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Ever wish you never tried it

if i didn't use drugs i wouth have never bine howe i was now ,so no i don't wish i never tried it.

but it has a some negative effect's now(insomnia) but that's what i did to my self ,so maybe i wish i didn't use so much of them....
 
Yeah, insomnia sucks no matter what. But it especially sucks when you're sober and bored. You don't have a dam good reason to be that nocturnal. I've recently divorced meth. In my dark solitude, while trying not to rebound to my dependant love, I have way tooooo much time to think about the stuff, . When tweaked I used to compare myself to an owl. Nocturnal creature floating about. Wide eyed and paranoid. WHO, WHO
"WHO's that?" "WHO made that noise?" "WHO's watching me?" "WHO's voices are those?"...... You get the point.
Sober Insomnia sucks
 
At times i regret ever taking that first puff of bud because it is what led me down this whole path of all the drugs, but ive realized that from every mistake ive made ive learned something. As long as you get something out of it you should regret it. I did regret ever doin heroin for a while though...
 
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I wish I had never done X!! I was 30 years old and was drunk and my cousin popped one in my mouth and BOOM..........I fell in love. After about a year of hanging with people that done X, I decided HELL let's try some Coke and Ice...........anyways moral to the story if you try one drug MOST will always go to another.......I was always told that and now I am living proof.... I hate going out clubbing and just wanting to get drunk..... My brain tells me that I can not drink without coke or x now.... So much for the "good ole days".. partying with friends and drinking beer.......GONE FOREVER8o
 
Sometimes I wish I would've never tried anything at all. Sometimes I wish I could just quit doing everything I'm doing, which isn't a lot, there's people worse than me by far, but I still hate the fact that every fucking dollar that I get goes to pot, or something else. I really don't see anything wrong with smoking weed, but when you get to a point where you think you need it (I know theres no pyhsical dependecy on marijuana, but there sure as fuck can be a mental dependancy), you just need to slow down. I've been smoking every day for as long as I can remember, and last night my mom found my shit and now I have no more and I don't know what the fuck she's going to say considering I'm only 15 and have already been caught with it, been on house arrest and probation and all that stuff. I love being high it's the best thing in the world to me because I'm actually happy when I'm high, and I'm really fucking sad and lonely when I'm not. I wish I never wouldve tried blow either because now whenever I think about it I just get sad because I want it, and I know that I won't let myself do it anymore and it just makes me sad. I don't really know what the fuck I'm trying to say because I think weed HAS made my life a lot better but I think sometimes it's not worth it.
 
I wish id never tried pot, cause now. My train of thought is shot to shit, I have no memory, i have a serious loss of self. and i think mixing lsd and weed/hash has developed a poly drug syndrome where i experience connectedness+loss of self/difficulty holding a linnear train of thought. Mixed with the openess of e. That really drags people down with you. All because of pot use. I love/hate it.

Its like open paranoia mixed with train crashes that you were part of wheither you like it or not. It's scary, I wish I could find myself, but all that acid logic explained it already - too bad I cant use it without forgetting it in mid thought.

I think I'll be okay?
 
Hmm....I don't think there is anything I wish I hadn't tried. There are plenty that I WANT to try, I'm just not brave enough to.
 
I only really do xtc and weed week in week out.I wish I never took XTC its just fucked up my body and made me extremly depressed.Weeds grand though and i rarely do coke or speed so that hasnt effected me at all really
 
The only drug I really wish I'd never tried is Zoloft, and all the other stuff my doctor thought I should take that only made things worse. And I wish my boyfriend had never touched heroin...
 
i tired what i tried only because i did my research. there are a lot out there that i will never try. i'm glad for the ones i did and i'm glad for the ones i didn't. it wasn't always fun, but i sure learned a lot
 
i wish i never did heroin. That turned out to be a sketchy path. and recently i tried ice for my second time and did a three day binge... and im realy hoping this drug doesnt become a problem child.
 
I don't regret my heroin use, but if I could, I would have skipped Meth. Had I know all the problems it would cause for me all those years later the temptation would have not been there. I can't forget cigg's too, I want to be able to breath again.
 
I usto hate snubing my non gear taking mates for my gear taking mate and vice verser, when I look back at some of the bull shit excusses I made up I piss my self laughing, I hear ya with the living 2 different lives becomes very stressfull
 
i don't regret trying anything because all my drug abuse has led me to where i am today. i have an addictive personality so it was hard for me to quit everything but i did it. i still crave cigs, and meth but i know that shit fuccs with your mind and i can't handle it if i relapse. i've been clean for awhile now, i try not to keep track because it makes me think about it so if i just forget it completely, i won't have the temptation. i'm dying to go raving and drop E and acid again, but it's not because i'm addicted to the drug, i'm addicted to the feeling i get out of them. the one drug i tried that i find is fuccin NASTY was crack and i didn't even know i did it. i was coming off a 3 day tweek binge and i wanted to stay up for just one more day...my "homies" told me if was shit...MY ASS!!! i was in stuck mode, sitting on a couch for 3 hours. i did it 2 more times after that and vowed not to touch it again. it made me feel dirty and god only knows what they did to me while i was under the influence...i didn't and still don't remember anything that happened that night after i smoked it and come to think of it...i really don't wanna know. like i said, drugs have fucced me up big time but without them, i wouldn't be me.
 
i know wish id never hid my use from mates, because now we've bnoded and are that open with each other that we can do whatever in front of each other.

my mates and i dont use a lot, but when a few of us or even just one of us gets on it we can be open with it and let them know. its always a laugh when i can go round a mates buzzin of me head and see them look at me and laugh and just say something funny like "lookin a bit buzzed up there bee" haha.

peace out
 
I don't regret trying any drugs because in the begining I had some incredible times that I'd never want take back. However I do regret not having the self control to limit my usage when I know I should have. I'm talking mostly about E and weed. I'm not completely fucked or anything, but when I look back on my life over the past 4 years I have started to open my eyes up to how over long term my usage has actually effected me more negatively than I realised.
 
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