blase deviant
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Xanax or any benzo.
Tiesto said:^ur just like me. I've done tons of stuff too but im not addicted to it.
the only thing i regret, is turning weed into an everyday habit.. I want to stop, but i want to keep smoking. i want both lol. without weed im such an angry person (ive had anger problems since i was a kid), i would SNAP on the smallest, dumbest things. i can't keep myself calm. if i try to make it through the day without smoking, everything is so stressful because its like, "man all this bullshit is happening to me 2day and i don't even got a spliff to look forward to when i get home" - that kills it. i can put up with life and all the bullshit that comes throughout the day, but only if i know in the back of my mind i got a spliff to calm me down when i get home. if i don't, i just keep stressin and stressin, until I breakdown and start cussing and screaming like a wild man in my house.
I regret starting when I did. When my peers were playing outside, I was getting high.**hAyzzZZ** said:As bad as shit was, i learnt some valuable lessons which ill never, ever forget.
WAY2CREZY4U said:I feel as if I'll never be myself again. Meth is one thing I'll never recommend getting into. Since Ive tried it .. feeling depressed alot. Im kewl and feeling good on it. But when i start to get sober and think im just like what the hell am i doing with my life. I work and what most would consider goal oriented living life to its fullest. But Im a fake .. I have to make myself smile and carry on conversations. When all i want to do is be alone . I've got 2 sets of friends that dont know each other from jack shit. Non user and user ... Sometimes its like I live 2 different lives.
Just ranting im all geeked and alone with my mind going 90 to nothing ...
some drugs are worse then others and meth/ice is bad
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Drug-Alchemist said:I regret most trying to make people understand what I'm doing. Due to that, I have completely lost contact to one of my friends who thinks I'm totally lost case, a junkie without any hope. Others I have alienated, including my mother who knows everything of my drug-usage but doesn't understand my motives, and thus despises me. But, on some level I knew it from day one, that such sacrifices would be my price.
So, in the end I regret trying to be honest to people who choose not to understand.