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SpaceFace14

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Seriously I'm freaked ok. Any help would be grateful as I'm so worried. I used to take all sorts of drugs and be fine with any of them!! It all changed after I used '25-I' at a music festival literally this time last year, I have anxiety, depression, constant stress and worry of daily life, I also suffer derealization depersonalization since this substance too. I was a daily weed smoker and the depersonalization seemed to come after a panic attack on weed. I've quit every substance as of 2 months ago. BUT ok guys I went to a festival on Friday and got back today, I got really drunk Friday and Saturday but on Saturday I found by about 10pm I was dropping MDMA bombs, I had one and that got me really buzzing I'm talking like 5 lines of coke after eachother buzzing. I then thought it a good idea to ask my mate for 'another bomb' after I dropped that I have little to no recollection of what happened I must of passed out in the rave as I woke up on a chair outside the rave with people surrounding me forcing liquids into me and I thought I'm going to die, I'm fucked, this is it. I then got a little more back into reality, until I passed out, after that second one everything went to shit, people were carrying me around I was fainting every five minutes for about 5-15 seconds each time, the only reason I snapped out of the fainting was because they would shout at me poking me. I then found myself at the recovery tent where I continued to pass out for about 3 hours surrounded by what seemed about 10 people. Apparently I drunk 20 bottles of water, 10 diluted orange juices and also salt water at times, everything and everyone seemed somewhat trippy...after the passing out slowed down less frequently the security carried me to my step fathers car (he was there for a few hours when everything went down hill) I got to his house where I sat and continued to pass out but a lot less frequent maybe once every 20 minutes, after it stopped I smoked a spliff to try relax and was completely wrong, I was tripping balls, everything I didn't focus on seemed to turn into recognisable faces from the festival, the tv would bounce around like when a scene would change it would be somewhat faster and jolty, very hard to explain. After sitting on the sofa with my mate until 5am I decided I was feeling well enough to try sleep, I smoked a joint and finally got some sleep, woke up this morning feeling very grotty and still am at this moment, any help is appreciated hopefully someone can shed some light on my situation, many thanks.x
 
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Sounds to me like you overdid it with a bunch of untested substances. Take it as a lesson learned. Nobody is going to be able to tell you why that all happened. It could be that you got just the right mix, someone could have drugged you with something else, so many variables here. This is what happens when you go balls to the wall. Just be thankful you're alive and be more careful in the future.

Even just straight MDMA can do that to you if you take too much. It sounds like you were completely reckless.
 
As far as im aware ive never took any untested substances other than 25i, who knows what people are selling these days though right? Thanks for the advice, i have done many regrettable things over the years, just hope my head returns back to normal and il be able to live a happy life once again!
 
Well you didn't specify that you tested the MDMA and found it clean so the automatic assumption is it wasn't tested. If it was reagent tested with a full test kit (not just marquis), let me know and I'll change the prefix.

You'll recover from everything but you have to do two things - give it time first and abstain from *everything* second. If you can't do those two things, you aren't serious about recovery and indeed may not make a full recovery.
 
spaceface14

I hope you feel lucky that you are not dead.

After responding to your comment on the sticky regarding the danger of NBOME, and thought I might read something else you posted.

Just guessing you are still in school if your step dad rescued you from recovery at a festival.

Regardless of what people may do around you, you need to take charge of your self, and take care of your self. The most exciting things while on psychedelics are mundane, like raindrops of dust motes, not hyped commercial entertainments.

Your emotions will sort out if you take care of the more mundane aspects of life, and if you do ever trip again, don't be aggressive about your consumption. be careful, be a man in charge of himself (i.e. immune to stupid challenges, and unswayed by corporate marketing). find your own interests.
 
I did not test the drug as my friend bought it at the festival. Staying off the drugs is no issue, until under the influence of alcohol, I hope the full recovery does happen as it's hard living in this dream state... Also last night while I was trying to get to sleep I seen black shadows of people that were trying to help me while I was fainting the other night, it was as if I was viewing them from behind my closed eyelids but a day after it had happened? It was very vivid, extremely odd.
 
pupnik

I am indeed so glad I'm alive, it's not the first time I've thought I wasn't going to make it out alive, yes I'm 18, I do need to take charge of myself I do go adrift sometimes and go all out crazy, completely loose control so to speak. I've been taking various substances since the age of 12 so that's probably got a lot to do with my problems, I did have one period where I was off everything for 7 months that was the best period of my life so far. That was before the derealization though, now when I quit I still do not feel normal.
 
sounds like my mda trip but i never actually fainted i just blacked out / my whole frame snapped to the next scence lol it would be like 30 mins after and i was somewhere else then i would snap out and 5 mins later id be talking to someone and bam its fucked but legit fainting that sounds very scary/ dangerous just work out eat good dont do anything for 3 months you'll be back ASAP best of luck 8(
 
MagicalKat777

Indeed that is true, I will do that then it should be easy enough! Thanks for the help dude:)!

jamielovesmary

Yeah it was defo fainting, I did black out too though I remember near enough nothing, maybe a 2 minute time frame every hour or so but thats about it, it was the second scariest time of my life so yeah pretty fucking bad haha! I do work out and always eat healthy, supplements too!

Just want to put this out there Its 3 days later and the rear of both my arms are completely numb, can't feel them at all; its like someones injected a local into me, any idea what this is and will it go away?
 
The numb arms have happened to me before as well, it scared the crap out of me and in time it went away.

I also went overboard on untested chemicals (and tested chemicals) and as of four days ago I am completely sober.
I already feel a slight clearing of my head and a reduction in hallucinations. Also I am only 3 years older than you.

Damn these research chemicals are fucking our generation up man. Hang in there and it will get better, if the numb feeling spreads I would suggest a doctor visit.
 
Did your arms tingle when you took feel breaths? Its crazy, i hope it goes away, it hasn't spread as of yet! well done with quitting dude, hope all goes well! I agree they are ruining this generation... I know a ton of people just waiting for that moment to happen to them where they realise they've messed up big time.
 
DP/DR is fucking terrible and terrifying. I was stuck with a nasty spell for a while. If drugs caused it, it will go away. You just have to stay sober and try to keep a very positive mindset.
 
Everything has been said already, apart from one thing: SpaceFace watch out with consuming such insanely high volumes of water. 20 bottles of water+orange juice+additional salt water is way too much, you could have very well suffered water poisoning, something that is potentially fatal. It's good when you roll or should you ingest an MDMA OD that you drink a bit more than usual, but please don't do that again for your own sake. Read up on it here and here if you haven't heard of this before, it's really dangerous to drink that much. I actually think you're lucky they gave you some salt water, I think otherwise you would have been in far greater trouble than you were already. Water poisoning is one of the most common causes of MDMA-related deaths, though most people are surprised such a thing even exists when they find out about it

I wish you all the best! Sorry to hear you had such a bad experience. Learn from it, put some preventive measures in place (testkit biatch =D) to stop this from ever happening again and move on. It will get better in time, you are far from the worst case of a bad comedown I've come across and usually even the worst get better. Good luck
 
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