From A Fool.

[Jennyfur_Karma_Kin]

For Colm.

The constant flow of dialogue between us
Nearly five years of secrets and revelations
Have dissolved into an aching silence
And I have been hell bent on eradicating you

But once the fire subsided I realised
It's going to take more
Than a burning desire to speed up time
To forget the empty spaces in my soul
Once filled to the brim with you

Just because I have driven an unforgivable wedge
Doesn't mean that I don't care
Or that I don't miss you
It's just that I have learnt that for you to be happy
I can't be part of your life

So many nights we spent baring our souls
I wish we could go back just one last time
From the welcoming sound of Motown
To the sad strains of Irish rebel songs

Sobering up in the sunrise
Being tucked into bed on your sofa
The two of us in separate rooms
Alone together

If only I could have been stronger
We might have been a bit nicer to each other
I miss you and I just wish that you knew
Because I feel absolutely lost

Despite the physical and mental miles between us
People tell me that I will see you again
Whether its for a minute or forever
But I can't see that day coming

It's a constant battle not to wish
That you would turn up at my door
Telling me everything will be ok
Because when it comes to us

Nothing will ever be ok again
The ship has sailed and the battle was lost
So all I can do is be brave and learn to be happy
Without you in my life

So I will bid you goodbye
With a lump in my throat
Knowing I'll always miss you
But understanding that you shine brighter without me.

 

[caseface99]

That was amazing. Extremely sad.. sort of gave me a taste of how I'd feel if my current love affair ended. I really liked it however, the fact that it had an effect on me means it must be well written (in my opinion). Thanks for sharing.

I'm assuming it was inspired by a recent break up... If so - My condolences for your loss... Maybe share this with the other party involved? CAN'T hurt anything.. can it?

 

[Jennyfur_Karma_Kin]

Aww thank you for reading and responding. I am glad you connected with it, it means I wrote it properly. It was a break up, but a break up of friends. Being best friends with someone of the opposite sex can be so complex and and Colm and I pushed the boundaries until they broke. I wish I could let him see this, but he would hate it. Thanks again xxx