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From 105 mg of methadone to cold turkey

Dude fuck the job. Not sure if legally they can fire you? Anyways, iif it's not a legit career choice man, fuck it and go. Especially if you still feel like shit. Your son needs you 100.percent
 
I think your right im going to do it i think. Its paid for by insurance and im on day 22 and still sick. Its horrible
 
Day 35 and ive still got the chills and fatigue but im still clean and wishing the chills would quit but now ive made it a month and im ready for 60 days
 
Good job! I feel your pain I really do - having a similar problem myself with Suboxone... Sounds like you are almost in the clear!
 
i hope your right cause these chills are a everyday thing now and im so ready to just live a clean normal life
 
ok well im back here again.im on day 49 now cold turkey off 105 mg of methodone. im working the 12 steps on my own cause im private so i use online forums. i havent relapsed and i wont but i have a bad tooth and they wanna give me pain pills. it scares me. i have no control if i use and i know this but it hurts. i am battling bad depression and crazy thoughts. i wanted to overdose the other day. i scare myself but when i get to see my son im fine. i just wannabe in my sons life. since im clean i can see him now and im working a good paying job now. trying ti fixthis. i got a text from a friend saying she wanted me to listen to fix you by coldplay. its nice. my problems stem from childhood with both parents dying early and me finding my dad. never told anyone in person but just trying to make sense of everything.
 
ozz you have to make it longer.. seven or eight months are a very reasonable cut off.. your brain regulates back.


keep your mind focussed on the prize.. if i know anything about active addiction, what you look forward to and desire will never be there.. not the pipe dream we all play in our minds about use.. or much more importantly all the good shit in life.


Active use is awful, thats the god honest truth. The use of substances we are addicted to will eat everything good and kill us.<3

Its an illusion. rather a delusion.. once you see it for what it actually is you cant go back.
 
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@NSA,
Honestly, how long do you think it takes for someone recuperates his own happiness, natural endorphin so to speak?
After dumping this med, how long will it take, in general to beat the constant lack of motivation, sadness and stop being depressed.
You really seem to have a lot of experience in the subject. Reason for which I´m asking. If you don´t mind..
 
Seven or eight months is a good average to kick the paws which should be a great end to the physical symptoms. Physical symptoms die as the brain resets itself.

as far as the actual addiction.. what some refer to the "mental addiction" that is not something that just goes away right away.

We need to learn how it works and develop ways to combat it.

A very easy way to look at what addiction is by looking at drives that are the same.

Hunger, we can choose not to eat, but there is no way we can choose not to be hungry.

Thirst, we can choose not to drink, but there is no way we can choose not to be thirsty.

Sex. we can choose not to fuck or satisfy ourselves, but i have never been able to choose to not be horny.


Drug addiction, we can choose not to use drugs we are addicted to, but for a year or so and at times we cant choose not to desire to use drugs.

What we can do is learn to deal with the desires. They certainly dont stay around forever, im living testament to that.

The key to beating addiction is enlightenment.. enlightenment is when our conscious brain takes over executive control from our unconscious.

I know with all the crazy insane shit you have learned/instructed/ or forced down your unwilling throat this crazy fucker nsa is talking enlightenment garbage.

Not even close to playing though.
 
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im just so tired, depressed, and diarrhea and chills that WONT GO AWAY. cravings are still bad when im depressed which drives me crazy. i cant stop sneezing and im closing in on two months. jan 28 is two months. i quit November 28 for good and keep suffering everyday. i wont go back cause like you say this addiction took everything from me. i hit rock bottom in November. lost my car, home, son, everything and im not going to lie there and keep watching. i think though if not for my son i wouldnt have had the courage to do it.

ive learned that we dont really learn as much from our successes as we do our failures. we learn what we will do by learning what we wont do. i cant change the past these last 20 years ive been addicted and im tired of being the victim cause of what happened to my parents. im ready to take control of my life and just have to fight everyday.
 
your getting close ozz.. light at the end of the tunnel is right around the corner.

Your the fucking hero.. i know I have been where you are.

I know your not giving up no matter what, but i love this quote.

Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.
Thomas A. Edison


Your right there sir.. just keep moving forward and you will get to where your going. <3<3<3

EDIT: what kind of music do you like?
 
honestly lately ive been listening to tool, perfect circle, a song that this girl i know says is for me called fix you by coldplay. she knows my history and that im broken. its just who i am
 
neversickanymore said:
Seven or eight months is a good average to kick the paws which should be a great end to the physical symptoms. Physical symptoms die as the brain resets itself.

as far as the actual addiction.. what some refer to the "mental addiction" that is not something that just goes away right away.

We need to learn how it works and develop ways to combat it.

A very easy way to look at what addiction is by looking at drives that are the same.

Hunger, we can choose not to eat, but there is no way we can choose not to be hungry.

Thirst, we can choose not to drink, but there is no way we can choose not to be thirsty.

Sex. we can choose not to fuck or satisfy ourselves, but i have never been able to choose to not be horny.


Drug addiction, we can choose not to use drugs we are addicted to, but for a year or so and at times we cant choose not to desire to use drugs.

What we can do is learn to deal with the desires. They certainly dont stay around forever, im living testament to that.

The key to beating addiction is enlightenment.. enlightenment is when our conscious brain takes over executive control from our unconscious.

I know with all the crazy insane shit you have learned/instructed/ or forced down your unwilling throat this crazy fucker nsa is talking enlightenment garbage.

Not even close to playing though.
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Many thanks indeed! I now working with my patience as nothing seems to make me near, not even close to happiness. It seems it's all dark for now. Plus every step I make really takes all of my energy.
 
Hang in there. I'm closing in on 5 months.
First 90 days my experience was pretty much your experience.
All my symptoms are about finally gone.
Still have bouts of nervousness/anxiety for no reason but nothing major.
This last month I've noticed huge difference.
Mental well being is very good.
As Neversick said it takes time.
There are many reasons for this, but just trust it gets better.
I know for a fact you can make it until happiness returns cause you have made 47 day+ stopping methadone. This is no small thing bud.
It's freaking huge! Hang in there and get your reward.
 
i just hate feeling this way but i will be strong. i had a tooth cut out today. they offered me hydrocodone and i refused my script so im taking ibuprofen. life is hard its not been easy in along time. i just am so tired of how long it is taking. i bet i sneezed 100 times today.
 
Methadone cold turkey hit me in waves. It got better (marked improvement) after day 21. It took over a year for the sleep to truly improve but I was dealing with numerous other life situations (full time care giving for my terminally ill grandmother) and numerous other WDS at the time (benzos and others, mostly doctor prescribed). Hang in there, it does get better but it will take time. After it shows drastic improvement, it tends to come back seemingly at random for a couple months IME.
 
I have no doubt I can do this cause for my son I'll do anything including talks about drugs I never had before. I wasn't educated in the right ways about what I started. At the time I was just a kid with no parents though. Cops found my mom dead and I found my dad. I have so much hate and Ill will and I pray I can save me from myself one day. These thoughts started when I quit. Thank you for your inspiration. Its good to have confirmation of what others have done in the name of being clean.
 
Has anyone ever lost everyone they knew to addiction meaning as soon as your clean they want nothing to do with you? I mean what the?
 
Your post took me back to my methadone kick...damnit it was hell, I quit cold turkey from 120mg a day dose and literally laid in bed puking on my back the first few days( yeah I laid in a pile of cold puke for a good while). I know its gross but I think if I could have moved I would have hurt myself at that point. Totally worst kick ever and as a 10+ yr junkie that's saying something. Anyways if your still holding on the worst is behind you and you are to be commended , I used the sleepy time teas with some ok results not that I actually slept but they relaxed me and made the bone pain a little less sever. I also used some essential oils with some results though not like they tell you they work, Lavender was helpful as was the Sandalwood, i didn't own a diffuser so I just took some on my finger and rubbed it across my forehead, helped with the nausea and the post withdrawal blues. I'm new here so I hope I did this right and I hope this finds you well, Namaste!=D
 
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