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Everyone come together and pray for PhreeX

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*Ayrios* Werent yoo one of tha spelling nazis? HeH.

All I'm doing here is attemping to make lil' miss Ashlie feel better about posting here about her brother. Her last post led me to believe that she was uncofortable in doing so. I have personally spoke to Ashlie about Dave on numerous occasions. Ashlie LOVES
and wants the BEST for her brother, as any natural sister would. She has helped us ALL out here with updates on Daves condition,
yet, she feels as tho Dave is going to be *mad* at her for posting.
In knowing Dave she may be right. Dave may even be mad at me. Perhaps even all of us for posting about him. Whut it comes down to is that Ashie didnt come here to post about her brother out of SPITE. Rather, she came here to post updates for ALL of us who CARE about Dave with GOOD intentions, not BAD. Hopefully when Dave reads this he'll realize this to be true and not be mad at all.

Ashlie=Kewlness' no doubt.

Also another thing I was attemping to do with my post is let Ashlie
know that I have both SYMPATHY, but most importantly EMPATHY for her situation. I must ask, do yoo? I personally know whut its like to HELPLESSLY watch someone yoo LOVE go down the wrong path in life. HELPLESSLY is the key here because there really isnt ANYTHING yoo can do to help them back on the right path. In my past experience usually the wrong path leads to despair and at times even death. The right path I believe leads to HAPPINESS as well as LIFE. I'm just about 99.9% sure that Ashlie and I feel the same in that we wish that Dave would allow this tragic event to point him towards the right path. I say again, Dave has a chance here to start his life all over witha fresh brand new CLEAN slate. In my personal opinion this chance should be taken advantage of and not taken for granted. Its VERY hard for me *as Daves friend*
to hear and know that he is choosing to let this chance he's been given just pass him by. I was trying to let Ashie know that I know how she feels. Ashlie almost lost her brother due to an overdose, yet Dave chooses to continue using. I almost lost my best friend of twenty years due to two heatattacks, yet Joyce continues to restrict her food and throw up. Unfortunately, there is NOTHING NOT A DAMNED THING I can say or do for Joyce to help her out of her disorders and its quite frustrating. I have realized since that
SHE has to WANT help. I assume Ashlie, the same could be said for your brother? *shrugs*

Now I would like to ask *ayrios* wtf was so wrong with my post. How the hell is letting Ashlie know that I can EMPATHIZE with her situation NOT helping eh'? I'd really like to know blah'.

Last words. I almost cried when Ashlie posted that Dave said that
*death woul have probably been very peacefull* :(
 
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Just talked to Dave again. I wanted to call and see how he's doing. He is in fact at home alive n well. He sounded VERY tired. In fact our convo lasted less than 5 minutes because he wanted to go back to sleep. I was told by him I was the first to contact him at home. So if theres ne one else out there who cares about him *besides me* I assume he would like to hear from ya'. I may be wrong in my assumption though. I just don't know.

He spoke of a appointment he has coming up soon. He also said that it *might* pose a problem. Now that Dave survived this overdose and he is alive n well I find myself hoping n praying that this appointment will go smoothly for him. I even asked Dave if he could re-schedule it seen as how he's been through so much STRESS already. I forsee this appointment causing him MORE
stress than needed. He said no and that he must go. :(

I HOPE all goes well for him.

*Edited outa respect for Dave. Shuck your right, my mistake*
 
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Karin, I dont have Dave's home phone number... we really weren't that close although I do have real love for the kid--next time you speak with him, I'd appreciate it if you could give him all my best wishes and relate how elated I am that he's well...

~jerzeezfinest (*cassidy*)
 
for some reason i think that this guy might not want anyone who reads this board to know such intimate details about such a personal subject. but then again, who among us doesnt enjoy voyuerism?
 
Famine: I have yet to see him online. He's probably sleeping. Must
feel GOOD for him to be able to sleep in his OWN BED finally. :)

Jerzee/cassidy: Will do. Consider it done. :)
 
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I've debated whether or not to reply to this thread; I don't really know Dave that well. The extent of my knowledge of him are the few e-mails I sent him regarding stuff to which he responded. Again, I've debated as to whether I should post because I don't want to sound like I know him really well, and then sound trite.

From what I've gathered about PhreeX, he's a VERY knowledgeable and valuble member of bluelight.ru. Again, I don't know him very well, but I'm certainly sorry that what happened had to happen, and I certainly hope he gets better (physically, emotionally, spiritually, mentally). I'm not going to say I expect him to totally stop doing stuff. That's for him to decide, not me. All I am justified in saying is that I hope he gets better and that I wish him the best of luck in whatever he chooses to pursue.

Hope you're better, Dave. We miss you.
 
Congrats on making it all out alive PhreeX. I wish you the very best for the future, you have contributed a great deal here.
 
Phreex needs to at least give recovery a shot...

Go to rehab, try to clean up, (thats the least you can do for your family who obviously have helped you through this). In a few years when you look back on this I bet you will say "Damn I fuct up, I shoulda cleaned up and stuck with my family, maybee now I wouldnt be facing a 5 year stint in the pen for selling my scripts".

It would seem to me that dave cant handle not abusing the meds he is given, why not try a new doctor? Obviously the doc who is continuing the script for Fent. isnt to smart. Why not try a less abusable opiate if you are in so much pain, like methadone or something of the likes LAAM. Or are you in pain? Just another scam to get pain meds?...
 
i really dislike being someone's spokesperson w/o their direct permission, but this speculation is just getting inane. Dave has a legitimate prescription funded by legit insurance for a legit physical health problem. The doctor allowed the script for fent to continue, that is all. From what i know, it was only this one incident where it showed that he abused that specific prescription, by carelessly using the patches.
 
First to answer *SEEDS* question: In knowing Dave I would say it would be both. Dave does in fact have LEGITIMATE pain that must be adressed. Yet, at the same time hes an addict and at times I *think* he does overdramatize or *scam as yoo said* docs to get more pain meds. Maybe Daves addiction started due to his legitimate pain and need for opiates? iunno'. I do agree with yoo tho in that I think Dave should give recovery a chance. Either that or I think he should cut back. But whut i THINK doesnt matter. Dave it going to do whut he wants no matter whut. Even tho its PLAIN AS DAY that his friend n family FEAR for his life now, hhes still going to continue. I *as his friend* wish this wasnt the case, but it is, and I STILL plan on being there for him no matter what. NO questions asked. :)

Secondly *curious/amanda* I pm'd yoo something that I felt should be kept private, yet yoo posted it for all to see. I dont get this. I personally think whut was posted should remain private n not put here for ALL to see. As yoo can see I even edited my last post bout Dave cuz I felt I posted too much personal info about Dave. I put myself in his shoes n realized that there really has vbeen ALOT of info posted here that he may consider to be quite personal. iunno'. On a brighter note, I don't believe that yoo have posted ne thing here *at least I hope yoo havent* just to spite Dave, Rather, I hope yoo have posted simply for updates and info regarding Dave. :)

PS: I finally pmd yoo back. Sorie it took so long.
 
I would really suggest you just stop posting IRIE. You seem to just aimlessly ramble and seem to know nothing about Dave. I really don't think you should call him your "friend," and i have a good idea on what Dave would say on the matter.
Sure you can go off on your babygames calling us "spelling nazis" but each of your posts just progressively get more annoying.

We come here to see updates from Ashlie or Samantha, please do us a favor and quit being an utter annoyance.
 
Dave does in fact have LEGITIMATE pain that must be adressed. Yet, at the same time hes an addict and at times I *think* he does overdramatize or *scam as yoo said* docs to get more pain meds.
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This has a lot to do with how I got hooked.

I had a legitmate need for opiates for pain issues. I also enjoyed getting high. And I mixed business and pleasure. I'd take far more drugs than I needed for pain so I could also have fun. Eventually I developed an extremely high tolerance and started using the drugs when I didn't need them. Then that became a major problem because I needed ridiculously high doses that nobody was willing to give me when I had legitimate pain.

I had quit everything for a while. Then I started having pains again. My tolerance was still so high that it wasn't long after I started using for legitmate reasons again that I was hooked in no time and more or less forced back on street heroin. I've had a serious problem ever since. I can't function without taking something for my pain here and there. But my addiction is ruining my life at the same time. And the cherry on top is that I routinely go through withdrawal.

At any rate, I think anyone with an addictive personality that recreational abuses opiates knowing they can always get them is a fucking idiot. And you're moreso an idiot if you have a legitmate pain problem and start abusing the medication.
 
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most of the people i know that have gotten hooked on opiates originally had legitimate pain issues... its really sad to see what it does--ive watched it over and over and over again, my own father included...fuck, me too almost. my best wishes are with those in need...

::btw-Love In Vein, I always love your posts... I truly feel that you have more knowledge in your left pinky finger than most of the people on this board--there are few whos words I read and light up to see, you are one of those few.::
 
Secondly *curious/amanda* I pm'd yoo something that I felt should be kept private, yet yoo posted it for all to see. I dont get this. I personally think whut was posted should remain private n not put here for ALL to see. As yoo can see I even edited my last post bout Dave cuz I felt I posted too much personal info about Dave. I put myself in his shoes n realized that there really has vbeen ALOT of info posted here that he may consider to be quite personal. iunno'. On a brighter note, I don't believe that yoo have posted ne thing here *at least I hope yoo havent* just to spite Dave, Rather, I hope yoo have posted simply for updates and info regarding Dave.
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what PM are you talking about??? i have no idea what you are referring to AT ALL. i don't want to be on shitty terms with anyone at BL, so please clarify this.

ANY info i posted here, i have told him about when i've chatted with him--it's NOT THAT BIG OF A DEAL. i don't know why you keep making it out to be. none of what we've posted here has been that personal either, so what is the deal?

of course i haven't posted anything here to slander dave --how could i be cool with him if i was out to offend him?
it's very very obvious that i posted to update and inform, and that's it.
i think you are taking your involvement with dave a little overboard because none of this is really that big of a deal, and he for sure does not want it to be a big deal.
 
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