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LifeQuitter

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Hey guys I report back in after quite some time. Ever sincr February/March my life has been absolute hell. For the first time in my life I did drugs, heavy drugs and became addicted to opiates and weed. The pressure to consume all day everyday devoured my whole life.

I had psych wards visits more than I‘d count in that time frame and 4 times a week I go to different therapists and counsellors.

The insane cravings for opiates are insane. So now after a lot of bureaucracy at the substitution clinic I finally switched to Methadone.
Today was the first day I pulled up at the pharmacy to get my first 20mg sirrzup. We had to start that low because of some strict laws. He plans to increase the dosage after a few days to see how much I need. The long term goal is to get my life back together so I can go to University again and study on! We will switch to L-Methadone once I am doing fine, and I don’t get QT prolongation etc.

For now it’s been about 2h after drinking my first shot and I feel fantastic. I am actually a bit turned even though it’s just a low dose. My suicidal thoughts are gone, I feel productive, pretty euphoric (if anyone says Methadone can’t give euphoria; that’s most definitely wrong lol), and overall pretty damn decent.
Also my cravings are totally gone. I have no interested in consuming anything along with it now. Not even Weed.

I am glad I live just 5 min away from the pharmacy. This feels like the right way. Plus I can rest assured I don’t ingest laced sht as I probably was when I was shopping in the darknet etc.

I hope this will keep working now. This might be the solution to safe my life.

E:/ Also one thing I am very glad about. All my cravings even for weed and even for my nicotine vape (was a chainsmoker) is completely gone it‘s like magic. This could be placebo/nocebo but whatever it is I sure hope this spell stays like that.
 
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Hey guys I report back in after quite some time. Ever sincr February/March my life has been absolute hell. For the first time in my life I did drugs, heavy drugs and became addicted to opiates and weed. The pressure to consume all day everyday devoured my whole life.

I had psych wards visits more than I‘d count in that time frame and 4 times a week I go to different therapists and counsellors.

The insane cravings for opiates are insane. So now after a lot of bureaucracy at the substitution clinic I finally switched to Methadone.
Today was the first day I pulled up at the pharmacy to get my first 20mg sirrzup. We had to start that low because of some strict laws. He plans to increase the dosage after a few days to see how much I need. The long term goal is to get my life back together so I can go to University again and study on! We will switch to L-Methadone once I am doing fine, and I don’t get QT prolongation etc.

For now it’s been about 2h after drinking my first shot and I feel fantastic. I am actually a bit turned even though it’s just a low dose. My suicidal thoughts are gone, I feel productive, pretty euphoric (if anyone says Methadone can’t give euphoria; that’s most definitely wrong lol), and overall pretty damn decent.
Also my cravings are totally gone. I have no interested in consuming anything along with it now. Not even Weed.

I am glad I live just 5 min away from the pharmacy. This feels like the right way. Plus I can rest assured I don’t ingest laced sht as I probably was when I was shopping in the darknet etc.

I hope this will keep working now. This might be the solution to safe my life.

E:/ Also one thing I am very glad about. All my cravings even for weed and even for my nicotine vape (was a chainsmoker) is completely gone it‘s like magic. This could be placebo/nocebo but whatever it is I sure hope this spell stays like that.
Sounds like you are doing well! Good on you, keep at it :)
 
Hey guys I report back in after quite some time. Ever sincr February/March my life has been absolute hell. For the first time in my life I did drugs, heavy drugs and became addicted to opiates and weed. The pressure to consume all day everyday devoured my whole life.

I had psych wards visits more than I‘d count in that time frame and 4 times a week I go to different therapists and counsellors.

The insane cravings for opiates are insane. So now after a lot of bureaucracy at the substitution clinic I finally switched to Methadone.
Today was the first day I pulled up at the pharmacy to get my first 20mg sirrzup. We had to start that low because of some strict laws. He plans to increase the dosage after a few days to see how much I need. The long term goal is to get my life back together so I can go to University again and study on! We will switch to L-Methadone once I am doing fine, and I don’t get QT prolongation etc.

For now it’s been about 2h after drinking my first shot and I feel fantastic. I am actually a bit turned even though it’s just a low dose. My suicidal thoughts are gone, I feel productive, pretty euphoric (if anyone says Methadone can’t give euphoria; that’s most definitely wrong lol), and overall pretty damn decent.
Also my cravings are totally gone. I have no interested in consuming anything along with it now. Not even Weed.

I am glad I live just 5 min away from the pharmacy. This feels like the right way. Plus I can rest assured I don’t ingest laced sht as I probably was when I was shopping in the darknet etc.

I hope this will keep working now. This might be the solution to safe my life.

E:/ Also one thing I am very glad about. All my cravings even for weed and even for my nicotine vape (was a chainsmoker) is completely gone it‘s like magic. This could be placebo/nocebo but whatever it is I sure hope this spell stays like that.
Good luck with getting clean. I hope you can stay away from drugs including weed and nicotine. If you can get off them also, then that's great. If you get cravings try as hard as you can to resist temptations. Good luck.😀
 
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