Beyond the range
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Sep 13, 2001
- Messages
- 18
Those same old fears,
coming back to get you in the end.
The fear of abandonment
coupled
with
the fear of having your trust betrayed.
Trust is something that
can shake the roots of
family trees.
Capable of being cut down
at a moment's noticed.
One single accident,
a slip, a fall.
A genetic disorder,
slow, painful.
A child told to be quiet and never fight back for his strength is frightening,
and could do some damage.
A lifetime of being pushed around,
and relying on others.
It goes both ways.
It's not a one-way street.
These things make our lives unfair,
so we must live for what we feel as
important,
worthy,
and true.
Nothing is absolute, but things are different.
Our trust has been destroyed.
Rebuilding looks dim.
So if you ever read this,
understand that I'm not mad at you.
I'm not angry that I'm not what you're looking for, right now.
I'm not mad at you in anyway.
But I am disappointed
in you.
I'm disappointed
in how I reacted to your harsh words,
and how I came to understand that
in this life,
all things end.
I have two more words for you,
but I cannot say them here.
...
coming back to get you in the end.
The fear of abandonment
coupled
with
the fear of having your trust betrayed.
Trust is something that
can shake the roots of
family trees.
Capable of being cut down
at a moment's noticed.
One single accident,
a slip, a fall.
A genetic disorder,
slow, painful.
A child told to be quiet and never fight back for his strength is frightening,
and could do some damage.
A lifetime of being pushed around,
and relying on others.
It goes both ways.
It's not a one-way street.
These things make our lives unfair,
so we must live for what we feel as
important,
worthy,
and true.
Nothing is absolute, but things are different.
Our trust has been destroyed.
Rebuilding looks dim.
So if you ever read this,
understand that I'm not mad at you.
I'm not angry that I'm not what you're looking for, right now.
I'm not mad at you in anyway.
But I am disappointed
in you.
I'm disappointed
in how I reacted to your harsh words,
and how I came to understand that
in this life,
all things end.
I have two more words for you,
but I cannot say them here.
...
