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First time MDMA use

Dragonkiller

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Hi everyone (I'm new to the forum)!

SWIM tried MDMA for the first time yesterday. SWIM took about 30-40mg and didn't notice any effects after an hour, so SWIM topped it up to 100mg.

After another 40-50 minutes, SWIM started feeling the effects. SWIM's mind and whole body felt very light (especially his arms) and walking was very easy, his pupils also got a lot bigger. SWIM felt very positive about everything and spoke very softly. When talking to people and listening to music the voices seemed slower than usual. He also felt like he could notice things that he didn't before, e.g. when talking to someone he felt their voice sounded sad (but he didn't tell them as he thought it might just be the effect of the MDMA and didn't want them to find out, although it's possible that the person was actually sad). He also didn't want to talk much for the same reason, as he felt he might be speaking too fast. His jaw muscles also tightened.

This effect only lasted for about an hour. After that, for some reason (maybe a particular song that came on) SWIM got very, very anxious about his future and work deadlines etc. He couldn't sit still, was pacing all the time. When he did sit down, he would constantly tap his foot. Was nowhere near a panic attack but could have developed into one. SWIM had only felt that much anxiety a couple of times in the past (and they were not triggered by drug use) and one panic attack (due to drug use, SWIM thought he was going to die). This lasted for about an hour and then subsided. SWIM also felt a bit cold and itchy during this time.

SWIM didn't have the appetite to eat anything and was fine for the rest of the day until it was time to sleep. SWIM was able to sleep fine as he was tired (although he hadn't done anything very physical). But for some reason, he got very scared and a bit anxious/paranoid just before sleeping (nothing as bad as before), but he was a bit scared to sleep/close his eyes (like he had just watched a scary movie) and slept with the light on. He also felt a bit depressed.

SWIM is pretty sure it was pure MDMA powder, although he's not 100% sure (the powder might have been mixed with something else as it was fine powder).

Today, so far he's feeling much better.

Is this normal? Should SWIM be worried?
 
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Welcome to Bluelight and the MDMA world, we do not allow SWIM as a guideline, as it is in no way a legitimate method of avoiding self incrimination- plus it's confusing to read.

Your experience sounds significantly lackluster and anxiety filled for a first time MDMA experience. One thing you'll find on here a lot is "get a test kit" or "test your stuff"- this is because the MDMA world is unfortunately filled with adulterants, contaminants, and RCs attempted to be passed off as genuine. No one can safely assess your experience and tell you what you took or what should be normal for it.

I would check out our directory (my signature) in the meantime to learn more and see if what you've experienced is "normal".
 
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