Fucking christ

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If you had told me in 2019 I'd get 7 years with her I'd have taken that offer so fast your head would still be spinning.today at its conclusion. But time I've learned is less a commodity and more a torture device. You can't buy it sell it keep it. It's only appreciated through its loss like as a kid when the screen flashed times up Starfox! You lose.....

Being honest with myself I can even see why this might not be a terrible thing. She is a violent manipulative psychopath and that's just the obvious shit. She's lazy never wrong. Quick to blame me. I truly believe her main goal in life is too make me dope sick. It's yours if I buy the bag and hers if she buys it. She gaslights constantly truly an awful pos human......

But I fucking still love her.ci believed for years that I was the problem. I literally replaced my mom with her....... Damn...... That's fucked up. I just fucking a
 
I'm not sure. I am turmoil at the moment. We are facing eviction court on the tenth for noise complaints and lease violations. We are having a bench trial. Our lawyer says it's a 50/50 shot but I think we will lose.

My relationship with my mother is extremely toxic always has been. I'm not jumping back into her "tender loving arms". The idea of being homeless in Minnesota kinda sucks. Being alone and homeless is terrifying. Goodway to get murdered.......

I'm strung out to the gills on "fetty". Like hundred dollars a day type habit. I make almost all the money for us. She just sits and bitches on my dime since her last endo bout. She's physically abusive as fuck. Knocked my teeth out with a rock a few years ago on Valentine's day.
 
The decision whatever that may be will always be yours to make, on that note what are your options? If you were to go into rehab that would provide temporary shelter and give you a chance to care for yourself without distractions from what you describe as a toxic relationship.
 
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