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Having the worst fucking withdrawls atm. My kidney and ovaries fkn hurt. I'm really sweaty and just can't get comfortable. Not even going to discuss the anxiety levels today - off the fucking chart. Had some St.Johns wort earlier but it's not doing shit.

Kept busy today though. Worked, gym, shopping, chatted with D. But now I'm in my room and my whole body aches. I keep wanting to take a xanax to at least stave off the pain but the I am only replacing one drug for another. No point.

I need to grow a set and just make it through tonight, the first night is always the hardest.

 

If it's opiate withdrawal benzos help in a way that's what I used for the first night you'll still be sick but it helps with the anxiety and cravings try to get some clonidine (it's a blood pressure med) u can't get addicted to it and it helps. Goodluck

 

Thanks Tacoma, it's actually alcohol and benzos I'm trying to kick. Appreciate the advice and well wishes