First time feeling opiate withdrawl...

[banksy]

My recent withdrawals were horrendous, I really wouldnt wish them on any one, I was going to say enemy there but I have none, I havent the time to be hating on people.

Most people who catch a habit, lack the constituition to free their worlds from the daily grind of using to live and living to use.

In the USA, there are 3 million registered problematic drug users, on the flip side they estimate their could be up too 16 million. Tehran has 6 million intravenous drug users and the UK about a million. Just those collective guesstimates show how hard kicking a habit can be...

 

[ellua]

yah keep yourself busy, and if you're typing to us on bluelight you won't have time to dial your contacts

 

[Pomplemous]

My connection has decided to go on vacation without telling me, so now I'm stuck with no opiates, and I have no benzos right now either. It seems to hit me by afternoon everyday, anxiety starts up, I can't sit still, hot/cold sweats, I'm fucking hating this. I know I wont be able to sleep tonight, and the only thing I have at my disposal is weed, and no matter how much of that I smoke, I still feel like shit. I guess I'll just go cold turkey, but I feel like complete shit and as much as I'd hate to say it, I'd much rather taper off then feel like this for even 5 days.

*singing * Yoooou can doo it. lalalalala. sing that to any tune you like cos I just made that up,

aye.... I dont know what to say to this because we know this is the best thing for you but calling everyone says you probably dont want to give up yet, doesnt sound like your head in that place yet and so I think you should redirect your thoughts from craving to thinking about what you could be doing instead since you hadnt planned on wanting to take opiates so what had you planned on instead? so go and do that instead then. its never too early or late to get your life back on track.

I dont know baby I am just going to watch and wait. It's up to you and we'll loveye whatever you choose. But just take a grab on this because you KNOW where it is headed and you CANT control it or pull out before you get the grip cos the grip has already got you. Let it have you or fight it.





...I let it have me - hence why I fucked up and am only just getting to find out who I am now instead of in early twenties like normal people. just dont fuck up. dont keep calling that guy. dont keep on taking them because there is only unhappy anxieties to follow from addiction. take responsibility for what you are doing to yourself here and ... I just cant watch it - I guess I am shouting at myself I am sorry - but ....just dont make me come over there!! haha

lovelove

 

[dilated_pupils]

Well other then feeling this constant anxiety, a little shakey, eating messed up, and feeling restless even after a good sleep, everything is okay I guess. I'm on day two now so whatever I guess I'll be okay as long as it's over soon.

 

[B9]

Indeed, youi're closer now tyan you ever have been.







zophen

 

[Pomplemous]

Well other then feeling this constant anxiety, a little shakey, eating messed up, and feeling restless even after a good sleep, everything is okay I guess. I'm on day two now so whatever I guess I'll be okay as long as it's over soon.

day two was often the worst day because day one I had the utter exhaustion fatugue to poartly mong me out - day two was worse because I was a bit ore awake but no less shaky or tired and the twitches in the legs drove me nuts
#by day three there was a ray of sunshine and still no sleep, but just... it just doesnt hurt quite as much - still fidgety inside my own skin, but not too bad,

day 4 was often the release from the pain day but as I used more gear over time got a bigger habit, day 4 used to be a shocker because I USED to be freee by then but later inh the addiction I'd have a relapse of pain and misery. it hurt.

day 5 - yey!" I could stand up straight, I could even smile a smile of my own. I got maybe 4 hours sleep instead of 1/2 an hour. haha


day 6,7,8 just catching up on sleep....


not long now. you'll be what, day 3 now. you'll feel less oppresively rubbish - still twitchy and sore back though. but get through this day and you're more than half way there. I'll wager you'll sleep an extra hour tonight. just one extra hour though.

s'gonna be ok kitten!

 

[Pomplemous]

haha oh yeah and what shock did i get as I progressed through my addiction - I used to be able to get blotto drunk on withdraws and it used to numb the pain - I started to rely on that til I got too far into the habit that drink didnt even touch the sides of the pain. big shock that was.

 

[dilated_pupils]

Well honestly the only things I can't stand are how hard it is to fall asleep, and the anxiety. But I'm halfway there or so I would assume, so we'll see what happens.

 

[Pomplemous]

nae lang noo. (jock speak)

 

[dilated_pupils]

I ended up giving in, because I'm fucking weak, been just getting depressed too, and with the anxiety and restlessness and all, it was just getting me down way too much. It's rediculous how cheap I get this shit for, right now I'm getting dilaudids, and then morphine will be back in 2 days... I can't believe I'm saying all this shit, but at the same time, I feel like 100x better, people even are telling me stuff like "You sound so much better now." and shit before I even mention anything about drugs etc. I think im just going to taper off really slow, even though I could have just quit cold turkey, well fuck it I can't keep talking about it, I know I fucked up. I hate letting myself down.

 

[Ungoliath]

Dude, i feel for you, the VERY first time I quit D's (dilauds), It felt like my soul was ripped out, to this day I still feel it....Its hard, and I just switched to stronger opiates...Dude, If your going to go through with it, I'll wish you all the bests of luck, you'll be a better man than I.

 

[dilated_pupils]

Ugh I decided to go all out today since I haven't had anything for 2 1/2 days, and I ended up taking a total of 16mg of hydromorphone, and I was fine until my last dose of another 4mg (took 8 at first, a few hours later another 4mg, then a last dose of 4mg about 45 mins later). Now I've been puking up my dinner, and I'm quite thirsty but I can't keep any liquids down. Oh well, it's the life of doing opiates for me. I am still planning on tapering my dosages down though, and I'm lucky enough to get my opiates cheap so I wont be killing my wallet.

 

[ellua]

eek :-/ well if the tapering is gonna work better for ya, good luck. i found out my main oxy contact is gonna be dry for quite a while... so i caved & got their alternative, methadone, even though it has never done anything to me. so that's reason enough for me not to do it again anyway. now im jus taking trams here & there when i fiend... it's definitely not the same but enough for me to forget that im fiending for a while.

 

[mepat1111]

Good luck with tapering man, hopefully it's easier for you than giving up was. Reading this thread is keeping me in check with my own opiate use, making sure I don't take my oxy too often, cause the last thing I want is an oxy addiction...

 

[ellua]

Good luck with tapering man, hopefully it's easier for you than giving up was. Reading this thread is keeping me in check with my own opiate use, making sure I don't take my oxy too often, cause the last thing I want is an oxy addiction...

ditto. well, the last thing i want is a heroin addiction, and i have a feeling that's where it'd take me. so the second to last thing i want is a hardcore, can't-turn-back oxy addiction. it's one lesson i hope to learn from my friends on, instead of having to experience it first hand.

 

[dilated_pupils]

Good luck with tapering man, hopefully it's easier for you than giving up was. Reading this thread is keeping me in check with my own opiate use, making sure I don't take my oxy too often, cause the last thing I want is an oxy addiction...

Thanks, I'm just trying to keep my mind off of it, and taking lower doses as of now, so hopefully I end up down the right path. I'm not really planning on keeping this habbit, although it costs me barley anything, I just don't like having to take an opiate everyday to keep myself at bay.

 

[mepat1111]

Yeah I had taken oxy 5 days in a row until yesterday when I read this thread, haven't had any today and I'm ok, I'm gonna wait another day or 2 before dosing again I think, and try keep to it every 2nd day in future, occasionally missing a dose.

 

[Depone]

A Story and Something for the people who have just started using.

Last Saterday i got cut off my methadone for trying to sneak it out because i was weak and needed the feel of the steel as it had been almost a month since my last shot ( homebake, smack, ms..blah blah blah.

I went Cold turkey....nothing.....only 25 bux worth of pot and some clonodine.

I started a new job on monday selling credit cards in an airport and made $100 on my first day and today almost got $200.

I dont know how the fuck i done it...but its true...i done it...you can do it to current users.

To the Noobs.........JUST STAY AWAY FROM THE DRAGON......HIS CLAWS ARE TIGHT.

Goodnight to you all...from W.A...over and out....tommorow is another day.

 

[hedfeelslikeafrisb]

I used to have a oxy addiction, had a very good hook up $5.00 a pill for 20's!! I couldn't function without them. I quit when I had taken 3 of them and got very very sick and threw up. That stopped that addiction very quick when I couldn't breath and was laying in the bed thinking I may die.. I don't know how some of you guys can take 40+ mg and be ok..... F that

 

[Pomplemous]

Thanks, I'm just trying to keep my mind off of it, and taking lower doses as of now, so hopefully I end up down the right path. I'm not really planning on keeping this habbit, although it costs me barley anything, I just don't like having to take an opiate everyday to keep myself at bay.

* a very warm smile*

better believe it. you dont need that stuff to get you through the days - you'll soon find you have a fabulous personality without that stuff and you'll find other ways of coping that you wonder why you never thought of before taking ope's.

lalala