existential angst

I have this feeling like I was put on this earth to do something big to fight for a cause to make a differance to help people. I know many people have such delusions of granduer but what seperates them from the people who do make a differance? For every Nat Turner there a million nameless dead revolutionarys who made fuck all of a differance. I see this country falling farther and farther towards facism and I feel compelled to make a stand draw that line in the sand I dont even necessarily mean violently but I also am beginning to understand that violence and power is all that many humans understand as Moa said power is derived from the barrel of a gun. I know there is something to be said about being a good person and helping those around you as best you can and just trying to weather the storm of things that seem to be out of your control but, at the same time I feel as if its a copout. It seems we are living in a transitional time and its very possible that what we choose to do today will have reprocussions on the very fate of humanity.

edit wanted to make clear that I am not advocating unprovoked violence.