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hi BL! i'm alex - 20 years old and live in jacksonville, florida. here's a quick timeline of my history with substances along with a few questions. i'd love to hear your input, ideas, experiences, advice, support.
2012 - up until this point i've never drank alcohol, taken drugs, smoked cigarettes - anything. growing up with an chronic alcoholic mother and gazing into the eyes of addiction had steered me away from abusing substances. still partied with friends while they drugged and boozed and had a great social life regardless.
September 2012 - finally diagnosed with ADD, am prescribed Vyvanse (70mg) and had a great life improvements. i never feel Vyvanse hit me, nor do i ever feel it come down. probably because i actually have ADD and the drug is filling in my natural lack of dopamine? so i just feel balanced. doctor says i have the best response to this drug that he's ever seen. a year later it still works pretty good, not as well i think it did initially, at least i think so! i never really feel it so....
March 2013 - first cigarette - bought my own pack of Camel Menthol. didn't feel the nicotine rush i hear about, still have never felt it - even tried smoking 5 at a time (lol). i go though a pack a month - if that (if i'm not giving them away like candy to my friends) - purely social - really just think it looks cool - never crave one.
June 2013 - parachuted about 150mg of molly (untested) at Bonnaroo. felt no effects. did not enjoy Animal Collective as much as i though i would've.
July 2013 - purchased 1000mg of molly (reliable source, though untested). it was faintly yellow and crystallized. i was going to parachute it but i didn't feel like eating toilet paper again so i decided to play Drug Lab and crushed the crystals and divided the powder into 7 empty gel-capsules (previously containing vitamin C). went to go watch 4th of july fireworks at the beach and by the end of the night ingested 700mg of molly (420mg orally, snorted 280mg). felt absolutely nothing. friend who took remaining 300mg felt the effects. didn't take my Vyvanse this day.
August 2013 - first time smoking marijuana - wwwOOAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHhhhh i vomited. oh i feel it. first time i've ever felt under the influence of anything. times after that i have great trips, sometimes even scary ones. but it's fun! i get why people do it!
October 2013 - first time drinking alcohol - fireball whiskey. a lot of it. yep, feel it. affects me normally, like it does everyone else. feel some guilt because it's the drug that's destroying my mother. mixed it with marijuana once and blacked out (though it may have been mostly fault of the alcohol - my BAC was about 0.3%)
November 2013 - smoked mother-fuckin meth. yep. and a lot of it. didn't feel anything. guy who smoked with me and provided the drug smokes it almost everyday. only effect i felt were both jaw pain and loss of voice for a few days after - not sure if these were a result of smoking meth.
i have so many questions about drugs and substances but for this thread i'll only address my biggest one.
so BL, why do you think these amphetamines (molly/meth) aren't working on me? it it because i have ADD? and they're having the same effect on me like when i take my Vyvase (lisdexamphetamine) and are just balancing me out? but i'm just taking a street version of them? i know molly and meth and dextroamphetamine are all molecularly different, but don't they all contain amphetamine, increasing my levels of dopamine?
i've heard taking a shot of alcohol helps kick molly in, other say a drag of a cigarette. are there any tips? or am i just immune to it? what other drugs would i be "immune" to? since marijuana worked, would shrooms or acid work? i'm looking forward to trying those soon.
thanks so much for reading! i'd love to hear what all of you have to say.
2012 - up until this point i've never drank alcohol, taken drugs, smoked cigarettes - anything. growing up with an chronic alcoholic mother and gazing into the eyes of addiction had steered me away from abusing substances. still partied with friends while they drugged and boozed and had a great social life regardless.
September 2012 - finally diagnosed with ADD, am prescribed Vyvanse (70mg) and had a great life improvements. i never feel Vyvanse hit me, nor do i ever feel it come down. probably because i actually have ADD and the drug is filling in my natural lack of dopamine? so i just feel balanced. doctor says i have the best response to this drug that he's ever seen. a year later it still works pretty good, not as well i think it did initially, at least i think so! i never really feel it so....
March 2013 - first cigarette - bought my own pack of Camel Menthol. didn't feel the nicotine rush i hear about, still have never felt it - even tried smoking 5 at a time (lol). i go though a pack a month - if that (if i'm not giving them away like candy to my friends) - purely social - really just think it looks cool - never crave one.
June 2013 - parachuted about 150mg of molly (untested) at Bonnaroo. felt no effects. did not enjoy Animal Collective as much as i though i would've.
July 2013 - purchased 1000mg of molly (reliable source, though untested). it was faintly yellow and crystallized. i was going to parachute it but i didn't feel like eating toilet paper again so i decided to play Drug Lab and crushed the crystals and divided the powder into 7 empty gel-capsules (previously containing vitamin C). went to go watch 4th of july fireworks at the beach and by the end of the night ingested 700mg of molly (420mg orally, snorted 280mg). felt absolutely nothing. friend who took remaining 300mg felt the effects. didn't take my Vyvanse this day.
August 2013 - first time smoking marijuana - wwwOOAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHhhhh i vomited. oh i feel it. first time i've ever felt under the influence of anything. times after that i have great trips, sometimes even scary ones. but it's fun! i get why people do it!
October 2013 - first time drinking alcohol - fireball whiskey. a lot of it. yep, feel it. affects me normally, like it does everyone else. feel some guilt because it's the drug that's destroying my mother. mixed it with marijuana once and blacked out (though it may have been mostly fault of the alcohol - my BAC was about 0.3%)
November 2013 - smoked mother-fuckin meth. yep. and a lot of it. didn't feel anything. guy who smoked with me and provided the drug smokes it almost everyday. only effect i felt were both jaw pain and loss of voice for a few days after - not sure if these were a result of smoking meth.
i have so many questions about drugs and substances but for this thread i'll only address my biggest one.
so BL, why do you think these amphetamines (molly/meth) aren't working on me? it it because i have ADD? and they're having the same effect on me like when i take my Vyvase (lisdexamphetamine) and are just balancing me out? but i'm just taking a street version of them? i know molly and meth and dextroamphetamine are all molecularly different, but don't they all contain amphetamine, increasing my levels of dopamine?
i've heard taking a shot of alcohol helps kick molly in, other say a drag of a cigarette. are there any tips? or am i just immune to it? what other drugs would i be "immune" to? since marijuana worked, would shrooms or acid work? i'm looking forward to trying those soon.
thanks so much for reading! i'd love to hear what all of you have to say.
