Fuck You

[beanpoophead]

Ended like it started
heart pounding through my empty chest
waiting, so impatiently, as you typed the words
the ones that made me so fucking happy
and the ones that fuel my tears
so sick of how you make me feel
so fucking sick of how you don’t care
pain and booze my only cure
to keep me from killing me inside of you
and the rain pours outside
like the tears down my face
and you just sit there
you just fucking sit there and have fun
if you could only feel how i do right now
if you could only remember how it felt
when she fucking broke your heart
just six months ago
then maybe, maybe you would’ve thought of me
before all of your dishonestly began
before all the lies came out of your cruel mouth
led me on this path for two long weeks
unanswered phone calls
the ones you said you’d always answer
i called your bullshit well
happy fucking 17th birthday
this is your gift to me
a broken heart
wish i knew how to put it back again
wish i could just turn it off
like you do
like you did to me
shaking from the mix of hot and cold
heaters on, windows open
let the rain flow in
let it flow down
float away with the current caught in the gutter
where you belong

fuck you
fuck you
fuck you
if you’d answer my call that’s exactly what I’d say

 

[SeAL]

Deep. Dark. Moving. Disturbingly similar to something I have been through. Love is so extreme.

Well done. Hope things get better soon.

 

[FixXxer]

life is hardcore like that. well done. and.. fuck you

 

[beanpoophead]

^^^

fuck you too ahaha

thanks guys, thats what i wanted to tell the stupid fucker last night but just couldnt get it out. why do things that used to feel so good have to feel so fucking bad?

 

[FixXxer]

everything evens out in the end. for every good there is a bad, for every bad there is a good. thats my theory. so when times are greatest im prepared for the worst. when times are worst im anticipating the good very much so. i have this in mind whenever i do anything. when i write especially. again.. good work, good that u got some anger out. even better that it came out so good