I didnt even know how to search for this since i couldnt think of keywords to use so my bad if its a repeat topic, just close or delete it, its all good.
But I was thinkin about something i get alot if i do OC (or dope but i aint used that in over a year and aint tryina go back.) my history -used to use alot of dope (diesel) and opiates in the past now i dont. shit i used to do alot of everything but ay.
Anyways
say i do 40mg. snort, yea yea, bla bla, get high whateva whateva, all that old shit.
Ill be sittin there chillin doin my thang. online, watchin tv, chillin, whatever the fuck i do.
When i get in the later stages of it i nod a little (iunno bout yall, but when i do it, i get high right away and all but it starts hittin real hard later on about a hour into shit.)
But when i nod i never just kinda "wake up" from it.
You know how you have a bad dream and you about to get hit by a bus, then you JUMP up and WAKE up like POW right before it hits you? layin in there in bed liek DAMNN, sweaty maybe, heart sped up a little?
I ll be noddin off but then its just like that. i get this sudden BOOM and i open my eyes and JUMP UP in my chair almost, like my body all tense, and my heart racing. like SNAP. "what the fuck just happened!?"
it feels almost like i fell asleep standing up, at the edge of a cliff, and im like "whoo, damn word, im glad i woke up for that one or i woulda fell right off, close call."
i dont know how to explain it really but its like someone went into my brain and really fuckin SLAMMED the switch to "awake."
everytime i snap out of it like that it, feels like i was "catching" myself or some shit. even doe nothing bad happened, or was gonna happen. i get a bad feeling for a snap second afterwards before i realize that everythings OK.
I only get it when i nod offa opiates no other drug is like dat, or even sobriety.
I used to pass out alot cuz of a medical thing and that is alot like how it felt to come back to consciousness from a passin-out episode too. i just thought of that. i always used to ahve a bad feeling coming outta that too til i got full grip of reality.
maybe my brain remembers that and it thinks its the same thing? or who knows maybe thats common with opiates.
iunno. Anyone get this too? it seems liek it might not be somethign thats only me.
But I was thinkin about something i get alot if i do OC (or dope but i aint used that in over a year and aint tryina go back.) my history -used to use alot of dope (diesel) and opiates in the past now i dont. shit i used to do alot of everything but ay.
Anyways
say i do 40mg. snort, yea yea, bla bla, get high whateva whateva, all that old shit.
Ill be sittin there chillin doin my thang. online, watchin tv, chillin, whatever the fuck i do.
When i get in the later stages of it i nod a little (iunno bout yall, but when i do it, i get high right away and all but it starts hittin real hard later on about a hour into shit.)
But when i nod i never just kinda "wake up" from it.
You know how you have a bad dream and you about to get hit by a bus, then you JUMP up and WAKE up like POW right before it hits you? layin in there in bed liek DAMNN, sweaty maybe, heart sped up a little?
I ll be noddin off but then its just like that. i get this sudden BOOM and i open my eyes and JUMP UP in my chair almost, like my body all tense, and my heart racing. like SNAP. "what the fuck just happened!?"
it feels almost like i fell asleep standing up, at the edge of a cliff, and im like "whoo, damn word, im glad i woke up for that one or i woulda fell right off, close call."
i dont know how to explain it really but its like someone went into my brain and really fuckin SLAMMED the switch to "awake."
everytime i snap out of it like that it, feels like i was "catching" myself or some shit. even doe nothing bad happened, or was gonna happen. i get a bad feeling for a snap second afterwards before i realize that everythings OK.
I only get it when i nod offa opiates no other drug is like dat, or even sobriety.
I used to pass out alot cuz of a medical thing and that is alot like how it felt to come back to consciousness from a passin-out episode too. i just thought of that. i always used to ahve a bad feeling coming outta that too til i got full grip of reality.
maybe my brain remembers that and it thinks its the same thing? or who knows maybe thats common with opiates.
iunno. Anyone get this too? it seems liek it might not be somethign thats only me.
