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FebNEWary

I've reached physical and social rock bottom several times, but I never reached a spiritual rock bottom until the last couple days. I know that I know now that I will never be able to fill whatever void I'm trying to fill with drugs and alcohol, and the peace that comes along with knowing that is great.
 
This month is so hard for me. I wish life & getting clean was fucking easy.
 
rx_prn said:
This month is so hard for me. I wish life & getting clean was fucking easy.
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life will never be easy. but it gets easier especially when you're clean. no chipping for me, as I've tried in the past. I had to give up everything. somedays are better and some are worse, but that's just life. I wish you the best my friend. I'm one of the youngest in my area with over a year clean. it can be done regardless of any adversities or differences you may see between yourself and others who are clean.
 
Psychlone Jack said:
I've reached physical and social rock bottom several times, but I never reached a spiritual rock bottom until the last couple days. I know that I know now that I will never be able to fill whatever void I'm trying to fill with drugs and alcohol, and the peace that comes along with knowing that is great.
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This is something that's fantastic to read. I'm glad that you've come to this conclusion even if it has taken a while. I think you're offering yourself to a beautiful new beginning now. It won't be easy, but it'll be worth it. <3
 
Day two with no smokeo.
Can't remember the last time I went 6 hours without weed.
I do remember having insane anxiety attacks when I last tried to stop.. eep. Hope this attempt is better.
 
tripnotyzm said:
Day two with no smokeo.
Can't remember the last time I went 6 hours without weed.
I do remember having insane anxiety attacks when I last tried to stop.. eep. Hope this attempt is better.
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Good luck trip!

I took a two week break when I first arrived in California, had to wait on my birth certificate to get mailed out here before I could get my ID and everything else, but it was so worth the wait.

How long are you aiming to take a break for?
 
Still trying to get my head around the system you guys have over there :-p

I'm not aiming for any specific goals..
Really, I just want to prove to myself that I can take a week or even a few days break.
But, I'm having an incredibly fucked day at work..
Fair chance ill break my streak this afternoon.. eh.
 
I really need to find a way to stay motivated and determined.
If I do things like work out or spend time doing arts, I always end up with an even greater urge to light up.
Waaaa.
 
tripnotyzm said:
I really need to find a way to stay motivated and determined.
If I do things like work out or spend time doing arts, I always end up with an even greater urge to light up.
Waaaa.
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I would assume this is due to associations and is to be expected.

Just keep up with the good work like working out or doing arts/music, as these are still worthwhile and enjoyable things. :)

Congrats on doing so well though trip! :)

I'm still adjusting to the dosage decrease, and hope to balance out in a few days.
 
I'm in! That is about it. Only thing I will allow myself to use is nicotine and prescribed meds of course.

Have my lovely niece's 1 year old birthday today! Cannot believe she is already one. Already had a small party for her, but now the extended family is coming up (considering that both sides of the family are Irish American's, you can imagine there are a lot coming :) )
 
Captain.Heroin said:
I would assume this is due to associations and is to be expected.

Just keep up with the good work like working out or doing arts/music, as these are still worthwhile and enjoyable things. :)

Congrats on doing so well though trip! :)

I'm still adjusting to the dosage decrease, and hope to balance out in a few days.
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Good luck and take your time. I am sure you know that it gets difficult when one drops below 2 mgs. I think my hardest drops was from 1 to .75. I jumped off at .50 because I was just sick of it. Wasn't easy but nowhere near as hard as full agonist opiates. The sleep and rls was my worst symptom. The MMJ should help that. I didn't have access to it and just ended up using Clonidine and trazadone.

I think I really only had to take one or two days off of work at the most during the final jump.
 
got a new haircut yesterday and I'm loving it. helps retain my boyish looks ;)
 
phactor said:
Good luck and take your time. I am sure you know that it gets difficult when one drops below 2 mgs. I think my hardest drops was from 1 to .75. I jumped off at .50 because I was just sick of it. Wasn't easy but nowhere near as hard as full agonist opiates. The sleep and rls was my worst symptom. The MMJ should help that. I didn't have access to it and just ended up using Clonidine and trazadone.

I think I really only had to take one or two days off of work at the most during the final jump.
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Thanks phactor! :) I will definitely take my time with it.

Serotonin101 said:
got a new haircut yesterday and I'm loving it. helps retain my boyish looks ;)
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Nice! You should post a picture.

I've been thinking about getting a hair cut (as opposed to just straight buzzing it all off), and am trying to think what I would want my hair to look like.
 
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