yoUr bLiSS
Bluelighter
i do not hate you
though at times my back
and my heart
still ache at the thought
of that $100 knife
you so sweetly stabbed into it
if anything i should thank you
your betrayal gave me the push i needed
to get all the "negative energy"
out of my house once and for all
i am happy
freak(the cat)is happy
and the god damn computer is finally back
no i do not hate you
i pity you
yet once upon a time
i envied you
so beautiful
so talented
so vibrant and alive
but most of all
so real
even back in jr. high
but i was never jealous
if anything you made me shine
just as brightly in your presence
we had amazing chemistry together
people wanted to meet us
people wanted to be us
you gave me a confidence
i still thank you for today
no i do not hate you
i pity you
yet once upon a time
i envied you
somewhere along the way
you slowly changed
you began to compromise
all the things which made you so amazing
in the first place
he has poisoned your mind
clipped your wings
extinguished your spirit
i thought you were stronger
you shone so brightly once
danced so passionatly once
lived so freely once
no i do not hate you
i pity you
yet once upon a time
i envied you
maybe one day you'll wake up
because even though in my eyes
your are half the person i thought you were
you are still 10,000 times the person
he could ever even hope to be
for your sake
i hope things work out
i hope you are well
i hope he does not hurt you
or poison you
anymore than he already has
i hope you are not
stuck in that situation
that i once was
i would not wish that upon anyone
not even on a former best friend
who stabbed me in the back once
then left me with a trashed room
unpaid bills
and a missing stereo reciever
no i do not hate you
i pity you
yet once upon a time
i envied you
though at times my back
and my heart
still ache at the thought
of that $100 knife
you so sweetly stabbed into it
if anything i should thank you
your betrayal gave me the push i needed
to get all the "negative energy"
out of my house once and for all
i am happy
freak(the cat)is happy
and the god damn computer is finally back
no i do not hate you
i pity you
yet once upon a time
i envied you
so beautiful
so talented
so vibrant and alive
but most of all
so real
even back in jr. high
but i was never jealous
if anything you made me shine
just as brightly in your presence
we had amazing chemistry together
people wanted to meet us
people wanted to be us
you gave me a confidence
i still thank you for today
no i do not hate you
i pity you
yet once upon a time
i envied you
somewhere along the way
you slowly changed
you began to compromise
all the things which made you so amazing
in the first place
he has poisoned your mind
clipped your wings
extinguished your spirit
i thought you were stronger
you shone so brightly once
danced so passionatly once
lived so freely once
no i do not hate you
i pity you
yet once upon a time
i envied you
maybe one day you'll wake up
because even though in my eyes
your are half the person i thought you were
you are still 10,000 times the person
he could ever even hope to be
for your sake
i hope things work out
i hope you are well
i hope he does not hurt you
or poison you
anymore than he already has
i hope you are not
stuck in that situation
that i once was
i would not wish that upon anyone
not even on a former best friend
who stabbed me in the back once
then left me with a trashed room
unpaid bills
and a missing stereo reciever
no i do not hate you
i pity you
yet once upon a time
i envied you
*hugs* Ive missed you darls, welcome back. Ive also missed your ever so touching writing, just like this one. Great!