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First-time meth user - feeling SO bad I just want to cry - HELP!

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I am a 22 year old female, and smoke weed on a regular basis. I also do coke sooooometimes when someone has at a party, but I never buy it. About 12 hours ago someone at the party I was at got some "ice" (which later I discovered that's another name for meth - that's how new to this I am) and I think I had like 6 bumps and smoked twice. I never felt any rush, any good feelings... I didn't really feel anything, just a bit hyper.

I asked the people there if you could overdose and they said yes, that you need to watch for when you throw up and if there is white foam then you need to stop. Well, I threw up and white foam came out. Obviously I didn't do any more after I saw that. Now I just feel like throwing up REALLY BAD, and feel like crap in general. I am scared, because I am not sure if I am coming down or the worst is yet to come... I have been reading a few threads and seriously all the things people said about coming down on meth are scaring me to death.

At first, when all the bad shit started happening, I was so dizzy that I asked a friend to stay with me the WHOLE time (even when I peed and showered) because I though I was about to pass out. My heart rate feels slower than normal, I can't eat or drink anything because of the nausea (haven't eaten in about 24 hours now, and I have thrown up drinks I've taken), and of course I still haven't slept at all.

Can someone tell me if I did too much for my first (and LAST) time? Am I coming down now or is it gonna get worse (pain, depression...)? Please give me any tips (take tylenol now?), suggestions, stories (how long will I be up? how long will this horrible feeling last?)... I don't care, I just wanna feel better =( To make things worse I am going to work in an hour. I will work for 6 hours. I am also scared I will come down while working... =/ FUCK - This is being one of the worst experiences of my life, not kidding. I will NEVER EVER EVER EVER do that shit again.
 
Throwing up and nausea are usually a relatively benign (safe) symptom of using amphetamines, it can also however be a pre-symptom of a seizure.

Are you prone to or ever had a seizure?

Welcome to bluelight by the way.
 
Chances are in that case, that you've just a bad reaction. Amphetamines trigger massive amounts of dopamine, and dopamine activates a part of the brain called the chemoreceptor-trigger-zone which controls vomiting and nausea.

What can help in this case, if you're extremely desperate to end the nausea, is to buy an anti-emetic which shuts down dopamine called domperidone (motillium). This will most probably reverse all the nausea and vomiting you're feeling. The second and most ideal option you have is visiting an emergency room where you can be looked after, and administered both an anti-emetic and a benzodiazepine.

Do you have access to benzodiazepines?
 
As Chromophobia said, nausea and vomitting are pretty common. You probably did too much (too much for you at least). Can you get a friend to stay with you for a while?

Don't stress about a possible comedown, just try to drink some fluids with electrolytes (like coconut water, gatorade, etc), try to eat something when you're feeling well enough to, and make sure you get some sleep if at all possible. I've never heard of Tylenol for a meth comedown and don't see how that would help. Benzos are what people normally take for the comedown but be careful not to take too much, just a small dose.

I don't know where the OP lives but I don't think they have domperidone in the US and I thought it was by prescription only in Canada.
 
Ok first off, I would say you did to much. How big was the bumps? I usually do -------------------- that big of lines. Only a few a night though on top of smoking. If your feeling this bad I would call in sick for work if you still can. Drink plenty of water and try eating soft foods. Vitamins would help also. If you can get some benzodiazepines. You should be coming down. What your experiencing is the horrible side effects of a amphetamine comedown.
 
No, I don't even know what those are.... and honestly I am not trying to go to the ER for doing meth. I just want to feel better, maybe someone that tells me that it will all pass soon? I just want to get over this situation and forget I ever tried this horrible nasty drug.

I wish I could call in sick to work, but I can't =/ I have had a friend by me at all times just in case something happened though...
BTW I don't know about the bumps... I took them with a coin so I don't really know how much was in each... I do remember it burning and me tearing up... Also, when I smoked, I did it out of a glass bulb, if that makes any difference.
 
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Sorry for being unclear. Benzodiazepines are sedatives like xanax and valium which cancel out the effects of amphetamines, and aid in the comedown.

The most likely scenario is what you're experiencing will pass very soon. As I explained, the nausea is a very common side effect from drugs like methamphetamine which release dopamine. The anxiety, depression, and paranoia on the comedown are also very normal symptoms, so you have nothing to worry about.

The best thing you can do is sit tight, and try to have some company around you in the rare case which you might need some assistance both psychologically and physically.
 
I took my last bump like 6-7 hours ago... I am actually leaving for work in about 20 mins >_<

Thank you so much for all the advice... I did buy food but basically every time I even think of putting ANYTHING in my mouth, it gives me nausea. I've been seating with the trashcan by me for 4 hours now. I don't have any valium or anything like that, by the way =(

Will smoking a joint help or make it worse? I haven't even wanted to touch any sort of drug since I had all these nasty feelings...

BTW - I don't know if this has anything to do with this, but I bled a bit vaginally that I could see (sorry if TMI) and I ended my period over a week ago, so I shouldn't be getting a new one for at least a couple of weeks. I noticed the small bleeding about 4 hrs ago or so.

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Well... I am going to work now. I will read the replies later once I get off. Please send good vibes my way... I just hope I am not going to come down even harder than what I am experiencing right now, and I also hope that this will not last very much longer... I decided AGAINST smoking a joint for now (wanted to see what you guys would say.) If you guys think it would help though, I will smoke a joint tonight, get the munchies, eat, and go the fuck to sleep... 24 hrs of not eating nor sleeping can't be good for anyone.
 
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Sending you good vibes <3

Spotting (light vaginal bleeding) is pretty common with meth, I've got that before. Are you on any hormonal form of birth control (the pill, Mirena IUD, Depo-Provera injection, etc)?

Personally I wouldn't smoke a joint if it were me, but if you normally respond well to weed it might be a good idea. So hard to say since everyone is so different.
 
Eat, drink, and sleep. If you want my recommendation, avoid smoking a joint on a methamphetamine comedown like the plague. It can worsen anxiety and trigger panic attacks. You're doing just fine without it so let's keep it that way.

I wish you well, and please make sure to revisit your thread to update us on your status every short while.
 
First, lots of l<3ve to the OP, you will be home soon if you keep your mind off the clock. You'll probably just feel like crashing into your bed when you get back, but make sure that you are well hydrated and have at least eaten some fruit(banannas are great. potassium!), drank some milk(protein for when you can't take other sources), gatorade(for electrolytes) before you do.

As to the weed...You see, it would help me. It varies wildly, so if you aren't particularly prone to anxiety from smoking take one toke if you feel like it and decide from there.
 
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Hope work is going OK for Ya! If your not prone to panic attacks I would say smoke that joint when you get home. Maybe unroll it and use a pipe so you can take one hit at a time to see how its effecting you. If it's calming you down you should be fine. It might even help you eat! :) But like they said before me, it COULD bring on some severe anxiety. If you smoke regularly it's less likely to happen from what I have seen.
 
I had to reply when i saw this. I've tried meth only a handful of times and not since a few years ago. The first time i did it the guy told me it was something called "tina" (the gay slang for methamphetamine) and i didn't know what it was. I smoked 12 hits (way more than a first timer should) and like you i couldn't really "feel" it, because meth has a more mental high than a physical one, and isn't like good coke in terms of "feeling" it. Even though i stayed up for 24 hours and couldn't stop talking, i kept telling the guy i couldn't feel it, because i thought i'd be more fucked up. Well lord almighty, after 24 hours i started feeling unusually depressed, and eventually started throwing up and could not stop for 7 hours, until i took a few advils which doesn't help much. I never felt so depressed, laying there and with my mind racing of all these negative guilty feelings. Since that first time i did meth 7 more times, and knew what to look out for when i did it (talking too much, slight tingles, extremely energetic and happy). But it was one drug that produced the WORST comedown i have EVER had, far worse than heroin, cocaine, and even ectasy. Till this day, i can never forget about the comedown from methamphetamine, it lasts forever, and now i realized why meth "addicts" are so bitchy. I wouldn't try it again if i were you, i normally did 2 lines when i would do it with no tolerance like this big each ---------------------- ----------------------. Which is a little much, one time i did 5 because the addict kept wanting me to keep up with him, and needless to say i had a comedown that lasted a day. I WANTED TO DIE! What a weird drug indeed.
 
Hello! First of all, thank you all for the good vibes =)

I must say that I am feeling WAY better right now. I still haven't slept, and I still haven't eaten (it is now 3 am where I live, which means that I have spent about 31 hours without eating actual food and about 36 hours awake) buuut the constant nausea is almost gone, and I am actually feeling kind of tired. I think the come down lasted about a day or so, but it didn't get worse than what I described above... I didn't get any crazy physical pains or horrible suicidal thoughts (although I did cry a bit, I will admit haha.) I did try eating a bit before but it was just SO hard to swallow the food... I gave up after 3 mini bites of pizza. I did try to drink a lot of water, though.

As I predicted, work WAS was pretty horrible... My job requires some strength at times, and I think that not having slept or eaten anything for so long took a toll on my body. I felt weak and any physical activity seemed so much harder today. Just walking around pushing something a bit heavy made me lose my breath >_< I concur with the feeling of wanting to die. I actually stopped a few times and just rested somewhere where someone couldn't see me because I felt I just couldn't go on =/ In the end, though, I made it home alive and "well" =D

Now that I am off, I am going to take a few hits of weed. I am not prone to panic attacks, and I remembered having smoked from my pipe before when I did coke and was still hyper but wanted to go to sleep, so I think it will help =) (I'll update later or tomorrow lol) - I will just take it slow to make sure I don't have a crazy reaction.

Conclusion from this experience - I haven't tried that many drugs, but meth for sure takes the crown for nastiest, weirdest drug ever. I never felt any good feelings, and all I got from it was a horrible day full of throwing up and being paranoid about possible things that were gonna happen to me (that's when I teared up a bit lol) soooo yeah, I'm gonna pass next time someone says "Ice, anyone?" and just go roll a joint or something haha - sooooo much better.
 
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I'm glad you're making the decision that this will be your first and last time with methamphetamine. It's certainly not a drug for all since it's not so gentle on the human psyche.

It's great that you're feeling better, and I'm happy that you gave us the update. I think however that it would be a good idea at this point to have some fruits and vegetables, or anything that you know will go down easy. Make sure to drink lots of water as methamphetamine can dehydrate.

Make sure you don't smoke too much cannabis before you get a feel of how it will interact with you, and give us another update when you do.
 
Good to hear you're feeling better.

My only concern for your health now is that you need to eat at least one decent sized, semi healthy meal. Intake of nutrients, along with a multivitamin, are very very important. You need to keep everything in balance, or things can go haywire. I've posted my example many times over, but having been hospitalized for Hypokalemia after a single dose of 4-Fa, I must warn others that eating and intaking essential nutrients and vitamins, such as potassium and magnesium will make you feel tons better and also make sure you don't end up in the hospital !

Electrolyte imbalances can be deadly. It may just be from my near death experience with Hypokalemia, but there's still a possibility for ANYONE taking a stimulant to be overcome with the same condition. Stimulants tend to burn a lot of both potassium and magnesium, along with lots of other essential vitamins.

Also remember to drink lots of water ! Dehydration is something people don't even think about half the time when on a stimulant, and it's usually responsible for 50%+ of the negative symptoms they are experiencing.

Good luck and stay healthy !
 
Ahhhh... <3 Weed <3 Always making everything better... hahaha... for real, though! I just took a few hits and WOAH... I think it hit me harder and faster this time, but it still had the same calming effect as always. Muscles relaxed immediately, my nausea is gone, my head feels good... oh, and I actually have saliva now! Munchies are coming soon... I can feel them hahaha! I wish I had smoked earlier, but oh well... I am just happy I am feeling so good right now =)
 
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