Buddy122
Bluelighter
Ok, so a little background. I'm mainly a pill popper, have done tons, and a few years ago I use to do sessions of mephedrone every couple of months until I hit a three day binge and freaked out. Needless to say, on top of anxiety that I've already had in my life, that freak out didn't help. I've been looking for benzos ever since to keep calm when I go out, mostly. So anyways, I've recently made some new friends who are into the same music and shows that I am and they got some pure Molly in so I figured what the hell. I trust these people, its been years since the freakout, I can prob control my anxiety now, and I'm looking for a new experience.
So we set off driving to an outdoor rave, good music, lights and friends. I managed to eat a little before meeting up, which I figured was a good idea bc I didn't know what I was in for. I've built myself up to believe that pure Molly is the drug of all Drugs for parties. So I a was pretty nervous and anxious already. Well halfway there we popped em in the car, one pill. I was told it was approx 120-140mg.We get to the parking lot and begin waiting for a friend. Like I've read, like clockwork, about 45min pass and right as we're getting in line for will call i get an intense hot flash. I even asked my friend (who was also doing Molly for the first time) if my face was red. she said no. So I'm having an intense hot flash, getting dizzy all of the sudden and I check my pulse and its fast. That's just a nervous thing I do, just bc I like to freak myself out ya know lol? But surprisingly, I went through the line just fine (felt like I might have had to shit for a min, gross I know) got into the show area and managed not to have a panic attack. Most of the night we spent chilling on the back lawn sipping on water and making new friends, I was content w that. Went up front in the crowd for about 30min and danced, but ho nestly didn't find the music or lights to be heightened in any way. Just normal. I did feel pretty dizzy the whole night, had to concentrate on walking ad not bumping into people, the terrain wasn't helpful and standing up from a seated position was difficult. But other than the initial 20min of intense heat and prob a mild anxiety attack on my part from the Molly kicking in, I didn't experience any more anxiety and had a good time. However, I didn't feel any euphoria. Light shows weren't impressive, a backrub was offputting, I guess I just didn't get the 'drug of all drugs' experience I was thinking I would.
So q&a time. I def took tested Molly, had a great time, took enough for a first timer. Did not drink alcohol. I had one mini redbull and then nothing but water at the show. Should I have experienced euphoria? Was my mild freakout in the early stages normal? Should I have dropped more to begin with? Like I said, no complaints minus the initial hit and I didn't like feeling dizzy the whole time, had a little trouble going to sleep but that's to be expected. I felt a little off for about the next half of the day, but my good friend gave me some 5htp for the morning and I took multivitamins as well. I didn't feel down or depressed (still don't and its three days later), just felt off and fatigued. But I expected that. So no other bad side effects....a little sore mouth from minor bruxism.
So yeah, any input is appreciated. I would really like to try Molly again, but I'd really like a euphoric feeling. For instance, if you've ever done mephedrone....I'd like that intense euphoria minus that fucking speedy dirty god-awful fiendy feeling. I feel like I can achieve that w the proper instruction on my next Molly experience....with input form all of you guys...who I've come to rely on. Thanks in advance for any responses.
So we set off driving to an outdoor rave, good music, lights and friends. I managed to eat a little before meeting up, which I figured was a good idea bc I didn't know what I was in for. I've built myself up to believe that pure Molly is the drug of all Drugs for parties. So I a was pretty nervous and anxious already. Well halfway there we popped em in the car, one pill. I was told it was approx 120-140mg.We get to the parking lot and begin waiting for a friend. Like I've read, like clockwork, about 45min pass and right as we're getting in line for will call i get an intense hot flash. I even asked my friend (who was also doing Molly for the first time) if my face was red. she said no. So I'm having an intense hot flash, getting dizzy all of the sudden and I check my pulse and its fast. That's just a nervous thing I do, just bc I like to freak myself out ya know lol? But surprisingly, I went through the line just fine (felt like I might have had to shit for a min, gross I know) got into the show area and managed not to have a panic attack. Most of the night we spent chilling on the back lawn sipping on water and making new friends, I was content w that. Went up front in the crowd for about 30min and danced, but ho nestly didn't find the music or lights to be heightened in any way. Just normal. I did feel pretty dizzy the whole night, had to concentrate on walking ad not bumping into people, the terrain wasn't helpful and standing up from a seated position was difficult. But other than the initial 20min of intense heat and prob a mild anxiety attack on my part from the Molly kicking in, I didn't experience any more anxiety and had a good time. However, I didn't feel any euphoria. Light shows weren't impressive, a backrub was offputting, I guess I just didn't get the 'drug of all drugs' experience I was thinking I would.
So q&a time. I def took tested Molly, had a great time, took enough for a first timer. Did not drink alcohol. I had one mini redbull and then nothing but water at the show. Should I have experienced euphoria? Was my mild freakout in the early stages normal? Should I have dropped more to begin with? Like I said, no complaints minus the initial hit and I didn't like feeling dizzy the whole time, had a little trouble going to sleep but that's to be expected. I felt a little off for about the next half of the day, but my good friend gave me some 5htp for the morning and I took multivitamins as well. I didn't feel down or depressed (still don't and its three days later), just felt off and fatigued. But I expected that. So no other bad side effects....a little sore mouth from minor bruxism.
So yeah, any input is appreciated. I would really like to try Molly again, but I'd really like a euphoric feeling. For instance, if you've ever done mephedrone....I'd like that intense euphoria minus that fucking speedy dirty god-awful fiendy feeling. I feel like I can achieve that w the proper instruction on my next Molly experience....with input form all of you guys...who I've come to rely on. Thanks in advance for any responses.
