finally admitting

[jason.quittin]

I spent this morning in tears apologizing for stealing 5mg percocets from a family member(who really needed them). I have been using whatever i can find for about four years, started on 10mg norcos from a friend, now i do whatever opiates i can whenever i can. Ive smoked heroin a couple times, and would do more if i had access, thank goodness i don't.
My biggest concern right now is the trust i have violated, will i ever be forgiven? Will i ever be seen as anything but a thieving addict?
Nice to finally be admitting this!

 

[jason.quittin]

Don't worry self, you can do this.

 

[L1GHTWorker]

You know in your heart what's right. You've begun to see the power of one's choices. Please choose to be good to yourself. Forgiveness is yours. God bless you, man!

 

[Papaverium]

Hey jason,
welcome to Bluelight.

It's good to be able to admit something even if it's not to someone directly.
I've been exactly where you are. If you need to talk, feel free to pm me, or maybe post in The Dark Side. There's a lot of people there going through what you are going through that can relate and talk things through.
Trust is forgiven in time, and actions do speak louder than words. Admitting is the best first step.

You can do this

 

[jason.quittin]

Thank you for your kind words. It is so huge to know people, even strangers, have been here and care. I can do this. I am so emotional and confused and self loathing right now, it's worse than physical withdrawal.

 

[Papaverium]

I can completely agree with you that the emotional aspect of opiate withdrawal is even worse than the physical symptoms.
It can be very trying. I'm still working on it myself, and it is really good to have others to talk to about it.
Bottling up emotions simply makes things worse.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Welcome to Bluelight!

 

[Runtoparadise]

Welcome. This is a great community to share your thoughts & feelings. I'm sorry you feel so low, feel free to pm me.

Rtp