Yeah, I checked, my rig is completely good to go again. But alas, I did the rest. I do have two roxy's. And yeah, my friend will do a cotton shot from time to time. Only thing is with me, I'm trying to keep it to recreational use only. Not an everyday thing like pot has been for me. I noticed myself already wanting another shot this morning. But I'm going to use these roxy's to get over that. I'm south of Atlanta at this time and no dope for about 40 miles. &yeah, I've heard that, and the last time I banged a piece of a roxy I passed the fuck out, hard.
Well, I'm glad I was able to be of service, safely. You can also congratulate yourself for being very careful and doing everything I outlined very well. So...you've now had two experiences with shooting dope. The one I did my best to assist you with got you off with a rush that, in your own words, "was something else." You nailed that one perfectly. But yeah, you should have finished the last of it. It would have been safe and grand. But no matter.
The other instance with the needle resulted in your not going about it carefully or correctly, actually needing someone else to do it for you. You didn't loosen the tie, you got pale and dizzy, you fell down and banged your head against a bathtub. Not much of an enjoyable experience, that one.
There's a big difference between being adequately prepared, informed, ready and, conversely, taking a risk and going about the act blindly, needing someone else to control what you learned how to do very well and very quickly after learning how to do so safely and effectively. But I''m not writing this post to critically compare the failure vs. the success of your IV use.
I'm writing to tell you that your thoughts about not continuing to do this are the correct ones. Don't start down the needle road man. I smoked heroin for three years and was able to keep a job, earn money, make my girl happy, etc. As soon as I decided to learn how to use and commit to doing my dope with the needle however, everything changed. In short, it pretty much ruined my life for a good ten years. So many losses (love, money, job and school opportunities...). So many scars (mental, emotional, physical). It's almost as if every wound and tragedy that occurred over those ten years was a direct result of my decision to start shooting dope.
At first it's cool, it's fun, easy and enabling once you get good at it. It's almost like an art, but it's a dark, sick art that starts out enjoyably and innocently and quickly turns into a full-time job of ensuring you're going to get what you need every 8 hours. And after a few weeks, the pleasure of the rush is gone. There is no more rush. There's only the relief of knowing that you've avoided the hellish pain of withdrawal by doing whatever you had to do to get your fix in time. Then, you have to do the same thing again. Ultimately you're fixing just to stay well, to avoid getting unspeakably, horribly sick at the horrific hands of heroin withdrawal. And the next day, you have to do the same thing you did today.
By that point there's no more pleasure, just desperate relief that you didn't have to kick. It becomes a life of nothing but "staying well", ensuring you get what you need to stay well at least every 8 hours. That's what my life became. So difficult, tiring, guilt-laden, anxious and desperate. Don't do that to yourself. Yes, you know how to do it now, and you probably will do it from time to time. Who knows? Maybe you'll get a full-fledged habit like I did. But I sure hope not. I don't wish what that drug (which is ironically both my love and my killer) did to me on anyone. Well, almost anyone. Some people are just fucking bastards and I don't care if they suffer. But most people I do like to look out for. I've never fixed somebody with a hit for their first time, because I don't want to be the one that robs them of who knows how much of their life's time.
It's no joke. Just think about this from time to time. It might (
might) just help a little bit. And, of course, a little bit is better than nothing at all. Just being honest with you bro, just telling you what happened to me because of the choices I made. Good luck. But hey, do post again about whether or not you found any more, did any more...about what happened. Because now I'm curious. Also, I don't know if I should have told you exactly how to correctly, even if safely, shoot dope. Whatever you decide, I wish you the best of luck (and I'll continue to help you if you need it, if you choose to use it again). Peace.