Fool

[MynameisnotDeja]

Was I a total fool?
I think we both know the answer.
I cant forget the look on your face when I begged you
to love me..or how I wished you would hit me.
Hurt me..stab me...shoot me..anything but this.
Im as pathetic as it gets, but who cares,
this is me, loving you, begging you like the fool I am.
Because you wont change your mind..
and yet I kept hoping and hoping as
every second passed that you would.
I hope every day that passes you miss me..think of me.
Because I know I will. But I dont think you will..
I hope you suffer in my absense like a plant sufferes
without sunlight, but you wont, you'll continue to bloom.
I cant forget the feeling in my stomach when you said
no over and over..I cant forget how it felt to slap you and
want to die because of it..because Id rather die than hurt you.
But you crushed my heart, and I loved you.
I cant forget the absense I feel in my heart for every moment
I know you are never coming back..
Am I a fool?
Yes.
But so are you.

 

[RareForm]

I hope every day that passes you miss me..think of me.

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Am I a fool?
Yes.
But so are you.

great to see you in here. not like this though. i love it when people write about emotions i'd forgotten or things i'd thought. the pain is apparent, and i hope you're getting through this.

 

[cherub]

it is almost as if i have said those words out loud,, but i haven't,, but maybe i have wanted to.... amazing way to say what was in your heart !

 

[m4dd0g]

a lot of people know that spiral of emotions all too well, its good to see it expressed from a point of understanding

 

[MynameisnotDeja]

Thanks, it felt good to get it out. I can never even write unless Im heartbroken for some reason!

 

[Mehm]

dark piece, especially

I cant forget the look on your face when I begged you
to love me..or how I wished you would hit me.
Hurt me..stab me...shoot me..anything but this.
Im as pathetic as it gets, but who cares,

I hope everything turns out ok
peas