First LSD trip, HELP

[.:Holy::Toast:.]

Yes no secrets when you go behind those doors.
But again I stress you see a therapist not a psychiatrist.
Psychiatrists have the ability to prescribe medication and more often than not it is the first thing they attempt to do.

 

[livelight]

Thank you guys! And yes i'll be seeing a Therapist next month and yes, i want to heal with time, no medication what so ever. I can slowly feel the improvements, as i've been going for a jog everyday and taking my vitamins. I can sleep, eat, concentrate, be social and everything else. I'm really proud of myself for coming a long way even though its only been a month and a half. But thank you for all the advice, a reckless teenager can need a little help at times. If your anyone who reads this is going through the same situation i am in, you are not alone. Time heals everything!

 

[.:Holy::Toast:.]

Haha it's amazing how good it feels to begin to feel better eh?
Glad to hear you're feeling better, I wish you well

 

[livelight]

It feels fucking great, lol i'm like "Yeah, i don't need weed no more cause i'm high on that life, yeah i'm high on life" hahaha, but thank you very much. I'll keep you updated!

 

[Efoj]

Glad to know you don't intend to take any more lsd soon, but also glad to see you don't hate the substance and blame it as an evil thing!
Hopefully, after a few years and more life experience, you can have a second trip that will help you integrate all the deep and often terrible knowledge from your first time.
But don't hurry for now!

 

[livelight]

Yes of course, i don't blame the lsd, i just got carried away by my own thoughts after, which was a bad idea. I really get scared when people say "life is just an illusion" like how? How would i have created all this in my head? How could i imagined evil people? Thinking about that fucks me up. I hate to think that life is just made up by ones thought or whatever. Ugh

 

[pmoseman]

When people say "life is just an illusion" what they really mean to do is threaten you. Having your own thoughts is never a bad idea. Life just does not hold the greatest memories for us.

 

[Tranced]

Psychedelics are a fast-track route to the spiritual world, but it comes with a price. The price is the process of realising all of the horror of this world. The price is feeling like this:

I feel like there is no point to life. We all die at the end, i look at everthing around me and thinkbit's all unreal. That someday i'm just going to wake up from a really big dream. Before doing lsd, i was a very strong believer of god and no i feel like nothing exists. Pilosophy scares me, simply because no one knows the truth until we die. It saddens me everyday. I see no point. I have fallen in to deep depression. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel to young (15) ti realize all these things. I am very afraid and feel like there is no way out.

But there is a way out and one way only; and that way if forwards. And it will be hard, but nowhere near as hard as your mind makes out. And though you pay a price, there is a reward. And the reward is this:

I saw a light to a whole new world and accepted it as my new knowledge. I was dancing to Pink Floyd while thinking I was a happy turtle in the sea. I could feel this inner happiness in myself and the world. I was so happy during my trip that I kept repeating " OMG I LOVE LSD, I LOVE LSD, I WANT TO TRIP ALL OVER AGAIN" I could feel the good vibes and accept anything coming my way. I saw the world and the universe as one as we are all created equal. I did not want my trip to end as I was still dancing to some good music and enjoying every bit of life. At that moment I thought life was such an amazing/ precious thing and that people out there shouldn't feel any less. "LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL" I told myself. When my trip started to end, I became very sad because I no longer felt happy.

You have already experienced your reward once, and you will feel it again, eventually.

The messages you receive from psychedelics are metaphorical and symbolic.

You experienced a very powerful first trip, and as such you're going through a very powerful process of understanding. The way you feel now is a mirror of that experience, so that you can overcome it. It's a polarity. Negative & Positive, Yin & Yang.

As you begin to overcome it you will recognise that life is beautiful, and that there is an inner happiness inside yourself. You've felt it before, you know it's there.

You will see the beauty in the world (with the perfection in clarity of HD vision... what a gift!) and you will be happy.

You said that you feel like some day you are just going to wake up from a really big dream?

You just did!

 

[Tranced]

What i meant is that i feel like i'm to young to be taking all these realizations in all at once. I feel like i will never find my light at the end of the tunnel, i should have never done acid.

Don't worry, I can confirm that it scares the shit out of 27 year old men too. When it comes to something like this, age-gaps tend to become rather irrelevant.

Other people have it worse than i do and i need to accept it. I just want to know if this is reality, and not just a big dream. You seem like a wonder person, i wish i knew you in person. Thanks for guiding me through these hard times. A friend who understands is all i need right now.

Yes this is definitely reality. The dream was culture, feel for those still trapped inside!

Hmh, what do you guys think about derealization? I truely believe that is exactly what i have. Any experinces?

I thought I had this, but now I don't. You only had one trip, I'm certain it will begin to pass soon. Edit: I see it already has. Glad to hear it.

 

[pmoseman]

The human is inside a machine. The machinery can decide on meanings for what can intially be described only as random events if given to us directly by the brain. The flexibility of our perception begins to take a sort of other-worldly oddness when the old brain tries its hand at explaining hallucinations. It just soaks up whatever reality throws at it and sees if it can match it with something it already knows. This leads to puns, allegories, and other clever associations. But it runs into an accounting problem because the big bean cannot explain the experience of non-existent things for us. And if experience is not explained by existence, well then how do we even know that we ourselves exist? An explanation is required and that explanation falls on us. And it is dangerous to carelessly feed the old noggin some bullshit. But that machine does most of our thinking. So what you need is to piece together that you took a drug with only slivers of information. That the drug explains the experience. That it explains the emotions you are feeling. The negative feelings as well as the positive ones. Being unable to explain your emotions puts us on the edge of something. It means you are losing it. We then halt our thoughts.

The dream was culture, feel for those still trapped inside!

Placing significance on a set of equally baseless beliefs is just as defeating as the business of buying into your parent culture. We are all just human after all, and breeding in a culture of escapists.