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Failed suicide, now I'm actually dying for real

yes, accepting what is happening is indeed important, accepting your life and the past though, this will create further acceptance, bring peace and contentment. with these 'things' in place you will have a new foundation of inner strength, appreciation, and tenacity. you will also gain a very powerful will that takes no further effort on your part to utilize, but can alter your being in every sense forever, providing you with the strength maybe to say in 14 years, that they had once said 6 months...

ive known people who have far surpassed their prognosis, and others who left before also.


<3<3<3
 
Mav,

Much of what I would say has already been said by others. I have followed your story with interest, though I didn't quite know what to say. The world needs more people in it like you.

It's said that only the good die young. You are a lesson to all of us in living each day to the fullest. I am grateful for your presence on Bluelight; I have dealt with death both with friends/family and professionally. However much time you have left, know that miracles do occur and that love and light will protect you whenever you cross over to that elusive other side.

I'm glad you were not "successful" in your suicide attempt, because even though you and I are complete strangers, you are someone I would truly value as a friend. I'm sure a lot of us who have read your story feel the same way. You have made a difference. It does not matter how much time you have left; it matters how you spend it.

I am sorry you are feeling poorly in what may or may not be your last days. I hope your suffering can somehow be alleviated, and I send you my kindest wishes and bright white light. I am not religious, but I will e-mail my family pastor to say a message at Sunday services tomorrow to that exact effect.

Much love, and keep that head up even if there's a tumor in it. <3
 
Thanks for the amazing post Mariposa!

Just a quick update I'm not feeling so great today but I'll post again in a couple days. Health wise I'm doing good, haven't had another seizure and generally I feel alright, headaches are on the up though which sucks and I've noticed a few other things which I should probably get checked. I've missed my last two doctors appointments so it's been a while since I've had a checkup but I'll be going this week to get that done..

Life wise, things are annoying.. J have to move from the sharehouse I'm in and I've only been here seven weeks. My housemates are insane, well, actually they weren't insane until lately. Things were awesome at the beginning but then they started fighting heaps, one night one of them screamed for me to help her, I thought she was getting beaten the way she screamed! I've been blamed for stealing milk (which is hilarious because I'm lactose intolerant) cigarettes (I don't smoke) and having a glass and a fork in my room. And I had two friends visit and stay the night, which I was laughed at for asking if it was ok, but suddenly it's the biggest issue ever. If I was being booted out for something that has merit, I wouldn't complain but I'm not.. So that sucks, I've spent all day today looking up/applying for places so hopefully I have some luck, I was just starting to feel settled here too. Bah! If things go to plan, I'm hoping to be moved this week and a new adventure shall begin!

I'll post again in a couple days when I can think straighter :(

Much love all..

Mav
 
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damn dude...
wtf, i gotta chuckle that you are lactose intolerant, and blamed for stealing the damn milk.

...sounds like it would of ended up that way at any-rate.


honestly, someone will notice your efforts man, adventures are too be had!

<3
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light love and life are out there for those who seek so sincerely^^^
stay in touch
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well chin up, Hon, feels to me like the Universe has a few good adventures left 4 u to explore
this stuff with ur housemates - u don't need it, do u? u need PEACE and not silly, material world hassles w paranoid ppl, no matter how good they mite be or have seemed at 1st

we r movin and we have no idea how the house will come to us even quite where it will be - just we r going, not even quite wen - and it's a trust and give it up to the universe to BRING it to you + be open, i will pray 4 a quick solution on the domicile front 4 u, Babe, BIG LOVE! X - u make sure you come give me a prod by the way wen u do pass over - not being morbid u no that world is more real than this for me - and i too, as sum1 else said cud do with ur GOOD + GENUINE FRIENDSHIP - i can no longer tolerate insincere ppl so i have had 2 clean away nearly every1 i have known so far so there is plenty of space 4 u, in a while - eh! & don't worry i don't scare easy if u 'pop' in & yell BOO anytime u like i will jus LAF
 
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I pm'd you Lefty. I don't even know what to do. I don't even believe it's real right now. Lefty call me or I'll call you tomorrow, I'm not upto it tonight <3
 
This is absolutely heartbreaking :(
I'm lost for words.
RIP Lindsay. You will be sorely missed. <3

footscrazy and leftwing, take care guys, I hope you're okay *big hugs* <3
 
footscrazy said:
I pm'd you Lefty. I don't even know what to do. I don't even believe it's real right now. Lefty call me or I'll call you tomorrow, I'm not upto it tonight <3
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thanks darl, i'll have to send you my home number unless i find my phone charger tomorrow (haven't had phone on for a week or so). i'll pm you back now<)

i struck for words myself.
 
wow :(

I Sincerely hope that her young soul is at peace now. <3
It wasn't an easy path for her.
 
I stumbled on this thread while looking for some help for a friend going through some heavy emotional issues and it made me cry...

Just popping my head in to send some love out to the friends and family <3

Ake ake kia kaha
For ever and ever be strong
 
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