Woodsong
Bluelighter
Okay, so a bit of background before the griping: I've been using hydrocodone fairly heavily when I have it (legit prescriptions for back pain, buying/bumming from family) on and off since the beginning of April after a car accident, but to a lesser extent for the past few years... So I do have a somewhat large tolerance. I know that hydromorphone is one of the things that 'codone breaks down into, so I guess the cross tolerance or whatever could be part of the reason why I'm not feeling shit... The Dilaudid (4mg/"M 4" imprint), I've been getting from a family member who has a broken hip/fucked up back...
I know that hydromorphone has a sucky oral bioavailability, so when I have the patience, I'll crush it up with water and plug it. Either way, from my understanding, it's supposed to be a lot stronger a chemical than 'codone... This morning, I took 20mg orally and 20mg rectally, and I barely felt anything at all... I plugged 20mg more when I got home from work, and all I feel is annoyingly sedated, no euphoria to speak of... Dilaudid has always felt to me like "diet" hydrocodone, just really really clean feeling-- too clean-- but it's supposed to be stronger, right? If I'd taken 40mg of 'codone instead, I know I'd have a pretty decent buzz going on...
I'm really tempted to just try injecting it again after pussying out the one time I tried, as from my understanding, that's really the only way to get anything out of it... But I just don't feel like even IV'ing it would do anything for me, you'd think I'd still get SOME kind of euphoria from a high oral/rectal dose, but I just don't, and it's kinda pissing me off...
What's going on here? Is IV really the ONLY way to get anything out of this shit, or am I just .. doing something wrong...? I've got 10 left, and I just feel like I've been jipped... What should I do with em, suck it up and try to IV them again, or what? What dose would I even need in an IV to get the feeling I'm looking for out of this shit, or am I just wasting my time? Should I maybe consider IM since I'm so squeamish about veins..? I've got micron filters and all that good shit.. Thoughts? Ideas?
I know that hydromorphone has a sucky oral bioavailability, so when I have the patience, I'll crush it up with water and plug it. Either way, from my understanding, it's supposed to be a lot stronger a chemical than 'codone... This morning, I took 20mg orally and 20mg rectally, and I barely felt anything at all... I plugged 20mg more when I got home from work, and all I feel is annoyingly sedated, no euphoria to speak of... Dilaudid has always felt to me like "diet" hydrocodone, just really really clean feeling-- too clean-- but it's supposed to be stronger, right? If I'd taken 40mg of 'codone instead, I know I'd have a pretty decent buzz going on...
I'm really tempted to just try injecting it again after pussying out the one time I tried, as from my understanding, that's really the only way to get anything out of it... But I just don't feel like even IV'ing it would do anything for me, you'd think I'd still get SOME kind of euphoria from a high oral/rectal dose, but I just don't, and it's kinda pissing me off...
What's going on here? Is IV really the ONLY way to get anything out of this shit, or am I just .. doing something wrong...? I've got 10 left, and I just feel like I've been jipped... What should I do with em, suck it up and try to IV them again, or what? What dose would I even need in an IV to get the feeling I'm looking for out of this shit, or am I just wasting my time? Should I maybe consider IM since I'm so squeamish about veins..? I've got micron filters and all that good shit.. Thoughts? Ideas?


