Fear

[yakksoho]

I caught an ant under my fingertip
And I held it there
To watch its antennae wave and pivot frantically
Just so it would know
What it was like to be held down, and not be able to move no matter how hard you tried
And then I pressed down on it slowly
First its rear, then its middle
And finally its head
Harder and harder
More and more
Until all I could see were two little front feet
And two weakly swiveling antennæ tips
Harder and harder
Weaker and weaker
And then I let him go
Just so he would know
What it was like to be held down, and to be let free
If that ant had been a human, he would have made a decision right then
Whether he loved me for giving me his life
Or whether he hated me for threatening it
I wish I could make such decisions about people
Because I wonder what I would choose in the end
Sometimes I wish somebody would hold me down and not let me move or breathe
And then let me go
Just so I could know
What it was like to fear death
And to see if I would love life more afterwards
29.3.01

 

[alykitty]

Woah!!!

 

[Sara Tonin]

Strong imagery...very good writing...amazing!

 

[FoX]

Wow...that was incredible. Gave me chills.

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[E-girl]

at first, i found this very disturbing. i didnt want to finish reading it. not that your words weren't beautifully written, but the whole animal cruelty-thing...
but i'm glad i finished it. thank you for giving me something to think about tonight.
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E-girl
IM: tiggersgurl2067
"It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance. It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes a chance. It's the one who won't be taken who cannot seem to give. And the soul afraid of dying, that never learns to live."

 

[yakksoho]

e-girl: it's interesting you should say that; that is exactly how I felt writing it (and exactly how I felt when it actually happened). The suffering of the ant is what made me want to turn the experience into a poem, and the way he was so small and helpless made my heart go out to him and care about him.
Little things like the near-death experiences of ants can teach so much.

 

[fizzygirl]

VERY nice....i loved this

It's so great to just randomly click on a piece where you don't know the author, and don't know what to expect and are greeted with something this thought-provoking