jtbrick
Bluelighter
Throughout my history with heroin, I have noticed that as users, we tend to rationalize our behavior and always have something that we say we will NEVER do for drugs. We start out with the best of intentions and slowly find ourselves doing things we said we would never do.
When I first started in the mid 90s, I bought from a middleman and I said "I will never go to the ghetto to cop". Then I started driving a middleman to the hood and he would walk down to the spots to cop for me. I would say, well at least I'm not going to the spots.......and a short time later I was copping for myself all over Newark, walking into buildings and into project courtyards.....copping for the people who (like me just 6 months prior) were scared to go into the ghetto themselves.
Its a way I rationalized my behavior. Like I used to say, "I know I'm an addict but at least I don't steal from other people." Then a few months later, I found myself dipping into my mother's purse like a scumbag.
Have people been able to stick to any of their "I never's"?
Or does anyone have any good stories of things they said they would never do but inevitably wound up doing?
When I first started in the mid 90s, I bought from a middleman and I said "I will never go to the ghetto to cop". Then I started driving a middleman to the hood and he would walk down to the spots to cop for me. I would say, well at least I'm not going to the spots.......and a short time later I was copping for myself all over Newark, walking into buildings and into project courtyards.....copping for the people who (like me just 6 months prior) were scared to go into the ghetto themselves.
Its a way I rationalized my behavior. Like I used to say, "I know I'm an addict but at least I don't steal from other people." Then a few months later, I found myself dipping into my mother's purse like a scumbag.
Have people been able to stick to any of their "I never's"?
Or does anyone have any good stories of things they said they would never do but inevitably wound up doing?