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Ever wish you never tried it

^^consider yourself lucky. it's rough knowing that i can get the finest stuff delivered to my hands in less than 10 minutes. having no hookup is a blessing in disguise.
 
cocaine=slavery.

crack is traumatic. it gave me PTSD.

i wish i never tried it.

i wish it would disappear from the planet.

cocanie is the 3rd scourge of humankind behind alcohol and morphine. i believe meth is 4th.
 
i dont regret anything, because then id go on thru life wondering "what if". i guess i had to experience heroin and opiates first hand to decide what the big fuss was all about.
 
I've tried: weed (many times), meth (about two times), shrooms (only once), and coke (about three times)

I don't regret taking any of these. I don't have a desire, or craving to try these again...but ecstasy and raves, that's another story. The desire/craving to drop ecstasy at raves for me is very intense. I experienced negative side effects of ecstasy (panic attacks, slurred speech, basically not feeling sharp as I used to) and I was able to lay off ecstasy for close to three years. However, I am really drawn to the rave scene...so much that after being clean for awhile, I started dropping ecstasy and going to raves again. I'd attend at the most three raves in a one year period and I would drop at the most 1.5 pills.

I thought I had strong will power since my previous drug experiences never caused me to crave the experience again. But ecstasy/raves proved me wrong.
 
Meth or Alcohol.

I Love and Hate Meth. Each time i go back to meth I reach a new low.

Alcohol. Well out of all the drugs I've done this fucks me up the most. I cant hold alcohol for sh!t. And when I lose control i I reeeaaallly lose it!
Now when I go out I have to really watch my pace. Also alcohol has destroyed so many lives including my mother's that is was stupid of me to see all this hell created by alcohol and still have the balls to look the devil in the face. :(
 
shoulda coulda woulda

Thanks to the OP for starting this thread, it's a good outlet. So, do I wish I never tried it? I wish "IT" wasn't so readily available, hard to say no to IT.
I'm at a point now where, I only do IT at work (oddly enough) but once I have a drink.... it's done. I know I'll being getting IT to sober up... That's where the problem lies. I get IT, and keep doing it until.. now its 3pm and I'm still up. So the consequences are: cant go to work tonight so i miss out on money. :i was supposed to shopping for my girl friends bday gift saturday, it aint happening.

No, I'm ok withh having tried it, I just regret getting this comfortable with the process. 1. drink 2. get IT to sober, by that time its 2am 3. staying up allnight/day geeking out while my bf sees. He hears me run to the bathroom, and that whole thing is shameful. He hears me sniffling, even tho we're in seperate rooms. I wake him up to my coke sniffles. :(

It's controlling me, when i work, what i'm able to accomplish as far as my responsibilities.

I'm a slave.

Saving grace is its only twice a week occurance.

lol if no one reads this I'm fine with it, this was more for therapeutic purposes.

thanks OP
 
I also wish I had never tried any drug, my life chanegd the second I did it, you know what Im glad I never used that many times, I woke up early into it all. But In a way it saved me, Im getting my life together Ive got a nice job, I have a wonderful house to live in, I have wonderful friends and Im going back to school to finish my last year. If It wasnt for me trying drugs and getting the bad effects I did Id still be scopping around trying to find something else to do that wouldnt benifit me as much as I know what Im doing is!!
 
I'm content with the fact that I have tried all the drugs i have. On the other hand I have managed to aviod H and meth, so perhaps my viewpoint is a non-addictive one (although I do snort coke on occasions, its never taken hold.)

The experiences, friends and new perspectives I have gained through years of recreational drug use are ones which very important to me.

My career path from 18 years old was law, and everyone on my course was white, male, protestant, middle-class and very very boring. Had followed their social scene I would not be the well rounded and happy person that I am today.

But like I said, I have never had the trauma of addiction (with the notable exception of withdrawing from 600mg codiene per day after 6 weeks, bad snowboarding accident= 6 broken bones!).

To be perfectly honest, I love my life, and recreational drug use is an integral part.
 
oh yayo

the complexity of my adoration for cocaine has me wanting to say "i never wish i saw you" and " i can't imagine my life without you" in the same breath.
yes, i hate it, and i try and stop and i can go for a few weeks without destroying my nasal passages... but it always ends up a dead end, blowing $200 on a friday night by myself or with some people i really don't care about.
everytime i do it, i think " i can't live my life without this high "
an hour after i blow my last line, as i am shaking and my head is pounding and i start to cry, i think, i can never do this again or i will die soon.
 
sometimes i think i should never have tried IV meth, but when i look back on it i'm glad i got it out of the way because i would've ended up fucking myself over hardcore in the future instead of stopping like i did for school/family
 
I wish I would have never tried opiates.

But, at first I didn't like them that much, cause of the nausea and a weird stimulation i got from them. But after doing them a while they became the perfect drug, which led to my downfall. It was very hard climbing out of that hole. Now I'm stepping into a pothole with kratom. Not deep but i could sink. I'm not going to buy anymore of this shit and just hope withdrawal doesn't happen.
 
Im not really sure...all ive done is drink, weed, dxm once, and codein a few times. I dont regret doing anything..but i do believe smoking pot has definatley done something to me...and ive decided to stop..and it just happens to be at a rough time in my life..and im not really sure whether quitting is affecting it or not...i dont really crave weed im not hooked..but i wonder if its making me more depressed..
 
Don't spend your time regretting things! It happened, now make the best out of it... like... quit?
But I really wonder why people regret taking DXM. I always enjoyed it alot and could stop without ever thinking about it again, after doing it two weeks straight!

crOOk
 
Yeah it would've been better if I had waited a couple of years, too. But who really gives a fuck? :D

crOOk
 
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