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Everyone come together and pray for PhreeX

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Wow, this thread goes in all sorts of directions.

I have to commend what LoveInVein said:

"At any rate, I think anyone with an addictive personality that recreational abuses opiates knowing they can always get them is a fucking idiot. And you're moreso an idiot if you have a legitmate pain problem and start abusing the medication"

I am in more or less of the same boat and it fucking sucks to be
in perpetual (spell that correctly?)withdrawal, in my case. The
constipation, or the runs, insomnia, feeling like death, etc.
If more newbies would.... wait nevermind. I didn't listen.

This post turns out to be really fitting IMO given the nature of
the thread. Dave is one of the ones who made it back.

~C
 
Lay off IRIE, she has a right to post, and unlike some of the people who are attacking her, she is not being offensive. So chill on the antagonism people.
 
Gee y'know what would be really cool? if everybody came out now and gave their personal opinion on what they think Phreex should do now! yeah that's really cool, dontcha think?
 
Close friends and family (not family that you can't stand), but your intermediate family.. a lot of support and a trusting and most importantly a CAREING counselor...

and help and "REAL" support from all of us BL'rs.

Good luck PhreeX.
 
sticking up for myself. must be done.

/Debating on whether or not to post back. Just got my four pins
taken outa my wrist today and im inna IMMENSE amount of pain. Thinkin I will reply ne ways. WhoKnows I may even end up an addict due to the massive amounts of pain kill'rs I've been using post surgery *shrugs*

*curious/amanda* To clarify things about the pm. Yoo sent me a pm in regards to how I got ahold of Daves # in the nursing home right? I finally got the chance to pm yoo back to answer your question. Just in case yoo didnt get it I'll refresh your memory. I got the # to the nursing home through Daves Father. Evidently Daves dad had mentioned to Dave that I had been calling the house for info/updates and Dave told his dad to give the nursing home # to me. So, I didnt have to search for it *as yoo did* I was simply given the number. Also in my pm I had appologized about it taking so long to get back in touch. Lately all ive been doing is focusing on getting my wrist better.

Also about me making sucha big deal about posting personal things is because I'm able to put myself in Daves shoes. If I was the one who over dosed here #1. I'm sure noone here besides maybe HK5 would give a shit and #2. I sure as shit wouldnt want any personal info given out about me for all of bluelight to see. But again thats just me. I just feel that SOMETHINGS are better left unsaid is all. An example: I pm'd yoo something about Dave, somthing that yoo may or may not have even known. I pm'd yoo about it because I thought it was something that was worthy of keeping PRIVATE and not being posted onna public board such as this one. All that really matters is that i KNOW that your not posting outa spite, rather to inform us all about Dave. Look I dont want to be on shitty terms w/anyone here either. I hope this has cleared everything up. iunno'.

Next:

*ayrios* and *droop*. First, I suggest yoo dont hold your breath as far as my posting goes. I'll continue to post as I wish. I have just as much right to post here as yoo do *including amanda :)*.
Second, my posts are NOT aimless ramble. YES its true I have repeated myself inna couple posts but ONLY to get a point across and sometimes to give updates. My posts have served a purpose *purpose of this post is to fOOking stick up for myself* therefor they cannot be considered aimless. Asa mater of fact I do believe I have been THANKED a couple times for my posts/updates. Once by bluelighter, the other by a moderator if I recall correct. Notice a pattern here? Thus far its only been yoo two *refering to ayrios n droop here* who have had issues w/my posts. However, I've noted that *negro* has just jumped into the picture. Not sure why *yet* but i'll find out.

*droop* Yoo say that it seems as tho I know nothing about Dave and that yoo dont even think I should call him a *friend*. Guess whut? Yoo assumed and thought wrong. Dave and I have been talking via. phone bout about a year now give or take a little. Even though I live on the opposite side of the country from Dave and have never met him face to face he IS still considered a *friend* to me. As I had mentioned before *yes repeating myself again in case yoo missed the memo* I care about Dave the same way I do my friends out here in colorado. When I heard that he overdosed, I felt the same way I would've had one of my friend did the same out here. YES I admit I dont know Dave in the same way I know my best friend. But I feel I know enough. Heres a few
things for yoo to ponder: #1. If Dave didnt consider me to be a *friend* then why the hell would he tell his dad to give me the nursing homes # eh'? #2. Why the HELL was Dave so happy to have heard from me while he was in the nursing home? For the record he knew right off the bat who I was and im sure that he was very selective about who he did/didnt want to talk to at the time. #3 is something I would rather pm yoo about. I'll give yoo a hint in that it was something I felt I HAD to do and it got him in some bigtime trouble at home. Yet, he chose to forgive me for it. Forgiveness plays a key part in friendship yunno'. Yoo had also
said that yoo have a good idea about whut Dave would say about
us being *friends*. To this I strongly suggest that yoo CALL him and find out for yourself whether or not your *idea* holds water. CALL him at home and find out for yourself if all I said was true. Who better to hear the truth from than the horses mouth *Dave*
eh'? Along with all the other stressors going on in his life im sure that Dave would just LOVE to hear about the pointless drama yoo
and I got going on. Which by the way started over fucking spelling
for petes sake blah'. Go ahead and CALL him though if yoo wish. I assume yoo have his number right? Lastly, Yoo said and I quote
"We come here to see updates from Ashlie or Samantha". Just in case yoo didnt know *we* implies EVERYONE. In other words yoo
chose to speak for EVERYBODY on this board. Who are yoo to be speaking for anyone at all eh'? Another thing is I really dont think
people here care who updates/info on Dave come from *besides yoo of course*. Ashlie has been of OUTSTANDING help here with her updates about her brother. I dont think anyone here could argue this. However, Ashlie had told me over the phone that she was having some difficulty gaining access to this site *password-user name issues*. Thus the reason why it probably took her so long to post another update. Ashlie had given me permission to go ahead and post info on Dave while she was trying to solve this
problem. Just as Dave himself had given me permission to post an
update while he was in the nursing home. WTF difference does it make who the updates come from huh? Samantha is kewlness as hell, yet she hasnt been around the board in awhile. I'm not sure where shes at but whut are yoo going to do? Just sit here and wait for an update from her and disreguard everyone elses? lol. Makes no sense to me *shrugs*

*negro* YES I agree she has a right to post, just as I. I believe it was justa missunderstanding between she n I seen as how I dont think she recieved my last pm. I dont feel as though I have been offensive in any of my posts. If I have been I appologize. However in my defense, I would think that being called an *utter annoyance* would be considered quite offensive. Wouldnt yoo? I, unlike the person who called me this have not resulted to name calling, nor do I plan to either. All I been *trying* to get across is that somethings are best left private. Thats all.

*edit to THANK negro-kitty for standing up for me* :)
 
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Re: sticking up for myself. must be done.

Yea, i asked you, because at the time i didn't ask his dad for it--i don't know his dad and i wanted to get off the phone w/him quick as possible so i said i'd find the number myself. he gave me the room number and thats all i needed. i don't even know if had the # with him right then and there either.

So what does this have to do with me saying something to you that you wanted to keep private like your post mentioned??? and if that something was so private, why did you just tell me what you told me in private here?
you are really confusing to talk to.


"i got the # from her and disregard everyone elses"?

what, exactly are you talking about??

As i said before, dave doesn't really care about any of this "we miss you" stuff because he thinks it's pretentious. the stuff ive reported is not even that personal, and would've been talked about by someone else later anyway.
I got all your PMs and if you're wondering if you thought i didn't get them, you can track the message through your user control panel.
 
Okie *curious/amanda* I'll just out n say it. Whut I *thought* should be kept private was the fact that Dave still has open fent scripts. Not only that, but also that he has every intention of using them now. Secrets out now, no longer private. I just look at it like this: If I overdosed on a certain drug I really wouldnt care for anyone to know that I intended to use the same drug that caused me to overdose in the first place. I dont know, it would be kinda embarassing. AGAIN THOUGH thats just me. Everyones different as to how they react to certain situation yunno'? Dave may not care that the ENTIRE board now knows that he's still dabbling in the same drug in which he made a *mistake* with. Mind yoo this *mistake* almost cost him his life. Another thing is that I did not post EVERYTHING I had told yoo via, pm. There was one thing that I chose to tell yoo and yoo only, not the entire board. This may have been overlooked on your part? I dont know
check again.

The quote yoo put up was directed at *droop* and not yoo. Unless I'm missing something here?

Must admit that yoo were right in one of your posts when yoo said that Dave really wouldnt want us to be making a big deal outa this. This is probably very true.

Thanks for telling me how to track pms. Had no idea how to do so till now. Might not get much use though outa knowing how to do this seen as how i never get em'. Asa matter of fact my 1st pm was from yoo. :)
 
this thread is getting ridiculous

IRIE, what's with the god complex, you act like you are special because you have phreex's phone number, i don't think anyone here cares if you've talked to him or not, your posts say nothing in them, the only thing i've read in them is you bragging about talking to him at the nursing home and talking to his dad or whatever, if you actually have an update on his condition then post it, i don't think there is much to be said at this point anyway, so shut up.
 
Wow, where the fudge have I been.

PhreeX, my big heart goes out to u. Can't wait to read the trip report. :)
 
there should be no drama, and i dont wanna take anyones drama private.

irie, i cordially state this for the last time, dave didn't care about what i knew, he freely answered questions, it was not a big deal and it still isnt now. he knew i was going to post about it, he isn't embarrassed. he was going to make a big post about when he so desires to return just to set everyone right on this. I respect that you want to respect boundaries here, but this isn't complicated or substantial enough to warrant the need for boundaries. it's an update and support thread, not a discussion/debate on ethics.

about the quoting, i don't know what or who was mistaken -i find your posts pretty confusing. it could be the sedatives you're on making things difficult. oh well, no harm was done nor intended, so i'm cool.
 
though i've never known or talked to dave i really hope that he posts exactly what happened here. as someone who has od becuse he fucked up and should have known better i know that there is nothing to be ashamed of. as dave has preached when i did od it wasn't the drugs fault it was my own... i knew better but i was to fucked up to judge how much i had done. i have quit doing drugs because i had to come to the conclusion that i could not do them not even close to responsible. i just want people to learn from my mistakes. if we all were more open about when we o'ded and could tell everyone how we fucked up everyone could be safer.... hell we all 95% of the people wouldn't listen but if only 5% could learn from my mistakes i would have no problem telling everybody i knew
 
Ah fuck it I havn't posted yet but here goes.

Im glad PhreeX has pretty much pulled through. He made some damn good posts here, and some pretty hilarious ones. He also made a few really nasty posts too but no ones perfect are they.

I refuse to refer to him as Dave, as some pretentious people seem to be doing. I only know PhreeX, I do not know Dave. PhreeX is a knowledgable person who posts on the internet. Dave is a real person in another country to me.
 
Hey: IRIE and CuriousCub, if you have stuff to talk about personally, please take it to PM or email. It's not relevant to the thread.
 
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on another note, take it easy phreex..


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Tone it down, buddy. Personal attacks on other members will not be tolerated.

- NK -
 
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*Curious/Amanda* Is probably right in that I should'nt be posting here cuz #1. My pain level is way off the charts *just had my four pins removed* and #2. I havent really been myself considering the amount of pain meds I've been on lately. This will be my last post because *ayrios* is right. Dave is back and theres really no need to continue. Also it seems as tho' I'm gaining more foes than
friends here lately.

However, I must clarfy something to *slut* before I back off. I said whut yoo quoted because I am and always will be a WUSS when it comes to drugs. I am ALWAYS cautious in whut I put into my body and have NEVER *not once* had the guts to combine substances. I'm simply too afraid to. I have the tendency to LISTEN to my body when it doesnt like something I put in it. A good example of this would be weed. My body HATES me when I put any amount of thc in it, thus the reason why I DONT puff. Whut I said is how I myself feel. Not yoo, not Dave, not any one else on this board really. I KNOW fora FACT that if I overdosed on a certain drug it would scare me off. I KNOW fora FACT that if I overdosed on a certain drug I would NEVER use it again. The key word here is I because I know everyones different. As far as me saying it would be embarassing. Cant really tell you why I posted this thus the reason why I chose to delete it *not thinking clear, too many meds?*. I know that I could personally give a fuk about whut people think about whut I do so iunno'. *shrugs*

Okie finished.
 
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