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First LSD trip, HELP

Travel is very good too, and by travel I mean go explore and see different places and absorb your culture, don't just go to a resort in mexico and get drunk for 5 days
 
I feel like there is no point to life. We all die at the end, i look at everthing around me and thinkbit's all unreal. That someday i'm just going to wake up from a really big dream.Before doing lsd, i was a very strong believer of god and no i feel like nothing exists. Pilosophy scares me, simply because no one knows the truth until we die. It saddens me everyday. I see no point. I have fallen in to deep depression. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel to young (15) ti realize all these things. I am very afraid and feel like there is no way out.
 
Well of course we all die in the end, it's a fact that one must accept, however that should be all the more reason to make your years happy ones.
It should be the incentive to live your life to the fullest, and not worry about things you can't control.
And the scenario of death can be unsettling even to the strongest people, however that is no reason to live your life in fear.
If these problems don't seem like they're passing try to see a therapist, you don't need to tell you parents about the LSD incident, just say you're extremely depressed.
If your parents or therapist try to send you to a psychiatrist don't do it, you're 15 and they will only try to medicate you with drugs.
Again, you're 15, you're hormonal, depressed stages can be very common in teenagers but it passes when as they progress into adulthood.
I had a horrifically depressing summer once too when I was 15, but it got better. Never forget that things WILL get better, but not without effort on your part.
 
What i meant is that i feel like i'm to young to be taking all these realizations in all at once. I feel like i will never find my light at the end of the tunnel, i should have never done acid.
 
I tell myself that everday,then look at everthing around me and just want to die. I never had sucidal thoughts but now i do. When i was on lsd i remember saying" l don't understand why people hate life, life is beautiful" now look at me. Will taking anti-depressants for awhile make it worse? i don't want to do something stupid for something that HOPEFULLY is temporary.
 
Well the benefit to risk ratio for antidepressants for someone your age is very low, they tend to increase suicidal thoughts in adolescents and it just really isn't a good solution.
With young children it's nearly impossible to diagnose mental disorders like bipolar and depression, most smart psychiatrists say not until you're 20-21.
It has to be more than simply telling yourself, you have to make small efforts everyday.
It may seem for a long time like you're making no progress, or even receding back and this can be incredibly frustrating, but it's perfectly normal.
A therapist to have someone unbiased to talk to is a great idea.
They don't tend to give you answers, they can't give you answers, they just ask you questions that help you find answers yourself
 
This is real life right? Every one wonders the same thing i do right? And yes i'll be seeing a therapist starting next month, and well i'll try and stay away from medicine as much as possible. I always tell myself that there are kids my age dying from cancer and all sorts of illnesses so there is no way that sucide can be an answer. Other people have it worse than i do and i need to accept it. I just want to know if this is reality, and not just a big dream. You seem like a wonder person, i wish i knew you in person. Thanks for guiding me through these hard times. A friend who understands is all i need right now.
 
Just another voice on your side

Hi Livelight,
As others have mentioned, this sounds like a kind of existential crisis.
I'd say the LSD did exactly to you what it does - it opened you up to new ways of looking at things. It was a beautiful and wonderful experience, but it's left you in a situation where you're not sure if you can handle what is now going on in your mind.
At your age, that's hard. If you were older, I'd probably advise having another LSD trip, with a suitable 'guide' there to talk you through it. At your age however, I honestly don't think you've got the life experience necessary to do this without it being even harder for you. I don't mean any disrespect when I say that - you do seem quite mature for your age - but looking back on myself and the people I knew at that age, the life-experience just isn't there.
I think the counsellor/therapist will be good for you. I definitely second to stay away from the medicine though - antidepressants are all too often prescribed when they're not needed and they come with their own set of problems as .:Holy::Toast:. has said.
Try to find a good friend (maybe your sister?) and talk honestly and open about your state of mind since the experience. Talk about these same things with the therapist as well of course; but remember that your friend will always be there for you - the therapist won't.
There's a good chance that you can turn this around and your new state of mind will make you a better and more whole person as you grow in to adulthood. You've experienced something very powerful and that does change a person. Being changed isn't always bad - and you can even make it really good with the help of others.
I wish you all the luck in the world.
 
Dale_Bewan said:
Hi Livelight,
As others have mentioned, this sounds like a kind of existential crisis.
I'd say the LSD did exactly to you what it does - it opened you up to new ways of looking at things. It was a beautiful and wonderful experience, but it's left you in a situation where you're not sure if you can handle what is now going on in your mind.
At your age, that's hard. If you were older, I'd probably advise having another LSD trip, with a suitable 'guide' there to talk you through it. At your age however, I honestly don't think you've got the life experience necessary to do this without it being even harder for you. I don't mean any disrespect when I say that - you do seem quite mature for your age - but looking back on myself and the people I knew at that age, the life-experience just isn't there.
I think the counsellor/therapist will be good for you. I definitely second to stay away from the medicine though - antidepressants are all too often prescribed when they're not needed and they come with their own set of problems as .:Holy::Toast:. has said.
Try to find a good friend (maybe your sister?) and talk honestly and open about your state of mind since the experience. Talk about these same things with the therapist as well of course; but remember that your friend will always be there for you - the therapist won't.
There's a good chance that you can turn this around and your new state of mind will make you a better and more whole person as you grow in to adulthood. You've experienced something very powerful and that does change a person. Being changed isn't always bad - and you can even make it really good with the help of others.
I wish you all the luck in the world.
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You are saying that a person is going to get better if they take LSD again.
That seems to be wreckless advice without evidence to support it.
 
pmoseman said:
You are saying that a person is going to get better if they take LSD again.
That seems to be wreckless advice without evidence to support it.
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Actually, I said "If you were older, I'd probably advise having another LSD trip, with a suitable 'guide' there to talk you through it.".
And yes, I really would advocate this approach. The problem that Livelight is talking about seems to have been brought on by being unprepared for the experience - despite that the experience was a good one, she has since had difficulty adjusting to the many new thoughts in her head.
For her specifically, I would not (and did not) advise another trip. But for someone else, I may well do so if they're able to get the right kind of help along with it. This (existential crisis) is in fact the exact kind of problem that Psychedelic Therapy is extremely effective at according to the research that has been done in to it.
 
Ya ya ya ya.
What you are saying is yes, to my question.
I am not misunderstanding you and I have a grasp on the situation.
You have no tangible evidence that what you are prescribing her would work any differently for an adult, or even work at all.
 
please don't fight. :( Any advice is welcomed, at the end i will always do what is right for me and what makes me happy. I respect everyone's advice in which i believe everyone on here has had some experience. I'm 100% sure i will do lsd again but once i'm in my early 20's. For now, i'm going to stay away from drugs/alcohol/cannabis and live a healthy life. Thank you everyone :)
 
livelight said:
please don't fight. :( Any advice is welcomed, at the end i will always do what is right for me and what makes me happy. I respect everyone's advice in which i believe everyone on here has had some experience. I'm 100% sure i will do lsd again but once i'm in my early 20's. For now, i'm going to stay away from drugs/alcohol/cannabis and live a healthy life. Thank you everyone :)
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Personal statements are more convincing than the weight of all the evidence. You need to learn to separate the two. Enjoy yourself but do be suspicious (safe).
 
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Livelight...I'm wrestling with similar nagging questions about life, death, the universe, eternity, suicide, etc stemming from a horrific lsd experience. Thats all...no advice. Just letting you know you're not alone in this battle :)
 
EndProhibitionNow said:
Livelight...I'm wrestling with similar nagging questions about life, death, the universe, eternity, suicide, etc stemming from a horrific lsd experience. Thats all...no advice. Just letting you know you're not alone in this battle :)
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Wow. They deleted my thread where I asked the five questions livelight asked earlier.
What a brainless community. All because I asked if blankets were short of perfection.
We all think. I am fairly certain we can all answer those questions without vexing over perfection.
You can search for perfection but you will never find it.
Just grab a blanket and realize perfection can be defined as accepting something for what it truly is.
Such as life.
 
pmoseman said:
You have no tangible evidence that what you are prescribing her would work any differently for an adult, or even work at all.
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Actually there really is significant evidence that psychedelics can be very helpful in certain therapeutic situations. Given that bluelight is home to the MAPS forums, I would have hoped that most bluelighters would be aware of this.
But as livelight said, let's not fight. I can agree that we have a difference of opinion and I hope that anyone reading will simply take information presented by both sides in.
livelight said:
I'm 100% sure i will do lsd again but once i'm in my early 20's. For now, i'm going to stay away from drugs/alcohol/cannabis and live a healthy life. Thank you everyone :)
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That sounds like a good choice livelight - live healthy and happy and then when (and if) you're ready in 5 to 10 years time, try it again.
 
Hmh, what do you guys think about derealization? I truely believe that is exactly what i have. Any experinces?
 
It is a possibility, and it certainly is enticing to slap a label on yourself and your problems; to put yourself in a box to better explain what is happening to you. But what then? Derealization/depersonalization disorder isn't treated with medication, and you already plan on going to therapy.

I know this isn't easy for you -- psychedelics can be difficult enough for adults, let alone a 15-year-old. But I think more than anything, what you need is time and someone to listen to what you have to say. And I hope you are able to find a really good therapist, one that won't jump to prescribe you something immediately. Don't be afraid to try a few different counselors out before settling on one.
 
This^
It doesn't help to search and try to find something which matches your symptoms, it's a surefire way to get it set in your head that you're sicker than you actually are and that you have little hope of getting better.
Just reading depersonalization horror stories is useless, what you do need is a talk with a therapist
 
I think it is very good you asked for some advice here. Speaking to a clinical health psychologist for children is the best advice I can give you. I think it is very important to say him/her you took a psychedelic.
 
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