That's so relative it's not even funny.
U need to know everything about the drug you choose to habitually do or... err.. "become addicted to".
Now depending on that drug it can be easy to separate it from reality or it can be really hard.
What happens is drugs turn people into hedonists. They become only concerned with pleasure and do various things to achieve it.
It's a little thing i like to call, "dopamine". The lovely dopamine. I love dopamine. I like drugs that produce dopamine in my brain. Butt what I also realized is that they're many other things that produce this dopamine. Like eating. bla bla.
Now how a person deals with their dopamine cravings is what defines them as the drug user they are. You see I've realized that you can get a lot higher without drugs than with them. There's lots of things that make me feel good. So I never allowed my perception to see that drugs were the only way. It's all about knowledge now can't you see? A person without this understanding may only believe that his shot of heroin is what makes him happy and escape. But what that person doesn't realize is that it's all artificial.
Now leme stop rambling and pretending like I know shit and tell you what drugs did to me.
I was 15 when I first did pot. I fell in love bla bla went thru struggles with parents and family and eventually tried MDMA at 16 and did a plethora of pharms aka (soul-less) drugs for about a year like a crazy maniac. From codeine to xanax to possible overdoses these drugs made me cold, apathetic, irritable, introverted. I became more unhappy and drifted from emotional capabilities as I poured my cup filled with codeine each weekend and poured my emotions out. I abandoned "god" and religion entirely and became an atheist and said I'll be ready to die when I lost my virginity.
As you can see that's some fucked up shit right? Pharms man. They're the devil. They're nothing but a quick fix to natural feelings that we claim we understand.
But things changed man. I discovered Hallucinogens. All the emotions I lost I had found. Of course it didn't just happen overnight. DXM made me feel a sense of purpose, a sense of "him" who is he? I. I am him. I am me. I lost myself on this first trip. And found someone else. That was me. i then tried LSD and after several trips came back to "god" and created my own morality and what I live by. My own religion so to speak.
Now I just have fun in life, i've discovered a purpose that I don't want people losing themselves on this journey we call life and the pharms are what's that eerie figure in the darkness telling you to come over, it's nice here but it's not. It's fucking dark n cold. The real light is when you discover yourself.
Im 18 now and I would like to become a psychologist to approach impulse control and natural emotion coping abilities without pharms as I do NOT believe in the therapeutic use of those drugs. I want to change how my country feels about drugs and their own feelings because pharms were literally put here by Big Pharma to distract us from the light. Hallucinogens are the tool I used. Pharms are broken tools trying to fix broken people.
I hope this has given you and understanding on how drugs have affected me.
I personally smoke weed, self prescribe Valium, trip on Hallucinogens and occasionally do cocaine cuz I've tamed the beast. I drink as well.
before discovering hallucinogens I would be a raging animal popping pills and drinking like a fish with no light in sight. Just darkness. Thanks to bluelight I am not dead and I am part of the HR movement and the psychedelic awakening. I owe it to the users here now on their own journey with drugs to provide them the insight they need so that they stay safe. The lovely people here on BL took care of me. Im here for anyone else. Love.
WHAT A TIME TO BE ALIVE THIS IS.
