i know i know everyone is immediately going to jump on the bandwagon and say 'oh no no naughty naughty they will just make you worse!' has anyone really done a good earnest trial of this tho, talking about smaller doses not recreational doses.
Before you say it ive tried therapy (tlkaing, cbt bla blah) its total junk imo, no different from faith healing in that regard
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if my depression is caused by a vicious cycle of inactivity then what is the problem with using stimulants to 'blast my way out'? The only issue ive had in the past with this has been id take recreational doses and suffer bad comedowns and i wasnt actually trying to do it just to get messed up or whatever. I know for some it will be hard to control dosing with compulsive things so im not saying its gonna be a good general working method for others but ive never had an addictive personality.
I never tried using functional doses to get stuff done. So long as I could control the comedowns (whether this will be possible or not is antoher matter but thats the only hurdle i really see) then it seems plausible. Not an every day thing just maybe once or twice a week max. Even a cpl of days working at full capacity without this crippling pessimism and inertia would be great and at least give me something to look forward to in this otherwise unending pit of despair.
So i suggest small doses of stims coupled with a behaviorist approach of firing through the activities which will take you out of depression. So it isnt 'just an escape' youd actually be getting the real concrete stuff done to keep you out of depression- building relationships etc cos atm im so fuckign antisocial im pretty much a recluse and hate everyone. Without some kind of crutch ive found I just stay stuck in the same position. I make a tiny pathetic effort towards my goals then give up before i get anywhere and feel even worse at yet another failure in the overall failure of my life.
That is indeed what ive read anti depressants are used for, ie that is what the doctor told me should be the expected outcome/what the common literature says. Thing is 1st i dont want to take any shit 24/7 like they want you to and second any serotonin dumpers ive found just make me more morose and doctors only seem to have a bevvy of serotonin boosters not dopamine blasters that i so desire.
Scientists are so narrow minded, just cos they found serotonin can help mood they are like GTFO! to anything else and dont give a shit about studying other things. anyway that isnt gonna change any time soon.
The only dopa anti depressant available is wellbutrim from what ive read. That sounded like a dream to me apart from the seizure risks! but ofc the UK doesnt allow it for depression for some fucking capricious reason im sure.
So im thinking little hits of a mild stim. Maybe modafinil since that seems a lesser evil of the stims and is actually used as an antidepressant in some off label cases i read.
Before you say it ive tried therapy (tlkaing, cbt bla blah) its total junk imo, no different from faith healing in that regard

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if my depression is caused by a vicious cycle of inactivity then what is the problem with using stimulants to 'blast my way out'? The only issue ive had in the past with this has been id take recreational doses and suffer bad comedowns and i wasnt actually trying to do it just to get messed up or whatever. I know for some it will be hard to control dosing with compulsive things so im not saying its gonna be a good general working method for others but ive never had an addictive personality.
I never tried using functional doses to get stuff done. So long as I could control the comedowns (whether this will be possible or not is antoher matter but thats the only hurdle i really see) then it seems plausible. Not an every day thing just maybe once or twice a week max. Even a cpl of days working at full capacity without this crippling pessimism and inertia would be great and at least give me something to look forward to in this otherwise unending pit of despair.
So i suggest small doses of stims coupled with a behaviorist approach of firing through the activities which will take you out of depression. So it isnt 'just an escape' youd actually be getting the real concrete stuff done to keep you out of depression- building relationships etc cos atm im so fuckign antisocial im pretty much a recluse and hate everyone. Without some kind of crutch ive found I just stay stuck in the same position. I make a tiny pathetic effort towards my goals then give up before i get anywhere and feel even worse at yet another failure in the overall failure of my life.
That is indeed what ive read anti depressants are used for, ie that is what the doctor told me should be the expected outcome/what the common literature says. Thing is 1st i dont want to take any shit 24/7 like they want you to and second any serotonin dumpers ive found just make me more morose and doctors only seem to have a bevvy of serotonin boosters not dopamine blasters that i so desire.
Scientists are so narrow minded, just cos they found serotonin can help mood they are like GTFO! to anything else and dont give a shit about studying other things. anyway that isnt gonna change any time soon.
The only dopa anti depressant available is wellbutrim from what ive read. That sounded like a dream to me apart from the seizure risks! but ofc the UK doesnt allow it for depression for some fucking capricious reason im sure.
So im thinking little hits of a mild stim. Maybe modafinil since that seems a lesser evil of the stims and is actually used as an antidepressant in some off label cases i read.