First AA meeting, sort of

I am attending my first AA meeting tonight!!!! This isn't technically my first meeting. I've been 30,40,50? times before, but those were ALL court ordered. I was still a teenager back then, and now I am 25 years old.

Planning to goto one of these things voluntarily feels alot different. I'm actually kind if nervous whereas back then I was only interested in getting it over with and doing my best to look "hard" and "jaded" while I sat there. (to impress the real hardcore older addicts, of course)

I hope that whatever/whoever I see there tonight doesn't make me more depressed than what I am right now.


clean from alcohol/weed for: 24 hours
clean from everything else for: 5 days

 

well that didn't happen

Got as close as the door and I talked myself out of it (the meeting was too small, older crowd doesn't suit me, it was AA and not NA)