LordFran
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I first tried kratom in the green bali powder form ordered online for $13. I put 1.5g, or maybe 3g, of the powder in my mouth and washed it down with water. Then I drank a nice hot tea and read a book. I was trying to heal myself...I felt really bad during this period in April. I was having a catatonic depressive episode lasting a whole month. Kratom was an attempt at self medication. It felt good. I watched anime on the flatscreen, tried to smile.
Next time I put the powder in gel caps.
I dosed like 8 times like this I think, and then threw out the stuff. I liked too much for my own safety, evidently. I certainly could tell right away that it was addictive. I had once dosed twice in a day. I was using it to feel even a little bit good and be able to interact with family and not feel like death incarnate.
I then wanted one more shot at it and ordered capsules of the Red Bali variety and had like 2 or 3 sessions.
The highest dose I think Ive ever used was 5g of kratom or 3gs twice in a day (so, 6g). And overall, I probably dosed less than ten times.
In retrospect, that stuff really gets you faded and crunk. I've never tried opioids, but I imagine its like that. A little cloud to rest on.
I have no urge to use it again. I'm not going to buy it again. I barely remember what it did for me. It made me feel warm, a little tingly, maybe scratchy, brought out my ticks a little more, numbed me out, made the healing process a little smoother, made me feel Ok.
Just another waste of time. Maybe I'm ungrateful for what it did for me, but I really cant remember it having a positive effect on my life (unlike say, DMT.)
So, if you get out quick enough, you're probably good with this one. Its tempting the devil, but for me, the quick in and out has fortunately worked out. I have addiction so I was very cautious but wanted to experiment, afterall, for a poly-addict the best drug is always the new drug. But I threw it out enough times, said no to it enough, that I got it out of my thought and my system. This time I used the drug, it didnt use me.
Here's a warning; after quitting it, I had terrible nightmares (two of the worst ones Ive ever had.) I had shakes, leg moving, and runny nose. It lasted for 1-3 days say, the first day being the most noticeable, of course. So thats definitley something to look out for. That will want to make you stay away for sure.
Thanks for reading.
Next time I put the powder in gel caps.
I dosed like 8 times like this I think, and then threw out the stuff. I liked too much for my own safety, evidently. I certainly could tell right away that it was addictive. I had once dosed twice in a day. I was using it to feel even a little bit good and be able to interact with family and not feel like death incarnate.
I then wanted one more shot at it and ordered capsules of the Red Bali variety and had like 2 or 3 sessions.
The highest dose I think Ive ever used was 5g of kratom or 3gs twice in a day (so, 6g). And overall, I probably dosed less than ten times.
In retrospect, that stuff really gets you faded and crunk. I've never tried opioids, but I imagine its like that. A little cloud to rest on.
I have no urge to use it again. I'm not going to buy it again. I barely remember what it did for me. It made me feel warm, a little tingly, maybe scratchy, brought out my ticks a little more, numbed me out, made the healing process a little smoother, made me feel Ok.
Just another waste of time. Maybe I'm ungrateful for what it did for me, but I really cant remember it having a positive effect on my life (unlike say, DMT.)
So, if you get out quick enough, you're probably good with this one. Its tempting the devil, but for me, the quick in and out has fortunately worked out. I have addiction so I was very cautious but wanted to experiment, afterall, for a poly-addict the best drug is always the new drug. But I threw it out enough times, said no to it enough, that I got it out of my thought and my system. This time I used the drug, it didnt use me.
Here's a warning; after quitting it, I had terrible nightmares (two of the worst ones Ive ever had.) I had shakes, leg moving, and runny nose. It lasted for 1-3 days say, the first day being the most noticeable, of course. So thats definitley something to look out for. That will want to make you stay away for sure.
Thanks for reading.