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Ever wish you never tried it

WAY2CREZY4U said:
I feel as if I'll never be myself again. Meth is one thing I'll never recommend getting into. Since Ive tried it .. feeling depressed alot. Im kewl and feeling good on it. But when i start to get sober and think im just like what the hell am i doing with my life. I work and what most would consider goal oriented living life to its fullest. But Im a fake .. I have to make myself smile and carry on conversations. When all i want to do is be alone . I've got 2 sets of friends that dont know each other from jack shit. Non user and user ... Sometimes its like I live 2 different lives.

Just ranting im all geeked and alone with my mind going 90 to nothing ...


some drugs are worse then others and meth/ice is bad



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wow, totally relate all too well, unfortunately. Been about a week off of it and finally starting to feel a little like myself again. i think it just takes a while to clear your head and get back into your old life...hopefully.
 
Most defiantly wished I'd never tried opiates. I'm just now getting my life back to the track that I wanted it to be on.
 
i wish i never abused extacy of xanax, i cant say i regret trying extacy but xanax I could of lived without
 
I've been addicted to opiates for almost 2 years now and there have been plenty of times (especially while withdrawling) I wish I never would have even taken a lortab let alone shoot dope every day. But honestly I don't regret anything, it has made me who I am, and though I may not be that happy with myself now, I have learned a lot about life, and I don't know that I would be any happier if I had staid in college and went on with the normal day to day "real" world. That is just me...though I still hope to be clean..someday...maybe
 
Opiate painkillers, I love the high so much, theres nothing that compares to the euphoria feeling, the warmness, and the feeling of how everything is perfect.
I made up my mind to not abuse it, I will just use it recreationally in moderation for once a week, I'm pretty sure I'm able to control myself.
 
starcraft said:
I made up my mind to not abuse it, I will just use it recreationally in moderation for once a week, I'm pretty sure I'm able to control myself.
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That's how it begins! ;)
 
i wish i had never done coke

this year would have turned out so so so differently

now im left loveless, filled with cravings, and the constant need to continue to push every boundary i can

things just would have been so different without my love/hate relationship for my sweet, sweet friend
 
yea starcraft that's what i said. you think someone says right from the getgo that they want to get addicted and be a junkie? many people are successful for years chipping away recreationally like that. but it's only a matter of time before king kong wraps his claws around you.

you've experienced it, you know what it feels like. move on while you can and run like hell...
 
I regret getting arrested with 7 felonies when I was 15 and dropping out of school to smoke speed, but it's really pointless to have these regrets. You can end up in a better place if you try not to fall backwards in your own tracks.
 
over many years i have lernt no to try and commite suicide , i knew someone whp tryed it on many occasions yet survived and from what i feel trys to die by overdosing on certain drugs , if you just say FUCK LIFE its bound to happedn i gaureente
nature r will takes its place eventually , so if you experiment do so take it easy and if youy die youy die but dont think about it too much remmeber you can die from the slightest things
 
ignorance is bliss. easier if u never start, because once u have a taste, its only natural to want more. normal living is bullshit.

i dont knwo where its all taking me now
 
adradmin said:
yea starcraft that's what i said. you think someone says right from the getgo that they want to get addicted and be a junkie? many people are successful for years chipping away recreationally like that. but it's only a matter of time before king kong wraps his claws around you.

you've experienced it, you know what it feels like. move on while you can and run like hell...
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Thanks, I decided to stop while I'm at it. I'm better off to stop now, than face the end results as time goes by. Too bad I'm stuck with addictive genes which sucks.
 
I've only rolled on MDMA a handful of times, but i love it. And in a way, i do regret it. Because it feels so damn good, everything else seems less impressive in comparison. It's like you live your life on a scale of 1-10. Your wedding day, birth of a child, falling in love, a big promotion or award, all these things could be 9's or 10's. But when you roll, all of a sudden you discover that there's a 14. Now all these 9's and 10's aren't so impressive in comparison. And you can't reach that 14 without X (or whatever your hardcore drug of choice might be.) You can be happier with your regular life if you never have your eyes opened to the higher numbers. Once you open that door, there's no going back.

Plus daily pot use wastes a lot of time. I've spent about 5 years stoned. I wonder what progress i may have made towards financial independence, what i might have accomplished or achieved if i'd spent all that time doing something productive.
(3 weeks without weed now. So far so good, but a long way to go...)
 
Nothing really, at least not yet.

So far I steered clear of things I knew I'd regret (i.e. heroin) and always kept my checks & balances on about other things.

One trick is to never say "I'm quitting for good", because you probably won't. If you just say "I'll take a break", then at least you won't feel weak and defeated, since you kept your promise. I always try to feel that I'm in control and achieveing small goals is much better for your ego than failing big goals - at least in this case..

Another is learning to see sobriety as just another state of mind. Being "on life" is not much different than being on a drug, really, but everyhing in moderation :)
 
banksy said:
I still crave glue
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Are you ahving a laugh... Ive never heard someone get addicted to glue.

BTW everyone that says they'd wished theyd never tried cocain.. im on the other side of the tracks. Here in Brisbane (AUS) you CANT GET IT ANYWHERE.. ive searched high and low to score but with o luck.. you guys have got no idea how good you have it..

As for my regrets.... it would have to be E for the reason the poster above gave
 
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