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Bluelighter
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- Jul 2, 2005
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Hey guys,
I wanted to say thank you for giving me a mental feeding ground for spiritual and psychedelic ideas
a good portion of my growing up years.
Bluelight rocks.
Anyway, I got involved with smoking OC 30's... you know, M's, A's, and V's. The good stuff. I was off
and on for months, sporadically using, before I started smoking them every day for 5 months.
At my worst point, I was smoking 4-5 30's a day.
Finally got caught, like I knew I would..... like I knew HAD TO HAPPEN, before I would find the power
to quite.
I knew I couldn't do it alone.
Oxycodone is just too strong of an addiction for a person to destroy by themselves. It's no longer about
you wanting to get high, it's more about, "hey, this is WHO I AM now, should i stop smoking today? wait,
it sounds a LOT more fun to smoke another pill than to not feel good today!"
and thus the habit forms....
Tolerance wasn't even a problem at first. I would snort half a 30 and be fucking WRECKED. Straight up
wrecked. Now I could snort a full 30 and not even feel more than "wobbly".
The point of my thread is this. If I can just stop ONE PERSON from trying Oxycodone, I used the last
ten minutes of my time effectively.
All I want is you - YOU, the READER.... if you're considering using Oxycodone, or have started to
develop a "pattern of use" (READER, I'm talking about YOU, mothafucka!!!)....
I've got this to tell you....
A few months from now, do you want to decide between:
1) Smoking pills off of tin foil today and continuing your trend of long term damage
2) Withdrawaling so hard your body basically FORCES you to go buy more pills
Think about it for a second. Re-read #1 and #2. A few months from now, you might
wake up in the morning and say, hey, should I get high today, or should I feel
fucking awful?
And of course, you will AVOID PAIN, and go TOWARDS PLEASURE (short term, at least,
as that's how we're wired)....
and bam....
before you know it you're saying it's "the last day"....
and before you know it you're LAUGHING at yourself for saying something silly like
that every day for the last 2 weeks... but QUESTIONING what you are REALLY
accomplishing with your life?
Can someone sustain a balanced, healthy lifestyle while habitually AB-using painkillers?
I don't think so. I do not think so at all.
The world is beautiful. It's a magical place.
You get what you put in.
If you put in OXY, out comes SHIT.
Remember that. OXY IN, BULLSHIT OUT. Life problems, financial problems, relationship
issues, personal development issues.... I can go on and on with categories of problems,
but you wouldn't blink an eye until I told you some actual personal stories.
Imagine waking up and realizing you unintentionally got your teenage girlfriend ADDICTED
to painkillers........... and that she slowly started to PHYSICALLY NEED her drugs MORE
than she needs YOU.
For real.
Think about it.
Imagine if you wake up and your wife is crying because she's withdrawaling. You going to
head over to detox and deal with the paperwork, or you gonna snag some more pills?
You're gonna snag some more pills. Until it's too big of a problem for 1 person to handle.
Oxycodone is fuckin' evil, reader. Listen to someone who lost one of their best
relationships... several of their life long friends due to STUPID ASS FIGHTS.... and
basically "reversed" a full YEAR of their teenage life because of wasting it on:
1) the time to make the money to pay for the drugs
2) the time to pick up
3) the time to do them
4) the time to be high
5) etc.
And trust me, it adds up. It got to the point where all I would do is smoke pill through
the day... waiting to get that "energy" that I "knew would come... TOMORROW!".
Anyway. I've been rambling. I originally said I was writing this because if only one
person didn't try it because of this, I succeeded.
Yet, It's 4:38am. I've never really had insomnia before. After I've gotten clean, I've
noticed small issues like this pop up. So, hey.... Healthy is good. Don't put evil
in and expect good out.
If you're going to put evil (oxycodone) in your body, realize you are headed for a black hole. Don't do it.
I wanted to say thank you for giving me a mental feeding ground for spiritual and psychedelic ideas
a good portion of my growing up years.
Bluelight rocks.
Anyway, I got involved with smoking OC 30's... you know, M's, A's, and V's. The good stuff. I was off
and on for months, sporadically using, before I started smoking them every day for 5 months.
At my worst point, I was smoking 4-5 30's a day.
Finally got caught, like I knew I would..... like I knew HAD TO HAPPEN, before I would find the power
to quite.
I knew I couldn't do it alone.
Oxycodone is just too strong of an addiction for a person to destroy by themselves. It's no longer about
you wanting to get high, it's more about, "hey, this is WHO I AM now, should i stop smoking today? wait,
it sounds a LOT more fun to smoke another pill than to not feel good today!"
and thus the habit forms....
Tolerance wasn't even a problem at first. I would snort half a 30 and be fucking WRECKED. Straight up
wrecked. Now I could snort a full 30 and not even feel more than "wobbly".
The point of my thread is this. If I can just stop ONE PERSON from trying Oxycodone, I used the last
ten minutes of my time effectively.
All I want is you - YOU, the READER.... if you're considering using Oxycodone, or have started to
develop a "pattern of use" (READER, I'm talking about YOU, mothafucka!!!)....
I've got this to tell you....
A few months from now, do you want to decide between:
1) Smoking pills off of tin foil today and continuing your trend of long term damage
2) Withdrawaling so hard your body basically FORCES you to go buy more pills
Think about it for a second. Re-read #1 and #2. A few months from now, you might
wake up in the morning and say, hey, should I get high today, or should I feel
fucking awful?
And of course, you will AVOID PAIN, and go TOWARDS PLEASURE (short term, at least,
as that's how we're wired)....
and bam....
before you know it you're saying it's "the last day"....
and before you know it you're LAUGHING at yourself for saying something silly like
that every day for the last 2 weeks... but QUESTIONING what you are REALLY
accomplishing with your life?
Can someone sustain a balanced, healthy lifestyle while habitually AB-using painkillers?
I don't think so. I do not think so at all.
The world is beautiful. It's a magical place.
You get what you put in.
If you put in OXY, out comes SHIT.
Remember that. OXY IN, BULLSHIT OUT. Life problems, financial problems, relationship
issues, personal development issues.... I can go on and on with categories of problems,
but you wouldn't blink an eye until I told you some actual personal stories.
Imagine waking up and realizing you unintentionally got your teenage girlfriend ADDICTED
to painkillers........... and that she slowly started to PHYSICALLY NEED her drugs MORE
than she needs YOU.
For real.
Think about it.
Imagine if you wake up and your wife is crying because she's withdrawaling. You going to
head over to detox and deal with the paperwork, or you gonna snag some more pills?
You're gonna snag some more pills. Until it's too big of a problem for 1 person to handle.
Oxycodone is fuckin' evil, reader. Listen to someone who lost one of their best
relationships... several of their life long friends due to STUPID ASS FIGHTS.... and
basically "reversed" a full YEAR of their teenage life because of wasting it on:
1) the time to make the money to pay for the drugs
2) the time to pick up
3) the time to do them
4) the time to be high
5) etc.
And trust me, it adds up. It got to the point where all I would do is smoke pill through
the day... waiting to get that "energy" that I "knew would come... TOMORROW!".
Anyway. I've been rambling. I originally said I was writing this because if only one
person didn't try it because of this, I succeeded.
Yet, It's 4:38am. I've never really had insomnia before. After I've gotten clean, I've
noticed small issues like this pop up. So, hey.... Healthy is good. Don't put evil
in and expect good out.
If you're going to put evil (oxycodone) in your body, realize you are headed for a black hole. Don't do it.
