flashes/still rolling - weird after effects

[tenshu2k]

so i rolled this last weekend (more than i usually do), and i've been pretty off this week.

i really do want to roll again, but i think i will wait till new years (its been about 3x this year so far). i think my plan is to load up on 5htp this week, and take SJW for the rest of the year, up until a month till I roll again. let's see how it works.

i kinda regret getting carried away last weekend, but its so easy to lose yourself sometimes. i'm not even sure how much i took cause i lost my bottle, but i'm guessing it was around 300-400mg of molly (dosing and redosing through the night).

its been 4 days since then so here are some things i've noticed:

- trouble sleeping (i take melatonin but still wake up all of a sudden at night)
- feel kinda amped up/anxious.
- flashes, ill ocassionally have these "rushes", almost like a really mini roll (i kidna like it, but it was scary at first).
- weird effects with caffeine. i almost feel like i'm kinda rolling when im on a bit of caffeine. i took a thermogenic today (its a part of my standard diet/workout routine) and i feel really jittery and pretty amped up.

emotionally, pretty messy. kinda depressed at times, sometimes happy, lots on my mind. hopefully the 5htp and sjw will help me with that. i've also been basically all alone sitting in a cube at work the whole week, so i think those feelings are from separation anxiety from everyone i was with last weekend.

has anyone noticed that as well? i rolled with some really close friends, most of who'm I won't see for a long time now. i think that might play into the feelings as well.

i'm not normally like this, but maybe its work related as well. last few times i've rolled, ive been able to sleep for days on end and do nothing, but i was straight to work less than a day after.

maybe sleep deprivation+rolling dont mix to well, maybe i took too much. anyway, hope you all continue to play safe. even with all of this, i'm looking forward to next time, even if it is far away.

 

[carson9]

I found working out/drinking only water is a quick cure to any effects of most any drug. But not just lifting weights, running is also a big plus.

 

[760rollz]

- trouble sleeping (i take melatonin but still wake up all of a sudden at night)

I would wake up from deep sleeps with nightmares in a state of paralysis

- feel kinda amped up/anxious.

I would be at work grinding my jaw hard

- flashes, ill occasionally have these "rushes", almost like a really mini roll (i kidna like it, but it was scary at first). These are known as "Brain Zaps" Do a quick search on them here.

emotionally, pretty messy. kinda depressed at times, sometimes happy, lots on my mind. hopefully the 5htp and sjw will help me with that. It does and it will. Sun light also helps.

What you are describing is to the T a perfect description for what happens to a person both physically and emotionally after the person has been rolling too much/too often. Give it a good break. Maybe as long as 3 months. You will notice that just by taking a long break it all clears up and you get back to baseline. Your roll will be SOOOOOO much better after a long break too. If you keep it up Xpect all the negative shit that's happening to get worse and worse til you are in a depressed mess. (search some of my past posts to see the shit I mean.)

 

[MazDan]

^^^^^ I agree.

tenshu it might be a help for you to learn mnore about mdma by reading the various faqs available in the Basics section of the Directory.

 

[tenshu2k]

yea i read up, i was worried about SS at first, but I think I feel okay for the most part. definitely going to waiit a long time. in fact, i really dont want to unless another good friend does it with me, so i'm very happy to wait. i've had great experiences on molly and i dont want to ruin them.

having access is such a curse sometimes . i think i was just a little overzealous last weekend, because i knew i had rolled a few times before and it was a special night so i took an extra dose. i know to never make that mistake again.

i think i'll be fine by this weekend when i get to seriously rest up, detox, workout and such.

 

[tenshu2k]

did a little more research

after this week (taking 300mg of 5htp 1 daily alone). i will be taking the following, just to hopefully restore any neurological damage:

SJW - 500-600mg 3-4x a week for 5-6 months
Piracetam - 1.6g daily 4-5x a week for 5-6 months
Gingko Boloba - similar schedule for same time period, maybe less frequent

From what I've read, these seem safe to take. I wonder if this combination

Cutting out 5htp entirely after this week, it seems like long term use of it is not a good thing.

I used to drink a ridiculous amount, and stopped really cause of mdma, and i attribute a huge lifestyle change in that for the better. It's done so much good to be in my life so I would hate to abuse it.

It's just sad now the next few months seem pretty dry and boring (its scary hearing myself say that).