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Failed suicide, now I'm actually dying for real

It takes alot to get me to cry but this thread really got to me.

I can only hope she has now found peace wherever she may be now. At least she is not suffering anymore and is free from suffering.

My utmost and most heartfelt condolences to those who knew her well.

Love from Scotland
xxx
 
My immense & unconditional Love to all those who miss & feel very lost & torn without Lindsay, as I know now her real name was. nice 2 now, somehow. I feel I found a friend in her through Bluelight - just on this thread when I needed one, funnily enough and that somehow she, in all her trauma & descent into her illness, was there for me, as I am sure she was for many others.
It's wonderful & obvious now that she had and still has many fans and TRUE FRIENDS which is a true measure of her worth as a person. I did pm her just the once a couple of weeks ago and got no reply & was sillyly worried I had been a bit too cheeky as I felt I could be very open with her and had offended her. no worries there i don't think, as i don't she eva wud have been offended, she understood all our intent towards her was good - if we felt awkward & dint no wot 2 say, so we blundered or avoided a bit. there ya go. i have felt she passed away around the time i pm'd her and kept checking on bluelight, and i do feel she is happier where she is, now. however, i am not saying anything over-spiritual here now as i don't feel this is appropriate as I was only lucky enuf to no Mav thru this thread, whereas I know her real, deep friends here are truly grieving and may feel left behind and not knowing how she coped etc. However, if anyone who feels they would like to discuss this side, or Needs to wants to pm me. please feel free. i wud b glad to help on this issue. X

Love to you all, Star X
 
Someone obviously wants you alive; dont waste your second chance. EDIT: fuck seems im late...
 
I just want to say that being put in a "high risk category" does NOT AT ALL MEAN that you will not get a transplant.

If (and only if) you clean up your act and stay sober they will give it to you; doctors will see the changes you've undergone and help you because they see you want to help yourself. Obviously the hardest part but if you are determined to live you should be willing to do anything, right?

Sources: my dad was an alcoholic for close to or over 30 years; got liver cancer and his liver shut down, but he got clean and the docs went out on a limb for him and gave him the new liver.

So don't say you'll never get it; you will, you just need to earn it.

Good luck man, getting clean aint easy (source for this? opiate addiction), but, if you are determined to live then it should be a walk in the park compared to everything else.

Edit:

Wow, i had only read the first page or so when i wrote this. Now I feel...bad. Sorry that you're gone. Not everyone gets an organ they need, sadly. More than 18 people die each day waiting...

Dunno if thats the reason they passed now. But if anything good can come of this, its that I hope this encourages more people to donate life. Its very important.

Sorry for everyones loss...
 
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:( This is hreatbreaking. RIP sweetheart ... may your beautiful soul live on.

Footscrazy and Psilo - Im thinking of you guys <3
 
Just got done reading most of this thread (particularly Maverick's replies) and it is incredibly moving. These types of threads are what make BL what it is, IMO (sniffing and blinking the tears out of my eyes). Onward...
 
does anyone have pictures of her or anything. she seemed like such an amazing bubbly vibrant character. i'd love to put a face to that personality. R.I.P. it is things like this that make me appreciate the fact i am actually alive. even when i feel like i don't want to be here anymore.
 
"she seemed like such an amazing bubbly vibrant character"

maybe try to just imagine^with a beautiful smile, and try to maybe see further and feel the same in yourself.




<3<3<3

ive never seen her, but i feel like i have...
:)
 
One of the most touching things I have read, not much causes me to well up but this has.

I got messed up on speed over the cause of a year once, the finale came when I decided to "down tools" on the building site I was working on and drive my van to the cliffs with the intention of driving it off. As I sat there staring over the ocean Bro Hymn By Pennywise came on my stereo. I listened to the words, cried like a baby, turned the van around and my life.

RIP Mav, hope you have found peace finally<3
 
Just read the entire post, one of the most moving things i have ever read, you will be in my heart forever mav, even though i never met you i feel like i know you somewhat and hope to meet you someday.

Acts 24:15 "And have hope toward God, which they themselves also allow, that there shall be a resurrection of the dead, both of the just and unjust."
 
This thread is one of the most amazing things I have ever read. Indescribably heartbreaking.. but the most awesome thing is how positive and bright and vivid mav3rick was, all the way through, and how brave she was in the face of the hardest thing anyone can ever face.

I think she is the most beautiful and inspirational person I have ever come across and I hope she found happiness.

<3
 
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