Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
???? I'm confused which doesn't take much lol
I'm still sober. Right now I'm not in the best living environment. But I'm not going to use anything despite it not being enjoyable, and I will be moving within three weeks.
^I dont like the idea of telling myself I will never use again.. It tends to make my addiction flip the fuck out.. and I dont like counting days because I have always eventually used it as an excuse to use when I got enough. So now all I do is use the old I'm not going to use today. Thats all we ever need to do. So I like to congratulate myself and everyone else when another day or twenty four more hours has passed without using any of the drugs which crush me and kill my soul.
I'm still sober. Right now I'm not in the best living environment. But I'm not going to use anything despite it not being enjoyable, and I will be moving within three weeks.
another day everyone
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I'm so pissed at myself.... after finally getting to a point where i was starting to feel good again ( after 9 days only using minute amounts hydrocodone *15mg a day for 5 days * then 4 clean entirely ) I fucked up today and went back to heroin. I was finally starting to feel better and something possessed me when i got some money to cop a half gram. Sometimes I almost think the light at the end of the tunnel is an illusion.![]()
I gave in and got some hydrocodone and took it orally.
Meh.
I don't really feel that guilty, but I feel guilty about not feeling guilty.![]()
but I feel guilty about not feeling guilty.![]()