding gabapentin I have taken on average 4 - 5g a day, and on some days up to 12g.
I ran out 3 days ago, and I am in so much pain I can't get to work. To get across the street is a struggle from the amount of muscle pain, weakness, and I feel like I am dying. Appetite is non existant, I am trying having to force feed myself and I almost have no energy to even do this.
Is this normal?
